First day of high school

Warning, includes

Self abuse

A few cuss words

And VERY SHITTING WRITING SKILLS

Alexa's POV

"Don't worry I won't let you go" a female voice said, I don't know who she is but she was holding me. Before I could start to enjoy the warmth and comfort of her hoodie I hear a sharp ringing in my ears. I tried to cover them but the ringing just got louder and louder. I shut my eyes tightly but the ringing was still there. I opened my eyes and I wasn't in the mystery girl's arms anymore I was in my room.

I sat up and turned off my alarm clock. I looked around my room for something decent to where, but most of my good clothes were in the boxes I had packed up the day before. It was going to be my first day of collage and we had dorms so I had to pack.

Once I finally found a hoodie that was partly clean, and I just decided to where the shorts that I had on the night before. Once I got dressed I grabbed my luggage and dragged the heavy suitcases down the stairs, I set them by my cat,( mrs.wiggles) and went into the kitchen for breakfast.

I thought my mom would be there to at least say goodbye but I should have known she was never really there for me, ever since my dad "left" her she has been a mess. "She's probably with another random guy that she found on the street" I hear a voice say I turn around and there she is my older sister "slut" I mumble under my breath. She couldn't help but laugh.

"Well are you excited for your first day of collage" she asked me as she was walking over to the fridge. "Meh", I didn't really wanna go to collage but I got offered a scholarship. "Oh come on it won't be that bad" she said trying to reassure me. "Yes it is" I said pushing away the words she threw towards me.

We didn't talk much after that she drove me to "school". Once we got registered and all that they told me my dorm number. When I got there I went straight to the bathroom. I stared at myself in the mirror

I watch as tears feel my eyes, " your stupid, your worthless, why would she ever care" i said to myself. "You.....YOU CANT DO ANYTHING RIGHT YOU ARE SO SO SO SO FUCKING STUPID" I tell my self as I pull my folding knife out from my back pocket. As all the memories replay of my dad, and that one day "I love you" I say laughing trough my tears. As I hold the knife up the my wrists and slowly slide it down. Putting more pressure as I go down more and more blood rushes out.

"WHAT THE FUCK" I hear a scream I turn to look but before I can, everything blurred and I slowly fainted.