I can't go home!

Alan left after we had finished talking and I had so many unresolved questions. First of all who was that girl that he liked so much and second of all, why I was feeling this way?

I never thought I would be worried about Alan's sudden change. I always thought he would have a crush on the heroine, but the time when Jonathan leaves on an expedition and finds her lonely in the forest is still far away.

And the feeling I felt when he asked me to respond to his question, I had never felt that before, and I was surprised even with myself. As if he had betrayed me. I was s..somehow...jealous?

Probably because Canary talks so much about a relationship between me and him, it must have stuck into my head that there is something between us even though I am against it.

Sigh, my head hurts thinking about this, and I have other problems to deal with right now, where should I stay on vacation until the academy starts?

Father and Giselle surprise me with their answers, and I have a thought that they are either keeping something secret from me or they don't want me to come back.

"Young lady Corttes? Is anyone here by that name?"

"Yes I am, I am Lady Corttes, what happened?"

I hope nothing bad.

"A letter has come in your name."

"Oh thank you!"

On the letter is the stamp of our family, my father must have sent me an answer on where I will stay.

"Nasya, I hope you are well and not disoriented from your duties. I am writing this letter after a long conversation with one of our relatives who are in the capital, I let him know that you are attending the academy there and you need a place to stay because our house is too far away and I don't want you to get tired going here and there. He gave me the word that he will send a carriage to pick you up and take care of you. I even believe that you will not feel the lack of home for these two months. As for the previous letter, I don't want you to have bad thoughts about it, because I wrote the letter in a hurry and I couldn't give you an explanation, but trust me my daughter that this is best for you. I hope to see you soon and take care of yourself!"

You don't want me to have bad thoughts, huh! It is strange because no matter how many times I read it, the letter is incomprehensible, he didn't tell me who I will stay with, but simply that someone will take care of me.

To someone, these may seem beautiful, perhaps unexpected words, coming from the Marquis of Corttes, but I know my father and he is not apologizing nor does he seem concerned about the fact that I may have had bad thoughts about the first letter he send me.

As I thought, he is hiding something from me. And he certainly knows nothing about the letter that Giselle sent to me separately. But I think that even if I write to her for explanations, she will not say anything.

After that, I stood in front of the gates for the carriage that my father told me would come and take me to his relative.

I don't know how long I stood waiting. The time passed and the carriage was nowhere to be seen.

"As I thought, no one would come to pick me up."

I went back to the library, but first I told someone working there, to let me know if anyone searched for me.

Of course, they are busy at this time of year and mostly leave the gates open waiting for the carriages, but since the peak when people leave has passed and there are fewer students left in the academy, the guards are back again in their places.

In the library, I had nothing to do but since I didn't want to go to my room early I continued where I left off. Time passed and nothing happened, the voices coming from the dormitories not long ago had ceased. It seems that everyone had left and no one was left in the academy except me.

In the end, I lost hope that I would leave today and I thought that the next day I would hear something from the mysterious person who had agreed to take care of me. My father told me that I would have a good time so that I would not miss home, but I believe that the only thing that will remain in my mind is my room and my warm bed, the delicious food of the house, and the good treatment of Giselle.

If I think now, this shows that I haven't learned to live alone and I have overdone it with my whims. Here I have no servant or chef to cook the things I want, everything I have to do it myself.

'I wonder, how could I take care of myself in my first life?'

The dorm room was empty without Canary. She always knows how to lift my spirits after each tiring day of class. We both went to the canteen to eat something and we talked there. When we got hungry later we would get instant meals and prepare them in the room and share them, I miss those days.

I know that not a day has passed since Canary and her brother left, but I still miss her and I would like her to be here with me. If only she lived in the capital.

A few days passed and there was no sign from that "relative" that father mentioned in his letter. Somehow it made me believe that he didn't exist at all and was "created" just so that I would not return home immediately that day and wait here convinced that someone would come.

Father lied to me and I have no way back home now that the academy is empty. At first, I thought that someone would stay here since there are opportunities for students who live far away or have problems with their family, to be accommodated in the dorm until they finish their studies, but there is no one anywhere.

In the morning I headed to the gate to see if any of the guards were there and asked if any carriages were planned to come today.

Luckily someone was there and told me that no one had arrived, except for one carriage that came last night and didn't leave, apparently it would take one of the boys who was on the other side of the dormitory.

For me, there was no better news than this, if the guard had not seen the carriage leave then if I moved fast enough to go to that person and ask him where he was going, then I could tag along.

Many thoughts crossed my mind as I was preparing my bags quickly and on the other hand, I was looking out the window if the carriage would leave. What would happen if that person would not accept, but if I go home now what expression, Father and Giselle would have when they see me?

Anyway, after I turned my room into a big mess and my heart was beating like crazy, I managed to finish the preparations and ran to the next building to meet the student who had not yet left the dormitory and hoped he would take me with him.

The buildings looked the same, and someone often confuses them if they don't pay attention. Certain happiness filled my heart when I saw that the carriage was still in front of the boys' dormitory, I don't know what to do now that I found it.

Should I wait here and ask the first person to come out if I could go with him? No, he doesn't know me and this would come out rude and it would seem like he had a duty to take me with him.

Maybe I should go and find his room and have the opportunity to talk, but it will take me a long time to find him since I have to check the rooms one by one.

'Well, if I stay here all day I will not solve anything, it is better to start searching right away.'

*

Looks like my soul is ready to leave my body..sigh…!

I could never have imagined that the dormitory would have so many rooms, it would be better to give up and go back outside, there I would be able to talk to him without any fatigue. Why didn't I do that from the beginning, I am an idiot for trying something like this.

Next time I have to appreciate those who take the trouble and wake us up every morning to go to class, they really deserv…

"What is a girl looking for in a boys' dormitory?"

"Kyaa!"

"What's the matter? Huh, what are you doing here young lady, I thought everyone had left the academy days ago?"

A boy my age, tall with a beautiful face, short gold hair, bluish-purple eyes with a mole under his left eye.

'I know this face, it definitely has to be.'

"Your highness, Jonathan?"

"Yes?"

Oh, great god! I almost had a heart attack! I never expected anyone to come out from behind me in this place and I was concentrated so much on my own thoughts, that I didn't hear someone's step coming directly at me.

'So prince Jonathan is the student who has not yet left the academy?'

Next to the prince was an adult, the one who spoke to me first and scared me to death. He didn't leave much impression on me because of the simple appearance he had and in his arms, he was holding some large boxes.

'He must be helping the prince get his things out of his room.'

Thank goodness it's him! Prince Jonathan is the male lead, he is defiantly going to help me get out of here.