Lifelessness

I never knew that love could hurt like this..never thought me of all people could go through this. This makes me wish that i never dreamed…No! I wish i never knew how to dream because all of this started with my and my dream..Because of my i have to let others suffer if i could be given a chance to take back my words..I wouldn’t have said anything back then. Seeing her cry every night and trying so hard to muffle her cries so that i will never know that she cries to sleep every night. While here i know and am trying my best not to show her that i know because its all partially my fault. They wanted a better future for us but i pushed them to the maximum that they lost themselves. Or is it in my head that it’s my fault? Am I really the reason behind? Should i ask because i think they really did had options to choose but they still did what they did. I actually don’t know what to do…..but all in all tbere have to be a villain in everybody’s story and j guess am the one in my own story…….