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Even if you don’t love me

the first time I saw you was in your sister's kitchen when you walked in,startling me. you were so intimidating,hostile and rude I had choked on the water in my mouth ,the glass cup slipped off cutting my feet. honestly back then I hadn't feel a tinge of pain because the the only thought that raced through my head was how to escape to my room I remember the day my mother had come to visit, bringing me new clothes and a pyjamas with many buttons...the buttons that would later be flung scattered on the floor because you had tugged at my pyjamas trying to kiss me...I pushed you away my entire being shocked ****** starting the semester by staying at her rich friends apartment 18 year old elizabeth Gilbert a college freshman, religious,studious and hardworking has her goal set in life; achive her dreams,and marry her beloved boyfriend. but no one seem to have told her this friend of hers has a certain bipolar,enigmatic and curt brother who is hell bent on testing her patience

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10 Chs

1~the new roommate

We all chorused an "amen" after my father who sat at the edge of the table. He is a big man and even while sitting he still towered over us. My mum, clasping her hand stood up and began dishing the food,humming softly .

I glanced across the table at my younger brother, although I couldn't see his face since he had his eyes fixed on the table. I knew he was dozing off. Looking down I picked at my nails, at the side of my thumb was a smudge of green paint,which I rubbed at repeatedly.

"Elizabeth,have you sorted out your luggage?"

my dads deep and loud voice startled me for a second, I blinked before quickly replying a yes sir

a low Hmm rumbled out of his chest,returning back to reading the pamphlet in front of him, I was rather dismissed

ceramic plate made soft clanking sound as mum piled food on our plates

"here"

my mum pushed a plate of food towards me and my brother, the smell of the perfume my father had gifted her last week on her birthday drifted to my nose,I almost choked It smelt just as horrible as the first time she had worn it. My father had said a friend recommended it to him so he had decided to purchase it,my mother not wanting to hurt his feelings had worn it even though the smell wasn't too pleasant

"Thank you" I dragged my plates hlafway from her towards me

For a while only the sound of clanging cutleries could be heard ,my parent made small conversation about this and that.

Chewing on my food I picked at strands of wool from my skirt when the screeching back of chair had me looking up

"I'm done" pushing his plates away my brother stood up to leave

"Sit, Daniel " not once did my father look up from his meal, wiping the corners of his mouth with a napkin, his tone was rather calm I but I know, we all know the calm fury behind his voice.

I made sure to glue my eyes to the food in front of me, I automatically brought my fork to my mouth.

the food tasted bland

"Your mother worked hard preparing the best dishes all day in the kitchen and you decided to leave it half eaten?or perhaps you've forgotten there are people out there searching through trashbin to find just a piece of bread ?young man sit down!" even Without shouting, his voice is quite loud and intimidating.

My mum let out a heavy sigh, Daniel had already sat back on his chair shoulder strung tight, blonde hair falling over his forehead, shadowing his downcast eyes

"Honey,please let him..he...you cant force him to eat when it's obvious hes lacking an appetite"

my mother pacified while bringing a glass of water to her lips

Father dropped his spoon, his voice admonishing

"Is it every day he's losing appetite?look at him rarely having any peice of flesh on him, all bones!"

My mother pinched the bridge of her nose slightly irritated. I quickly stole a glance at daniel who was stabbing around at his meal

ever Since we were kids my father would always get mad at us if we did not finish our food, reminding us always that his family had nothing to eat when he was a kid.

For a while It was silent again,except for faint noise of our neighbours dog barking

across me, mother broke the silence "Honey,have you packed everything necessary? Sure you did not forget anything?" My mother asked, the spot between her brows were still furrowed made sure to finish chewing my food before replying, unless I'll earn a glare from my dad

"Yes mum""

she gave a small approving nod

"....And sarah? have you called her today?"

"Yes mum"

My dad pinched in "Sarah...shes such a respectful and God fearing child, totally obedient to her mother" he glanced at my brother while saying the last part

from my peripheral I saw danile slightly flinch

I looked away

Sarah is the daughter of my mothers close friend in church,we had met three consecutive time before we even exchanged contacts and at first,  each of those meeting left  me as baffled as the other.

when her mum had offered for me to come stay in her apartment, that was closer to campus my father had immediately agreed saying he had been worried about how my dorm roommates might be a bad influence since he had heard many stories of kids turning out wild when they got into college <br/>So tomorrow my parents will be accompanying me to college or rather to sarah's apartment close to college

After dinner my mother and I had cleared the table and had done the dishes while my father lounged in the living room.

Before going upstairs I saw the empty transparent box at the foot of the staircase beside the wall. It had new coloured papers in it. randomly i picked one before heading up to my room upstairs ,My brother was about entering his room directly opposite mine Pausing, he had asked

"What did you pick"

I looked down at at the paper in my hand, unfolded it

"A verse about bad company" typical of father Daniel replied looking down at his paper "A verse about obedience" He smiled wryly rolling his blue eyes

"hes so predictable isnt he? A verse about obedience?…" I muffled my Giggles,the heavy footstep ascending the stairs had both of us hurriedly entering our rooms

After finishing my night duties I sat on my bed cross legged in front of me,I had placed a bulletin and a pamphlet taking notes and jotting down verses from the paper I had picked. whenever there are price of papers inside the box it mean my father wants us to read on whatever had been written on it Halfway through, I dozed off.

The next morning I had rushed down for morning prayers, going back up to take my shower while mum prepared breakfast downstairs.

when I came out of the shower I noticed my luggage wasn't in my room anymore I figured out my brother had probably carried them to the car while i was in the bathroom.

Breakfast was light and quick,with a little conversation in between and advices from my mum and dad. I nodded as they speak my eyes sometimes wandering to Daniel. it seems daniel was feeling better today because he finished his food

My dad after having me repeat several of his advice back to him, he looked satisfied and After breakfast we all hopped into the car with the exception of my brother who gave have me a tight hug in front of the car

"Have fun" he had whispered in my ear

"Hmn" I squeezed back smiling.

before let him go, I slipped a peice of paper into his pocket

My father had driven us out ,while my mum fiddled with the radio The phone in my hand beeped,hoping it was from James I had taped on the screen

"Who is it"

mothers sharp voice reached my ear

"Spam message" my gaze flickered from my phone to tge review mirror where her eyes slightly arched, questioning

It really was a spam message

I don't know when, but at a point i dozed off and was woken by my mums gentle taping on my thighs

"Beth,wake up"

From the windscreen I could see Sarah was outside the car with my father. they seem to be in a rather hearty discussion where he laughed patting her shoulders I alighted from the car slightly stretching my stiff muscles

Sarah had on a blue skirt that wept past her knee and a long sleeved brown cardigan, her brown hair in a simple side parting, She shot a glance at me and I looked away awkwardly

another story I started I hope you enjoy it.

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