A Beaten Hope

I woke up at 9 to wake my brother but something is different...

It feels warm hotter than usual it feels like im cooked alive but at the same time you don't feel it is weird and hard to explain,

is like a ghost only you can see or feel.

I go to my brothers room he is not there my mom is not there im agitated my blood comes rushing to my heart i feel pain all over my body. Is really unusual for them to leave, and more this feeling since i woke up is not normal something is happening.

I check my phone for any messages or a call something.

I text my brother and my mom but there is no imitated response, i walked around thinking why is my heart pumping hard and i feel like this is all wronged i feel like the world is wrong lonely almost

I leave the house to check if my moms car still there... I was confused the sky was black and red with yellow here and there it was raining black rain that feel down and made the world red it looks like blood when is coming down and like paint on the floor.

There is a smell of pee or i guess sulfur mixed with iron and rotten almost the same as a toad dead on the street or a dead human to say the least.

I seen black snow but never a black rain. After the initial confusion and anguish, i see on front of me trees are dead they looked like standing charcoal trees and plants look like life was dry out of them. It looks disgusting since we had flowers all around now it just a dead front.

I keep looking and see my moms car has not left now im scared what happen to them i feel like dropping to the floor and crying im scared of losing my brother the only this this world ever gave me that truly made me feel alive and not like a alien with no emotions whatsoever.

But no im stronger then i made a fist and as hard as i can i hit my legs as hard as i can and finally they stoped shaking im still scared.

My mind is trying to understand what is happening but there is no possible way i would understand the magnitude of what happen.

Them out of the sudden like a answer to a questing i never asked and is still deep inside my head. I hear a wind like a tornado hitting my ear saying "Welcome to Hell" I hear a high pitch sound as like a grenade in a movie.

The question that was never asked had a answer before it even came out of my mouth.

I walked back inside my head still going off about what happen.

I keep stuttering like a child trying to say a word i felt wrong i felt useless and angry at the universe for always hating me or more likely my mere existence...

I feel angry i hit the wall with all my strengths now my hand is numb and hurts but i don't think about the pain i only though of why why has my life has been a living shit and even do i was not the one taking the path i still fell down to misery.

My heart once again feels the pain of breaking multiple times in seconds a pain i felt so many times and that will every time hurt more and will never pass away is a pain that no matter how much you feel every time is worse and worse and you will think of going the easy way them to stand and confront it.

I laugh will i feel pain that will make someone go crazy and crazy every time i say to the world.

- You have taken so much away from me so much so that taking more out of my empty heart that is the same as trying to drain the ocean bucked at a time.

I knew someone heard that since they answer my question they or He-She felt angry and i felt the earth tremble and a wind hitting my house like a angry kid going berserk.

I laugh once again and get up from my feet my body feels week but my mind is not i even do sometimes appear stupid im well aware of my existence and everybody's else so i do not anger the beings that have put me in this Hell.

So god took the good ones?

I say while i asked another question.

If that's so my brother is one of them right?

As a answers to my simple question they say.

"Yes"

I see so why im in Hell?

"You know why"

Yes i know i always new if god existed this will happened 'Sight'.

Im the only one?

"No"

should i call you something?

"YOUR PUNISHMENT"

I stoped i don't want to push my luck more far away the voice sounded more heavy at the last question while taking a seat on my empty bed i asked in my head.

Will i see him or the others? Will they feel disgusted at me not that it matter but what matters will he still loved me as his big brother. Chris i hope you are okey and watching me don't worry you know me well and you know i wont stoped i never once did....

This question bounces around in my head like the only sound in the world i kept feeling heavy and more heavy my head hurt like needles were inside of it i rest in my bed in pain like that Day 1 passed.