Grief

She felt incredibly guilty thinking about how she was drowning in self-pity saddened by the fact that Benedict did not approach her. How could she expect him to act all happy for her and friendly when he was struggling with grief? 

She wanted to stop the male leads from going down a dark path... But did she have any success? Cassian still faces abuses from his mother, Benedict's mother died... And Dimitri... He went to the mage tower. Nothing has changed.

At least Dimitri was not suffering anymore, she thought to herself. For everything she did, she could only change the fate of one person... She was happy but that was not enough! She started her journey by only thinking about survival.

But with everything that has transpired, she knew that there was more to it. She was brought here for a reason. As goofy as the author was, she knew somehow... That she was here to help everyone. But here she was, barely scraping by.