Pleasure in hatred

I don't know what time it is. Now, all the time I'm just constantly in this room, sitting huddled near the glass wall, looking at the view of the forest outside which is slowly darkening, and since then no one has come.

I was tired and scared, angry and also surprised, I didn't expect that from the sweetness of the love he gave me, everything had to end up becoming an obsession that made me have to think again about staying with him.

yeah, this is too weird, terrible, and cruel, I didn't expect him to do this. sometimes it's hard to believe that this is because he doesn't want to lose me, but it seems like he wants to have me illegally, or maybe he has another girl and finally chooses to continue hiding me, or maybe he is a psychopathic man, or... Or is all this his way of keeping me by his side, because he doesn't want that evil man to hurt me?