I Want Her
Skyler's POV
Erika's eyes scrutinized Selena from head to toe, and I could see how she arched her eyebrows as she looked at her with interest, and I could say she wasn't happy to see her in our house.
I was glad Erika let me go, yet I could tell Selena thought I was dating Erika by the way she clung to me, and it was already late if I pushed Erika away.
My brother and Selena went upstairs, and I could tell she would spend time with my brother in his room, answering their assignments. Selena lowered her head as she passed us by, and I still didn't know why she was angry with me.
"Who is that girl? Why do I always see her in your estate every time I visit you?" Erika asked as she turned her head and focused her attention on me.
"It is Selena, my brother's best friend," I responded and moved away from her.
"Do you like her?" She asked, and I was shocked by her question.
"What? How could you ask me that kind of question, Erika?" I asked back as I tried to hide my uneasiness.
"You tensed up when you saw her, Sky," she replied, and I laughed.
"You only imagined things, Erika. I don't like any girl in particular," I responded immediately, and I could see how her face fell.
"How about me? What am I to you, Skyler?" She asked as she took my hand.
"I thought you liked me, and something is going on between us," she added, and I didn't know how to make her feel better.
"Look, Erika, you knew me. I am sorry. I don't want to lead you on and hurt you in the end. I am not planning to have a girlfriend anytime soon," I responded, and her face saddened, and I could see the tears that welled up in her eyes.
I hate to be in this position, even if this is not the first time I rejected a girl.
"How could you say that after sharing those kisses with you, and after how many dates we had." She replied.
"Erika, those were only casual friendly dates. I told you from the start I was afraid of commitment since I knew Basketball was my number one priority. I don't have enough time to spare and have a girlfriend." I declared.
"How could you say that, Sky? I hate you for hurting my feelings," she stated as I could see the tears in her eyes that trickled down her lovely face.
"I am doing this to save you from breaking your heart, Erika; I only wanted friendship," I replied.
"Friendship? How could you say that after kissing me many times?" She asked, and I wished to remind her she was the one who initiated the kisses we shared and not me, but I didn't want to hurt her even more.
"I am sorry," I responded in more than a whisper.
"Sorry? I don't need your apology, Sky; I want you." She replied.
"But I don't feel the same way about you, Erika. You are beautiful and smart, and many hot guys on campus adore you like a goddess." I said.
"I don't like to date any of them; I only want you, Skyler." She responded as she tried to come closer to me, but I quickly avoided her since I was afraid she would hug me again.
"You deserve someone better, and I am sorry. I couldn't be that guy, Erika. I don't want to have a girlfriend." I responded, and I could see the pain all over her face.
Erika stomped her feet and turned her heels, and walked away from me without saying another word while I was left feeling guilty that I made another girl cry.
I climbed the stairs with a heavy heart, but at least Erika had a reason to hate me; unlike Selena, she suddenly shut me off. I collapsed on my bed and looked at the ceiling for a long time.
I wished to speak with Selena, and this is the first time I felt so nervous about facing a girl, and I am sure my friends would laugh at me if they learned how I feel right now, and I am too confused about what to do that I ended up calling my best friend's number.
"Hello, what's up, man?" Kevin asked the moment he answered my call.
"I am sorry, Kevin, but I made your friend cry," I responded, and I heard him sigh before he answered me.
"She went to your house again?" He asked.
"Yes, I canceled our date since I went to the cemetery with Stanley and Selena, but she showed up here unannounced," I replied.
"Please be kind to her, Skyler." He responded, and I half laughed.
"Dude, I can't give her what she wants; I need to be honest with her. I don't want to play with her heart," I declared.
"You can make her your girlfriend for one week; at least you make her happy even for the period of seven days, like what you did with Dayana," he stated.
"And ruined our friendship? No, thanks; I already had that kind of experience with Dayana. I broke her heart and ended up hurting my younger brother. Stanley and I used to be buddies, and now he has become distant, and I knew he was harboring a grudge against me. I am trying my best to reconnect with him." I responded.
"And now you are beginning to fall for his best friend?" He asked, and I was dumbfounded by what he had said.
"Am I right?" Kevin asked me again, and I didn't want to keep it away from him since I had a hard time, and I didn't know what to do for the first time.
"I don't know, man; I am confused about how I feel at the moment," I responded, and he laughed.
"How could you laugh at me like that, Kevin?" I asked.
"Well, I just couldn't believe you admit you felt something for Selena." My best friend responded.
"I said I was confused, and I didn't say I like her," I replied.
"You are not confused, man; you are scared," Kevin answered.
"I am not scared," I sternly answered as I gripped my iPhone tighter.
"You will not feel that way if you don't feel anything for Selena, Sky." He replied, and I fell silent.
"I am sure you are fighting your will to have her as your girlfriend because of your damn pride and reputation." He said, and I frowned even if he couldn't see me.
"I admit, I was not in the mood tonight; after I found out Selena was angry with me, she ignored me the entire time from the cemetery until I drove her home; she didn't even bother to say thank you to me." I declared.
"Wow! You got it bad, man," Kevin said, and I let out a heavy sigh.
"I felt so worried after Selena saw me with Erika tonight," I responded.
"Well, why do you feel worried when she already saw you hugging Erika this morning." He replied, and I quickly sat on the bed while I could feel the loud beating of my heart.
"What do you mean?" I asked, feeling alarmed.
"You were too busy with Erika that you haven't noticed Selena, and I could tell she came to the gym to have a word with you; I haven't seen her come to the gym once," Kevin said, and my hands felt cold as it dawned on me, Selena was jealous of Erika, and I couldn't stop from feeling so happy.
"Thank you, man," I said with enthusiasm.
"Why are you thanking me?" He asked.
"Nothing, I got to go now," I said and ended the call before my best friend could reply. I quickly left my bedroom and ran towards my brother's room.
I was panting as I stood in front of Stan's room, and I raised my fist to knock, but I ended up putting my hand on ny side as I realized I should wait; I didn't want to disturb her while she was studying her lesson.
I leaned my back on the wall, trying to think of a way to make Selena trust me again. But I knew she wouldn't believe me; I was wondering what I should do at the moment. I wished to spend time with her, and Kevin was right. I was scared.
I could feel the racing of my heart when I heard the opening of the door, and when I turned my head, I saw Selena getting out of my brother's room, and I could tell Stanley must doze off to sleep since Selena had come out alone, and she gently closed the door.
I could see the surprised look on Selena's face when she found me leaning on the wall, and with one long stride, I was standing in front of her, and her intoxicating scent and the way she looked at me made me lose my sense of thinking.
Before she could get away from me, I put my hands on her hips and pulled her closer to me, and without caring what would happen next, I claimed Selena's sweet lips with urgency.
My brother's best friend didn't disappoint me when she put her arms around my neck. I closed my eyes as I continued devouring her mouth, and I felt her kiss me back with the same urgency and to hell with my principles as I realized how much I wanted her.