Chapter 14 Inhale

I can’t help myself but weep, this is my very first time to feel this kind of feeling and I'm not familiar with my emotions right now. All I can feel is pain and my chest tightens, every beat of My heart is in pain. I don’t know why I reacted this way, we’re just arranging Marriage and love is not involved. I prepared myself for this matter. Why does it hurt so bad? Why do I feel this? I want to cry so hard; I feel like I am at a loss and I’m not in our house so I can’t make a fuss here and just like Precious said, I am just a nobody. The way they take care of her when she comes is different to how they treated her, and what am I against her? She is a childhood friend and they have known her for almost decades and they’re really close to each other and they treated her like their own daughter. I really feel that they don't like me. I’m not jealous over here but the way they treated her is really different. I don’t want to be here.