Reflection

*Warning: this chapter contained part of the background story of Nan Hua in her previous life. it might be a bit depressing to read*

When she came to this world, she often thought of herself as Nan Hua and that she had to act the same as the original Nan Hua. Considering that she herself was not really an expressive person, acting as Nan Hua was the easiest. It also allowed her to partially be herself.

But what was her original personality?

How was she in the past?

What did she like?

What did she want to do?

How did she used to interact with people?

If being asked all of those question, Nan Hua would be blank as she genuinely didn't know how she should answer all of them. She knew herself very well and the fact that she had long passed the stage of wanting anything.

Years of training and harsh life taught her to just do what she was asked to do.

They were not allowed to have any thoughts.

No emotion.

No desire.