Chapter 24

Just one word. Happy.

Right now, me and Joel are having some time together at the park and we're having a picnic together which is so much fun. I've been wanting this for a long time and now it's become true. I love spending time like this under the gorgeous big blue sky and with someone that I love.

"Why are you smiling?" Joel asks and I just shake my head nothing.

"Nothing. I just feel so much better to be out here rather than being stuck in the hospital all day long and keep doing the chemotherapy..." I said.

"It's for your own good too. I want you to be healthy and that's what makes me happy the most." He said.

"But what if I can't survive?" I asks him.

"You can't say like that. I know you strong and you will make it alright?"

"I don't know." I look down to my hands which looks so pale.