Minji's Notebook pg. 2

So Notebook, I know I usually don't write in you very much but I just had to again today since there is too much on my mind that's ruthlessly spinning in me like a violent merry-go-round.

Sorry... maybe that's the wrong analogy, but you get my point.

It's been too crazy already today. Who wakes up the morning after hanging out with their best friends for their birthday only to find out that one of said best friends is dead? I can only think of one person and that's me. It came to knock me of my senses so suddenly too.

If I had to be honest, I can't digest the fact that Dahyeong is no longer here with me. Forever. I accept and know of it to be the case but it's too hard to really swallow once I think about it more.

Trust me when I say that I've gone on longer periods without Dahyeong, even if they haven't been that long. Now that she's REALLY gone, I already miss her. If it's in large swaths now, how much more longing will I feel down the road? The answer's still pretty unclear for me as to what will happen.

For my entire life, I've never lost someone close to me and never imagined myself to. My mom still has years left in her life to live out and so were Seoyun and Dahyeong. Well, Notebook, you and I both know by now how it turned out for Dahyeong.

Most people are able to experience loss from a young age from the death of their grandparents. For me though, I guess it makes me sound like an irritable teen when I say this, but I never really cared much for my grandparents. Most died before I got to know them and I only saw my mother's grandmother once until even my mom lost touch with her.

Wait a second, Yuna told me that my grandmother was Minha, didn't she?

Now that I think about it, I should try to find her if that's the case. There's definitely a lot that needs to be said, and it'd also help with further familiarizing myself with the realm of enlighteneds. Who knows? She just might know a thing or two of inside information that Yuna wouldn't know. Besides, I can't just rely on Yuna all the time.

I suppose the lack of communication makes sense since Minha is an enlightened and it'd be weird if she were to never die and even go on to outlive her own child. My mom also told me before that she never saw Minha for a while now. Maybe Minha is trying to hide the fact that she doesn't age and still looks like she's in her thirties.

After the memorial for Dahyeong, I was able to find Mrs. Han in the hallways in between periods and tell her about the project I had with Dahyeong. Surprisingly, she agreed on lessening the topic minimum I have to cover on my project. It isn't much but at least she was more cooperative about it than I expected.

I'm expecting my after school time to be fairly relaxed. I'll just have to go to Seoyun's to pick up my motorcycle and then I'm off the Yuna's to train and familiarize myself some more.

Seriously, I really don't understand a single thing. No, not the new reality I'm in. I've become more acquainted with it over yesterday, even if there's a devastating amount that I don't know. I'm talking about the big question WHY.

Why me? Why did Minjeong choose me out of all her descendants? Why am I relevant in a whole 'nother realm? Why has Seoyun hid the fact that she's enlightened from me for years? Why is Jun acting so weird to me, other than the fact that he's part of this whole enlightened business? And most importantly, why was Dahyeong murdered?

I think it's time for me to stop this whole rant here and actually pay attention to the teacher, Notebook. After writing in you, it's safe to say that I only have more of a headache than I started with.

At the very least, I'm caught up to speed with everything.

See ya Notebook.