FEELINGS IN HID

ITS a rainy and cold saturday night. I'm here at the middle of nowhere. Nakayakap sa sarili, habang nakayukong umiiyak.

"I'm so sorry Cece, I- i don't know what to say .."

Parang naririnig ko pa din ang mga salitang iyon na kanina lang ay sinagot nya sa akin. Masakit. Para nya akong sinaksak at tumagos iyon hanggang puso.

Pain ..

Shame for myself ..

Humiliation ..

Rejection ..

Iyon ang nararamdaman ko ngayon.

I felt my phone vibrated in my pocket. Nangininig ang mga kamay na kinuha ko iyon.

"Where are you Cece?" The caller ask.

Alam kong sya yun. How can i forget his voice? Pero bakit ganon? Dati naman, everytime maririnig ko ang boses nya sumasaya ang puso ko. But now, all i can feel is pain.

"Please .. tell me where are you?" I can sense that he is nervous.

Pero bakit pa? I want to ask him. Pero wala akong lakas ng loob.

"Its raining for Pete's sake!" Alam ko, kahit hindi ko sya nakikita ay galit na sya.

Impit akong napaiyak. Kahit marami akong gustong itanong at sabihin ay pinatay ko ang tawag.

I looked at the sky, kahit nahirapan ako dahil sa ulan.

"Are you crying along with me?"

"Did you also feel the pain?"

Bulong ko sa kawalan.

Nagtagal pa ako ng ilang oras sa lugar na iyon, hindi ko alam kung nasan ako. I just drove away from them kaya hindi ko namalayan kung saang lugar ako tumigil.

Tumunog ulit ang cp ko.

*DUDU CALLING ..*

Hinayaan ko lang itong tumunog.

Napatulala ako sa harap ng manibela.

"So what now?" I ask myself.

I sigh and started the engine.

"Let's see where this pain can take me" I smiled bitterly.

HIS POV:

Hindi ako mapakali, Cece is missing. And its been 10 hours for fuck's sake! He's fucking worried to her!

"Kumalma ka nga bro" It's Nico Artemio, my so called manwhore bestfriend.

"I will report it to the police." Kinuha ko ulit ang cp ko sa bulsa to call my uncle but someone grab my phone to stop me

"Pre, wala pang 24 hours since Cece is missing or kung nawawala ba talaga sya" Its Cody Delamort, my genius friend.

"Oo nga naman Bro, after what happened, maybe she needs to be alone" Nico hand him a glass of gin. "Pampakalma" as he said.

Tinanggap nya iyon at nanghihinang napaupo sa sofa. Hawak parin nya ang cp dahil baka sakaling tumawag sa kanya ang girlfriend. Or kanya parin ba ito? Pagkatapos ng nangyari kanina, He don't think so.

"Pre, what happened back there is not really what i expected" basag ni Cody sa pananahimik nya.

"I- i d-don't know .." napasabunot sya sa buhok. He's frustrated alright.

He knows that what happened awhile ago has a big impact to everyone. To their family and friends, and to her. Oh, god. What did the fuck i do!

"Do you still love her bro?" Its Nico again.

He stilled with that question. Is he? Do he still love her?

"Of course .."

Its like he's fighting to his self.

"Fuck, I am losing my mind" i whisper to myself.

"We heard you. And I got a text from Nina, she's cussing me nonstop" Nico said.

"Me too. And Bella is asking me where is Cece" sabi naman ni Cody.

Mas lalo syang nag alala. She did not contact them.

Tumayo ako. I really need to see her. Pero anong sasabihin ko? Sorry? Sorry na naman ba.

But nonetheless, i will find her.