"Mom! I don't want there!" idis-agree to her words. Halos maghistirikal na ako. Naiiyak na ako dahil pilit niya akong ipinapadala sa probinsya. Lumingon ako kay daddy. Nanghihingi ng tulong.
"Dad?" sambit ko. I looked at his hazel-brown eyes.
I could see the sadness in daddy's eyes. I knew he would defend me. I pray silently. I was disappointed when he just shook his head and averted his eyes.
"Hindi nga akin iyon!" I yelled to mommy. Dumedepensa sa paratang niya.
"Mohini! Don't shout your mom!" mariing saway ni Daddy. Yumuko ako.
Napatingin ako kay mommy ng magsalita siya.
"You need to pack your things. Tomorrow afternoon will be your arrival" pinal na desisyon ni mommy. I shook my head and cried. No!
"No...no mom? Please Don't?" inabot ko ang kamay ni mommy pero iniwas niya lang ang kamay niya. She shook her head. Dissapoited to what happened. She just passed by and went up the stairs.
I felt at any moment I would fall so I sat on the couch. My knees are weak. I wipe the tears away.
"Sorry darling" hinahaplos ni daddy ang likod ko na parang mababawasan ang sakit ng na nararamdaman ko. I cried even more with the caress of my father's hand.
Mommy doesn't really trust me anymore.
"Dad, hindi sa akin iyon" humihikbing bulong ko at marahang yumakap kay daddy.
"I know, i know sweetheart. hush now, hmmm, stop crying" Daddy whispered softly and kissed my forehead.
Nag-angat ako ng tingin. Naguguluhan. Ngumiti si daddy.
"Makinig ka nalang muna sa mommy mo, hmm?" suyo niya.
Even though I was confused, I just nodded. When daddy says I do not hesitate to follow. I know that is for my good and I know mommy is the same. It's just that I'm just daddy's girl. Though, I know mommy only cares about my well-being and she loves me so do I, I really love mommy, both of them.
Ilang sandali pa kaming nanatili ng mapagpasyahan ko ng umakyat sa kwarto ko. Nagpaalam lang ako kay daddy na magtutungo na sa silid.
When I entered the room I immediately went straight to bed. I still can't believe I will be sent to the province. I got used to it here in the city, of course I was on vacation there. but, that will be sent and studied there seems like I can't think I can do it.
Kung nakinig lang ako kay Angelica ay hindi ako aabot sa ganito. Inabot ko ang purse ko ng marinig ang sunod na sunod na tunog ng telepono.
"Ange" mahinang sagot ko.
"Anong nangyari?!" my bestfriend immediately asked.
"I don't know, those drugs are not mine, may naglagay lang siguro sa bag ko!" i said in frustration tone.
Narinig kong nagbuntong hininga siya sa kabilang linya "Are you okay?" mahinahon niyang sabi.
I sigh deeply "Ipapadala ako ni mommy sa probinsya namin" mahina kong sambit.
"Si Rex?" tanong pa niya. Tumagal pa ng ilang sandali ang tawagan namin. Maya maya ay nag paalam na si Angelica dahil may kailangan pang raw siyang asikasuhin.
Angelica is my bestfriend. She has been my friend since I defended her against those who bullied her. They are just poor so she is just a scholar at the university I am studying at. She's kind and pure. It's really suits her name herself. Angel, that's why I ended being befriend with her.
Tiningnan ko ang inbox na maraming mga mensahe. Binuksan ko ang mensahe ni Rex.
Rex:
Hey?
Rex:
Ayos kalang?
Tiningnan ko lang ang mensahe niya.
Rex:
Mag-reply ka naman oh?
Nagulat ako ng biglang tumonog ang telepono ko. His calling..
"Mohini, please mag-usap naman tayo oh" agad niyang tugon.
"What do you want?" I said coldly.
"Magpapaliwanag ako. babe, please? nasa labas ako" aniya.
"Umalis kana! I don't need your explanation!" galit kong sabi.
"Mohi-" I never let him speak. I immediately turned off the line.
Frustrated kong sinuklay ang buhok ko at itinapon ang telepono sa higaan.
I want to punch him bigtime!slap him hard! I'm so irritated! I'm really annoyed with him! sarap hambalusin!
I took off my clothes and walked quickly to the cr. I have to soak in the bathtub to enjoy at least the pain and irritation I feel. My head also hurts a little, probably from the alcohol I drank.
I was soaked in the bathtub for an hour when I decided to finish and rest. Maybe I'll just fix the clothes tomorrow.
Gumaan rin kahit papaano ang pakiramdam ko pagkatapos maligo. Kinabukasan maaga akong nagising. Narinig kong may kumatok sa pinto.
"Ma'am Mohini, handa na po ang agahan." magalang na sabi ni yaya Melda sa labas.
"Susunod ako yaya Melda!" sigaw ko.
I quickly combed my hair and glanced to see if my clothes were okay. I wore today, denim-off shoulder top and white pants for today. Totally exposed at the back and my shoulder skin.
Pagbaba ko naabutan kong naghihintay na sina daddy at mommy sa akin. Ako nalang pala ang hinihintay.
"Morning" bati ko na tinugon naman ni daddy.
I kiss for both cheeks of them before I decided to sit. Tahimik lang si mommy. Si daddy naman ay sinusuri ang suot ko.
"Your showing too much of skin" matamang suri ni daddy.
"Dad, it's fassion, you know" ngiti ko. napailing nalang siya at sinimulan nang kumain.
I glanced at mommy. Innovative in silence. Daddy, on the other hand, watching for both of us. Pinakikiramdaman kami. Only spoons and plates can be heard on the table.
I know I really made mommy very angry. It is no joke to find you in a drug bag. I have also been barred several times from seeing or getting close to Rex because they do not trust the man. The man is kind to me. But I did not know that he would destroy the trust I had placed in him. I did not know that this would happen and there were many addicts there. This is really Rex's fault! Then he left me there. The police caught me. Naparusan tuloy ako! Ipapadala tuloy ako sa bukid!
Pagkatapos kumain ay umakyat na muli ako sa silid. Nagpaalam lang sina daddy na may aasikasuhin lang silang mahalaga.
Halos magmukmok ako sa loob dahil sa walang pinagkakaabalahan. Ayoko rin namang mag-bukas ng social media dahil alam ko'y mai-istress lang ako. Tapos ko na ring ipasok lahat ng mahahalagang gamit na dadalhin. Sa huli ay nakatulog nalang ako.
At three o'clock when I woke up to the knock of nanny melda, she said I should get ready. When I came down I found daddy and mommy talking just stopped when I was close.
"Let's go, Mohini" I nodded and followed them. The black suv parked in front of us. Daddy opened the door and we entered. Dad and mom was at the back of my seat and was just in front of me. Mang meler is ahead. Probably the driver.
Kalaunan bumyahe na kami lulan ang suv. Sina daddy lang ang nag-uusap sa loob, nagsasalita lang ako kung tatanungin kong komportable ba ako. Obviously hindi, so boring, malayo pa naman yun. Naiinip na ako.
I picked up the phone and fiddled, what I did just for fun. I downloaded the game and played. I opened my inbox and read the messages that came. I saw some acquaintances and some unregister numbers. Communicating what happened. Asking. They are annoying! People who have nothing to do in life! Gossips! plastics! Sarap sampalin!
Sa huli tinago nalang ang telepono, hindi na nireplyan pa. Nakatulog ako sa byahe. Nagising lang nang naramdamang huminto ang sasakyan. Nilibot ko ang tingin. Nasa harap na pala kami ng mansyon.
"We're here, sweetheart" daddy announced and went out. I went out and stretched out my hand. My ass is numb.
Madilim na ng dumating kami. Kumakalam narin ang sikmura ko. Maliwanag ang buong mansyon. Sinalubong kami ni nanang Rosa at tatlong katulong na dumeretso sa sasakyan, siguro'y kukunin ang mga gamit at maleta.
"Nanang Rosa!" salubong ko. Yumakap ako saglit.
"Na miss kita!"
"Na miss rin kita hija" sagot niya. Bumaling siya kina daddy at mommy at bumati.
"Magandang gabi, Ma'am, ser" bati niya na tinugon naman ni daddy at mommy.
"Handa na po ang pagkain" dagdag niya. Tumango si daddy at pumanhik na kami papasok. Dumeretso kami sa dining hall. Ang ibang katulong ay lalagay ng mga pagkain sa mesa. Ang iba ay pamilyar sa akin. May nakita akong bago, dalaga, siguro'y kaedaran ko lang din. Nag-angat siya ng tingin sa akin. Tinaasan ko siya ng isang kilay.Tingin tingin mo?!
Natawa ako ng yumuko siya at nag-mamadaling pumasok ng kusina.
Our dinner ended fast. Because we just came from the trip and was also carried out tired. I said goodbye to them first. I am now sitting on my bed. Sighting around. almost nothing has changed in my room. That's still the way it is. It's been a long time since I last came here, maybe I'm about fourteen and now I'm sixteen.
I took a bath before finally going to bed, because my body was tired, I could easily fall asleep. Kinabukasan nagising ako sa sinag ng araw. Tinanghali na pala ako ng gising.
I looked at the clock, when I saw that it was ten o'clock in the morning I got up and took a shower.
Pagkababa ko ay nakasalubong ko si nanang Rosa.
"Oh! Nariyan kana pala hija, pupuntahan na sana kita at gigisingin!" saad niya.
Ngumiti ako at bumati sa kanya. "Sina daddy po?" tanong ko.
"Naku maagang umalis ang nanay at tatay mo, ang sabi ay aasikasuhin ang pag-aaral mo rito" mahinahon niyang sagot.
I nodded and headed for the dining room. Nanang Rosa followed. May pagkain ng nakahanda sa lamesa.
"Maupo kana riyan at kumain, sigurado ay gutom kana"
"Sabayan niyo na po ako nanang" ngumiti lang siya bago umiling.
"Tapos na kami hija" ngiti niya.
I nodded and started eating. I made nanang sit because I wanted her to talk about what happened here last year. Nanang Rosa has many stories. We stayed at the table for a while. Enjoyed the story. Gusto ko sanang mag-tanong tungkol sa anak niya kaya lang nahihiya ako, tsaka baka ano pang-isipin ni nanang Rosa. Naku! Mahirap na!
Sa huli ay napagdesisyunan ko nang itanong. Bahala na! titiisin ko nalang ang hiya!
"Si J-jaxin po?" I asked. I closed my eyes slightly because of the stutter. She suddenly stopped talking when I asked that. She frowned. Shit!
"Bakit?" Kunot-noong tanong niya. Naguguluhan.
"I-imean, kumusta na po si Jaxin? Klaro kong tanong. Lihim kong pinagalitan ang sarili ko dahil sa katangahan.
Nabunutan ako ng tinik ng mawala ang naka-konut niyang noo.
"Ah! Si Jaxin?, naku-" She was interrupted by a loud sneeze from behind. We turned around. My eyes widened as I saw who was behind us.
our eyes met. His brown eyes seemed to pierce the depths of my soul. Sa oras na tumitig ka you will definitely drown and never get up again. Kumibot ang kanyang labi. Nakita kong may sumilay na maliit na ngiti. I regained consciousness when he sneezed again. I was puzzled back to what I was eating. Shit!
I was shocked. Hindi man lang namin namalayan na may tao sa likod namin. Para siya kabute. I do not know if he heard my question to her mother. I'm pretty nervous. I prayed quietly that he would have heard nothing. Nakita kong nagmano siya kay nanang Rosa.
"Nariyan kana pala anak! Kanina ka pa?" ani nanang Rosa. Pasimple akong tumingin sa kanya. Naroon pa rin ang ngiti sa labi.
"Kararating ko lang ma" He suddenly turned to me after he said that. The corner of his lip rose. I averted my eyes immediately. I don't want to meet his peircing brown eyes. Hindi ako mapakali. My cheeks are getting hot.
I hurried to eat. Don't stay here any longer. I hurried even more when nanang Rosa said goodbye and said she still had work to do. I silently prayed that his son would come with her. I was drinking water when he sneezed. I saw in the side of my eye that he was still standing in his place? Why is it still here? Bwesit naman oh! I closed my eyes firmly and slowly stood up. Easy! that's just him! Stood up the chin up!
"Your here" nagsalita siya. Sinalubong ko ang tingin niya. My forehead crest what he just said.
"Yeah. I'm here, bakit? as far as I know this is our mansion!" I frown. Nagtataka ba siya bakit nandito ako. Eh! Saamin naman ito. Maybe he thinks I'm here again so he'll be disturbed again! hmp!
Nainis ako ng umangat ang sulok ng labi niya. Parang pinagkikisayahan ako. Natuwa pa sa katarayang pinakita ko.
"Ang ibig-kong sabihin ay nandito kana uli." mahinahon niyang sabi. umuusbong nanaman ang ngiti sa labi niya. Inirapan ko siya.
"Wag kang mag-alala hindi na kita kukulitin!" irap ko. "Besides, I don't want to hear your name." dagdag ko. Kahit gumwapo pa siya lalo ay pipilitin ko nalang ang sariling wag mangulit.
The little smile grew bigger. I don't know what's going on with this guy and he's smiling now. I used to see that there was no reaction on his face or he was just frowning.
I cross my arm. Hindi pa rin nawawala ang ngiti sa labi niya. Tumatango-tango pa siya parang naiintindihan ang sinabi ko. Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay.
"Anyway, bakit mo nga pala ako tinatanong kay mama?" He teased me suddenly. my eyes suddenly widened and my jaw dropped. Nataranta ako! hindi ako mapakali sa kinatatayuan ko! Parang liliparin ako!
"H-huh?! Pinagsasabi mo!"
"You mention me-"
"Hindi ikaw yun!" I cut him off. Kumuha pa ako ng lakas ng loob para hindi mautal. Umayos siya ng tayo at dahan-dahang lumiit ang malaking ngiti sa labi.
"Kung ganoon sino iyon?" kunot-noong tanong niya. Seryuso ang mukha.
"Ibang lalaking kakilala ko!" nakataas kilay kong sagot. Pinaninindigan talaga ang kasinungalingan. Ngumiti ako ng may naisip."Bakit? ikaw lang ba ang may ganoong pangalan" I tried to mocked him.
His smile eventually disappear and his eyebrows became a line. I saw how his jaw twitched. Holycow! that was... hot! Kinindatan ko siya.
I smiled as I left. I just left him frowning. When I got out of the dining room. I quickly ran to my room. When I got entered. I was out of breath. I was sweating bullets even though the aircon was blowing hard.
I was glad because I saw him again but also nervous because he was nearby. I admit he is even more handsome now. His chest grew bigger. He used to be tall but now he is even taller. He also has small mustaches that add attraction. I smiled. That was close! It's good that I thought of a lie!