Chapter 36

"Is something wrong?"

Lucian forced back his anger and tears. He didn't want to make her worry anymore.

He shook his head. "No, nothing is wrong. I just remembered that I have to be somewhere."

She nodded. "I understand."

No she didn't. Even he couldn't understand.

"I'll be back, wife." He forced himself to smile.

"I'll be waiting." She smiled back.

Leaving Hazel behind Lucian took his horse and rode far away. He didn't know where he was going but he just needed some air. Or maybe a lot of air. The pain and the tears were choking him and he felt like screaming out loud.

Once he neared a cliff he stopped and looked down. Beneath the cliff was a river. Lucian stared at it emptly for a while wondering what it would feel like if he jumped. Would the water wash away his pain?