Chapter 13 "Forgotten love"

crying is all that I did for the past 2months

every time that I'm alone even during night I pretended that I'm already asleep when my mates check out for me or if by chance my

mother passes by

I always locked myself and I always realized that maybe I should call

so by the past month I didn't miss a single day calling him but he never answered he even blocked me for like the third time around as if!

I don't deserve a spect of this type of humiliation never!

I want to spat all those words at him I wanted to throw tantrums

but his already depressed how can I dare ruin his moving on he might not mean all those words cause he might not be able to to think straight *damn this good attitude of mine*

Doesn't he even know how much pride I wasted just to talk to him in that 2months and it felt like I have no pride left

I called him like almost more than a hundred times each night sometimes I even called during mornings or lunch I even check it on Tohka if his not busy or awake time by time

I felt so useless and lifeless

so weak and fragile

too vulnerable to bear more of this

all of this tears he doesn't deserve it at all

I was on the verge of wrath and tears flow continuously

sleepless nights and everything else was pulling me over the edge

but then at those days memories started to come back at me over and over again

making me regret things I've done

it's like a total scary throwback

I don't know if I'm just being too paranoid or what but commercials and pocketbooks that I read and watch always has to have a kissing scene like seriously I'm getting over here it makes me mad and blush all at the same time!!!