Chapter 32 : The Reasons

Flashback~

I'm looking at the views outside Paps's office through the window. If ever I'll be the next CEO I won't easily get stress because the beautiful scenery outside will relieve it all. I love how the fountain centers the pretty santans, the trees with fresh green leaves and of course the aesthetic billboard of these hot male models in the other building. So yummilicious!

As I continued watching outside, this girl with a purple-colored hair who just went down from a jeepney caught my attention. As she runs through the company's main entrance she became closer in my position and I started to recognize her face.

I was stiffened for a moment after realizing who she is.

IT'S ATE GURL!!

The girl who makes this gay fell for her in just one snap! How the hell it happened that after 3 months I would see her again? Kung saan bumabalik na ako sa pagiging maharot na bakla? Kung saan unti-unti ko na siyang nakakalimutan? Bakit nakita ko pa siyang muli?!

But, damn, I know that deep inside of me I am so happy!

I immediately called Jazz to tell him this good news or perhaps, this is a bad one—well, I don't presently know."Hello?" Jazz greeted me.

"Jazz, I saw her," I uttered while my eyes are still on this girl walking so fast.

"Who?" he asked.

"That girl I told you I unexpectedly fallen!"

"What? Where-crap!"

"Damn!" I yelled. She almost got hit by a car! Dammit!

"Did you hit her?" I heard Jazz asked his driver, I guess.

"Jazz!" I called him again with knitted brows.

"Y-Yes, what? My God, Raed, we almost hit someone-"

"YOU ALMOST HIT HER!!" I said out of anger.

"What?" confusion can be heard on his voice.

"Your driver almost hit her, Jazz," I said. "If she really got hit, I swear, I'll be the one who will send your driver to the police station!" I added. My brow suddenly arched up when Ate Gurl bows like she's apologizing. It's not even her fault, but she's the one who feels sorry. That's no good!!

"Calm down, Raed," Jazz uttered after a minute.

"How can I? Pababain mo 'yang driver mo and let him apologize!"

"I'll go down and let me see this girl, the reason for your sudden changes," he said, trying not to burst in laughter. Tss.

Bumaba nga siya at napatigil naman si Ate Gurl sa paglalakad. She stared at Jazz for a long moment-damn-and Jazz suddenly winked at her!

WTH?!

Suddenly, his bodyguards came and guarded him kaya natabunan na siya at nakagalaw na rin si Ate Gurl. Tss, seems like she was mesmerized by Jazz's physical looks?! Damn that! I got a broader chest than him! I got more handsome face than him!

"Raed, still there?" he asked.

"Yes," I replied. "Why did you wink at her?" I asked.

"Why? Are you jealous?"

"I'm not. Hindi ako nagseselos, pero gusto kong dukutin 'yang mga mata mo! Sabi mo titingnan mo lang siya, pero kinindat mo, Jazz, what was that for?!"

Sh*t, I really can't calm myself down!

"HAHAHAHA! Hindi ka nga nagseselos. I'm just teasing you, I saw you looking at her in your Dad's office, Raed, well I'm not sorry," natatawa talagang sabi niya kaya agad akong napasinghal.

I'm not jealous! It's just...I don't know! I can't explain what I am feeling.

"Anyway, what is your plan now that you saw her again? And it seems like she's working her."

"I don't have any plan to tell her about my feelings, Jazz," I replied. Natatakot ako na malaman niya, sobra akong natatakot.

"Why?" he asked.

I sighed, then I said, "because I'm a gay," that's the reason why I am so afraid to tell her about it. It's very impossible. How can a gay fall into a lady?

"What? That's not a valid reason."

"It is. Hindi ko babaguhin 'yong sarili ko kahit andiyan siya. Kung bakla ako, edi bakla ako and if she accepts whoever am I, then I guess it's the right time to confess. Pero, Jazz, ikaw na rin 'yong nagsabi, maybe what I felt is just an infatuation, na hindi ko talaga siya gusto. Napaka imposible naman kasi, gano'n lang 'yong nangyari, nagkatitigan, kumaway siya sa'kin nag flying kiss, tapos I already fell for her?" I sat down at Dad's swivel chair, "kaya plano ko munang alamin kung ano ba talaga 'yong naramdaman ko," I added.

"Bahala ka, Raed, basta I got your back. I'm your best friend, so I will support your decisions," Jazz said.

"And one more thing, Jazz, let's act sweet and pretend that we're soon to be a lover," he remained silent on the other line. Maybe he's still thinking if he will agree with what I've said, "please," I begged.

"What for? Paano na 'yong hot model na pinopormahan ako? My God, Raed, bet na bet ko 'yon," he uttered.

"Kasi...paano na lang kong 'di ko mapigilan 'yong sarili ko and I just wanted to take care of her? Hindi ba parang nakakagulat naman sa side niya? But, if she will think that we're soon to be a lover, hindi magkakaroon ng malisya 'yong mga posible kong gagawin sa kanya na hindi ko dapat ginagawa," I answered.

"Raed, you know what, I don't really get you. I don't understand what's running in your mind, I don't get what are your plans Let's end this call, I'm nearer to your Dad's office, let's talk personally," then he ended the call. A moment later Jazz came in and he immediately sat down in front of me, "why do we need to pretend, Raed?" he asked too soon.

"I told you my reason already," I replied, but he's still not satisfied. "I'll be with her for the next three months, Jazz, she's my Paps's secretary. And you know that Paps will be having his business trip and I'll be responsible to act as the CEO while he's gone, that means, she'll be my secretary!" Jazz also gets surprised by what I've said. I hope he will understand my situation. "Since I'm not yet sure of my feelings for her, hindi muna ako aamin. Kakakita ko pa lang sa kanya after three months tapos gusto ko na naman siya?" he just shrugged, "at para hindi siya maghinala sa'kin, let's pretend na nililigawan kita, kasi can't you see? Nagbago ako bigla at hindi ko nakilala 'yong sarili ko dahil nakita ko siya, ano na lang kaya kapag lagi na kaming magkasama?"

"Alam mo, Raed, kung pakikinggan mo lang 'yong sarili mo masasabi mo talagang gustong-gusto mo siya, pero dahil sinasabi mong hindi ka pa sure, okay sige, I'll go with your plans," I immediately let out a wide smile after hearing those words from him. "Ewan ko na lang talaga kung ano pa ang mga gagawin mo kapag kasama mo na siya. Kanina muntik lang masagaan parang gusto mo nang pumatay. Kinindatan ko lang, dudukutin mo na 'yong mga mata ko. Ngayon mo lang siya ulit nakita after 3 months, pero ganyan ka na umakto, seems like you've been in a relationship for a long years, eh kung tutuusin you don't even have a proper introduction. Your love story is so unique, Raed, I'm your number one fan na talaga," he added. I don't know if he's being sarcastic or not, basta ang mahalaga go na go na siya sa plano ko.

"Naiintindihan mo ba ako?" I said out of myself.

"Oo na lang," he answered with a smile. "Kaya nga go ako sa plano mo. Iyong hot model na pinopormahan ako, bahala na. Kung ipagpapatuloy niya 'yong pagpoporma niya sa'kin edi go, kung hindi na, edi bahala siya, I'll find another yummilicious man," he added.

"Thank you, Jazz."

"Hanggang kailan ba 'to?"

"Hanggang sa masigurado ko na kung ano ba talaga 'yong nararamdaman ko."

"I see. Pero, Raed, halata namang gusto mo siya, eh."

"Hindi nga ako sure."

"Ewan ko sa'yo, Raed. Basta, 'yong mga desisyon mo, panindigan mo at isipin mo nang isipin kung tama ba ito," he then stood up, "let's top for the meantime, mag-uumpisa na 'yong meeting, let's go," he said before he went out of Paps's office.

After a minute, I had decided to follow him. I open the door immediately and I was so damn surprised na may natamaan ng pinto, hindi ko naman kasi alam na may tao pa palang nakatayo malapit ro'n.

"Ay! Mygosh, holly gosh, Sis!" I suddenly uttered. But, when i recognized who was this girl, my heart suddenly skips a beat!

Screw this! Dammit!!

I let myself to stay calm, so she can't notice that I know her. Hindi ko alam kung ano ba ang dapat kong maramdaman nang mapatitig siya sa'kin. But, let me end this staring scenario at baka kung ano na ang isipin ng iba. "Tayo, tayo ikaw, Sis," muling usal ko at para bang nagbago bigla ang reaksyon sa mukha niya. Does it seem like she's disappointed? Tsk.

I no longer think of it and I just decided to help her stand up. As my hand touches her wrist—God! I feel like, I don't want to let her go. But, Chal Raed, remember and stick with your plans.

It's been a minute, but she's still staring at me, so I decided to hold her wrist again and I accompany her to sit beside Paps. Mamaya hindi ko mapigilan 'yong sarili ko at tititigan ko na lang din siya buong araw.

Bigla ko na lamang naipakilala 'yong sarili ko dahil sa kaba! Shuta! Hindi ko na alam ang mga pinaggagawa ko! Ewan, basta hindi ko pa talaga time na ipakilala 'yong sarili ko, eh, Paps is responsible for it. Sorry na, si Ate Gurl kasi nandito, or let's call her now, Maundy, or it's better if it is, SIS.

After Paps introduced me to everyone, he then introduced Jazz afterward. Maundy was surprised after seeing him. At hindi ko 'yon nagustuhan! It seems like Jazz always gets her attention!

So, I have a plan and that is to... stare at Jazz.

Jazz suddenly waved at me so I do a flying kiss. Maundy's reaction is so damn priceless. Para bang nandidiri rin siya?

Haaay! Mukhang hindi niya yata kami tanggap? Paano na lang kapag sinabi kong nahulog ako sa kanya ngayon na, 'di ba? Edi rejected ako agad.

I think my decisions are right.

End of Flashback.~

"W-Wow! Grabe 'yong plano niyo," Maundy said right after I finished telling her the story behind how the acting and the pretending started. "Akala ko talaga totoong may nararamdaman kayo sa isa't isa. Ang galing niyong actor," she added.

"Pero, hindi mo ba talaga nahalata na gusto kita?" I asked and she immediately nodded.

"Kasi nga nasa isip ko si Jazz 'yong gusto mo. Minsan muntik ko nang lagyan ng ibang meaning 'yong mga ipinapakita mo, pero iniisip ko agad na may iba ka namang gusto kaya ipinagsasabahala ko na lang," sagot niya. So, my plan is successful. Hindi nga siya naglagay ng malisya sa mga pinakita ko sa kanya. "Pero, Chal Raed, no'ng nag-usap kami ni Klarina sabi niya matagal niyo na raw gusto 'yong isa't isa."

"What? Sinabi niya 'yon?"

"Oo. Pero, sabi mo nang makita mo 'ko ulit saka niyo lang napagdesisyonan na umaktong may nararamdaman kayo sa isa't isa? Bakit sabi ni Klarina, mga bata pa lang daw kayo ay pareho niyo nang gusto ang isa't isa? Sinabi mo rin ba sa kanya 'yong plano mo?"

And that really wonders me why. Paanong nasabi 'yon ni Klarina? Wala ng may iba pang nakakaalam ng plano namin, kami lang talagang dalawa ni Jazz. How come parang alam ni Klarina?

We're both get surprised when the door opens, then Third and Spade come inside. "I know everything," Spade said and that makes the surroundings be filled with deafening silence. Pareho kamiing nagtataka ni Maundy.

Like, seriously. How the hell did he know it?!