[28] EMOTIONS

I am too sensitive and emotional. I've been trying to control my sensitive emotions but I can't because that's how I am. 

"Mom, I saw the alert, I will go there tomorrow okay? I have class now, love you... Send my love to daddy, I'm hanging up." I say to the speaker and almost pressed hang up. 

My stomach flutters in anger, disappointment, and doubt. These ain't towards mom but to those whom I thought were my friends, especially Abby. 

 I couldn't help but avoid them and stay on my own for now or until the anger cools down. 

"Tracy, hold on. You haven't answered my question.

"Mom!" 

"Tracy?, Did you have another episode? 

"No mom, Okay?. I'm sorry gotta run now. I say and hang up. 

Did I have another episode? Hell no. I tell myself and walk to the restroom. I came earlier and occupied the first seat during class because I've been avoiding Aryan, Maddie, Bobby, and Abby, for two days now. 

"Tracy... Hey. '' A familiar voice calls outside the toilet door. It's probably Abby's. I knew it the moment I heard it but I just choose to ignore the voice and pretends not to have heard it.

"You have every right to be mad at me, Trace. I'm so sorry. I've been texting and calling you since.. I even came back to the party to check on you before Aryan told me you left with Chris...and Laura also... told me what happened"  She stop waiting for my response which didn't come. "I also came to your house yesterday, it was Locked and Trace... I Haven't had a good sleep since that Saturday, knowing the fact that my BFF is very angry with me. 

"Your BFF? I ask. "Don't call me that! Because I am not! I barely even know you! And I thought I did but now you've shown me your true colors!" I yell angrily, banging the door and walked past her to wash my hands. 

"I'm sorry Tracy, I've been trying to apologize but you wouldn't let me. I knew I was the one who convinced you to go in the first and I'm so sorry about that. please... I will make it up to you. I..m..sorry... I thro.. ughly am." She stutters and cries at the same time. 

"This won't solve the problem here, Abby, you didn't even tell me that your Bobby is a member of the frats group!. 

"I'm sorry... He is Bobby not their group .. And... Trace... I'm just so sorry".

Why am I even angry with her... the persons I should be angry with Are Maddie and Aryan, not my Abby. I tell myself.  We're hell lucky that we are the only ones here otherwise we had be tomorrow's topic.

"Is Nathan still around?" I ask and she gasps before replying.

"Yeah, he will be leaving for the airport tomorrow. 

"Could you do me a favor of telling him to come pick me up after history class? I ask. 

"Oh my God Trace... I can do that. Thank you, she smiles wrapping her hands around me from behind. "Thank you, baby. 

I turn to face her. "I love you, Abby. 

" I love you more and more... You are the first friend to ever make me feel like a person". She laughs. 

"Cmon, let's grab lunch". I smile and wiped her tears with the tips of my hand and wrap my hand around her. 

***

After history class, I walked down the hallway in search of Nathan. He told me he was gonna be here in a minute from now. But I met who I never wanted to see again. 

"Hey... Tracy... Tracy!". Aryan calls from behind and I  speed up, walking so fast to avoid ever talking with him but he took the shortcut and caught up with me.

"Is that it? Avoiding me the whole week and even making me look like a fool. why didn't you come back after the party.. Where have you been sleeping? He asks waiting for what? A reply from me. Yeah... I gave him a reply and wised my tongue were as sharpened as Clara's. 

"Where have I been sleeping? Haha. I laugh in mock. "Can you tell me the person that gave you the right to ask me that. Huh?... Aryan, I've told you severally to leave me the fuck alone!.." I yell and tried to free my hand from his. We were interrupted as a guy and Abby drove in. If that guy is Nathan, Oh my goodness he is so cute. He is blond and tall but not as this annoying Aryan, wore black pants with a red t-shirt. 

"I just want to know.. That's all and talk wi..." Did I stutter? I asked cutting him off. " Well as you can see, my date is waiting for me and be this the last I'm ever gonna tell you to leave me alone! I yell and free my hand at the same time pushed him and walks to where Nathan parked his car waiting for me. He just stood there looking at us with his mouth open. I shouldn't have said my date. I'm really pissed. I say trying to calm myself. 

* a few minutes *

"Hey, I'm Nathan by the way". Nathan smile as we drive off. 

" Tracy, so uhm you...re Nathan yeah... Nice 

"Yeah... You are beautiful. '' He says with a fond look. 

"Thank you and you are super fine.." I say admiring his green eyes trying so hard to flirt out the awful moment I just had with Aryan. "So, you a student here?. I ask breaking the silence. 

" Nah, HU".

"Howard University?...he came all the way from DC to meet with me and I screwed it up? Ugh... I feel bad for avoiding Abby this long. 

"Yeah, I know that look... came all the way from Washington to Work on a project and see my Lil sis and...you...You know she's told me a lot about you and I think  She is kinda in love with you. I've never seen her happy and lovely when talking about her friends like she did with you". His smile fades. "But during these few days, I spent with her... She seems sad and.. Unhappy... Are you guys quarreling or something? 

"No!, We're cool ... We are fine. I tell him

"Yeah, I sensed it because I was supposed to... You know to meet you since but she keeps saying something came up..and stuffs". 

"Oh, yeah... Yeah, wait a sec, Little sis, not big sis? " I thought you two were... You know twins?" I ask confused. According to what Abby said they were twins and she came out first. Now he is calling her Lil sis. 

"Kinda yeah. You know people have been calling us that since when we were little cos of our identical look... please don't tell her that it has been our little secret ` ``.He laughs while parking in front of... Oh my God, the Merry café? Why did he bring me here? 

"Abby said you love this place," he says sensing the change in me." or don't you like it? We can turn back now... It's never too late". 

"Wow, I love it. How did Abby knew I love this place..probably... When I was blabbing how I wanted my love life to be.

 Aryan has been the first guy I've wished to come here with. Aryan again? I blink twice before realizing that Nathan has been saying something, while I was busy thinking of that annoying jerk. 

It's high time I stop thinking about him! Can you do that? My annoying conscience ask. "Yes, I can". 

"Sorry? Are you sure you like it here"? He asks. 

"Yeah, I'm just hungry... Haha.." I laugh fakely and draw out a chair while Nathan did the same. 

"So who was that guy". He asks signaling the waitress. 

"What guy? 

"Err...the one you were talking earlier with. But it doesn't seem like you guys were talking... It looks like you were arguing or...fighting?. His name is Aryan. '' I say finishing the sentence for him. 

"Your boyfriend? 

"Not really... He is an er...a friend. So how's school and our young doctor doing lately". I ask changing the conversation that is leading to somewhere else. 

"How did you know that... Abby told ya already. 

"Guess so".

"School is fine, guess she didn't tell you that I'm also an intern in Houston hospital back in DC and I so wanted to save lives since I was little. .. Abby and I would pretend like doctor and nurse". he smiles. "So what about you? 

"Writer...I  want to write about things happening in my life... Funny. I know but I want to write about things happening in this world. 

"That's cool and it's not funny to write something about yourself. It's so cool to hang out with you...Oh my god, you are so beautiful. That's the second time he has been saying that! 

"Thank you... So what about your girlfriend? 

"She must be fine... I guess...We are having some space. '' He say faking a smile which he doesn't know how to. 

Why did I bring that up... What to do now that his mood has changed. 

"Sorry, didn't mean to... I say softly searching the right words.

"It's alright though... She wanted it, so it's nothing to worry yourself about. 

*𝚏𝚎𝚠 𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜 𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚛*

"Nathan, I really had a great time today... Thanks so much. 

"I'm glad you did.. I will be traveling back on Monday... thought you might want to know. 

"Oh, I will see you then... uhm.. Thanks again. 

"Yeah... Bye. He says and drove off. 

"Bye!, I yell and walk back inside my, for now, residential abode.