Words not taken back

The 10 minutes Seb was in the greenroom felt like forever.

There was no way the girls would let their best player leave before the party.

Seb had firmly denied but since she had no excusable reason, she wasn't able to shake them off easily. Since less people knew about her and Iven, she couldn't

use him as a reason either.

Finally when she was left with no more ways to escape, she unwillingly revealed her wound, along with another honest excuse of visiting the hospital.

Everybody had gasped in horror at the miserable sight which resulted Seb receiving loads of scolds from each of them for keeping it away from them for

so long.

Though she assured that it was nothing, they didn't listen even she was on her way to treat it.

She was forcefully made to sit, her wound tended, washed, ointment applied and bandaged.

It soothed her pain for the moment too.

Another while of time was wasted when they were changing and debating on the topic if Seb should permanently join the team.

Victory would be easier with her in the team.

The tournament had paved their way to the nationals.

Seb could be their main player!

But Seb had denied quickly and politely, putting an end to the topic at once.

She was happy that they could win, but she had already decided to quit the team.

To be honest, she was an one time substitute and also did it because she was threatened in the first place. But her experience was rather superb

and they don't have to face such hideous team ever again.

With another small argument regarding Seb joining the after party, Seb denied with one quick answer and left after a group hug as a farewell to the team.

......

Seb's leg was in better shape but still weak, she ceased to limp anymore after the first aid treatment from the team.

She was trying to walk faster hoping if it wasn't too late else Iven would be mad again.

She was obvious that he won't leave though even if she took an hour.

But already taken a lot of advantage of his trust, she didn't want to let him down anymore. Racing through the corridors, she moved ahead eager to see him.

She was almost at the turning point where Iven must be there, when two voices reached her ears.

Two well familiar voices.

Iven....and Erica?

What was she doing here?

Did she attend the match and came here with expectations to walk back together home?

After all, they always did so after every match.

Seb felt guilty pangs inside her heart.

She was about to make through he wall, when she heard their conversation and completely froze on the point!!!

Is that suppose to be a normal conversation between them?

What exactly are they arguing on?

Seb peeped from beside the wall....

The sight which she caught, totally gauged her vision out!!!

What the hell is happening?

Why is Iven holding up her chin in such a crude manner with that dark look on his face?

Why does Erica look so shocked?

Iven....this isn't the regular him being with Erica.....

Did she say something she shouldn't have to make Iven act this way?

But Iven....how could he.....make himself appear this way!!!

Erica.....no.....she's too sensitive to take such blows....

Don't...Iven....

His words came in to her ears which made her lose her mind.

....26 years age...", what the hell is he going on about?

.....not an adult yet...", Iven had lost it completely.

....abused her...most brutal....bruises all over...", he's rattling all about he can!!!

...leader of a gang...", Iven, enough...Stop!!!

...abuse her if she misbehaves....", don't cross the limit Iven, Erica is delicate enough to take this all at once...

Seb didn't know what to do.

Why Iven?

No matter what she had said, was it necessary to be this rude?

She stood motionless, with a blank mind...so was Seb.

She wanted to step in the situation...but she had no idea what to do.

She can't believe Iven...

Why.....!

Why being so harsh???

That's when the last line reached her and she hold herself back anymore.

....are you in the position to call yourself her friend?"...he released the doubt in her mind to question their years of friendship.

Because of all the things she had been kept away from.

With a few words, Iven had destroyed it all!

Erica....she might believe the huge illusion she was in this whole time!

Was it fair to her?

After all the sacrifices she made for Seb?

Did she deserve this for looking out for her friend???

"Iven....", Seb's hoarse voice reached Iven. Erica had turned mind deaf from the earlier incident. She just stood staring at the ground,

with dry eyes, trying to recall if she was dreaming.

Iven turned and his eyes lit up for the moment.

Eventually it drooped as soon he studies Seb's face.

"What is it Belle?", he asked casually back to himself, totally keeping the situation cool.

"Apologize...", Seb spoke almost inaudible. She had good hold on herself.

Iven looked back at a dazed Erica and sighed at Seb," Apologize...for being honest?".

"How...could you?", Seb retorted,"You could treat her in such a way?".

"I spoke the truth Belle", Iven was confident on himself,"The truth which YOU hid from her".

"You know well why did I do that!!!", this time Seb almost screamed at Iven. He flinched a little,"She could have been in danger if she had

known!".

Iven stared with a furious gaze at Seb.

She continued,"Based on which, you have no freaking right to place doubts on her mind. She's been with me through all my time more than you have and way before you appeared!".

The situation dragged towards timeline of each one's company.

Iven had his glare of anger fixed at Seb.

"I don't think we should see each other for the moment Iven", Seb said without a second hesitation,"Thank you for the concern, I'll have Eric accompany me to the hospital from here".

her voice sharp icy than glass.

"what did you say?", Iven wasn't able to take her last words any politely.

Why would he?

He had this first and only woman in his life who treated him such and could change him for the better.

He did all he could for her sake!

He was kind towards her, rude, worried and concerned, soft and even wild.

After all thick and thin they went through together, she dare judge him based the time he stayed with her rather than their memories?

He had agreed to her keeping their relationship a secret this whole time, even from her best friend. And when he spoke the truth while Erica already knew about them, rather than keeping

her in the dark like Seb did, she chose her over him?

It was indeed something a normal person would lose his mind for!!!

Being this ungrateful.....after everything he did for her.....Iven wasn't going to take this out any easier on her.....

Seb was approaching Erica who was locked in her own thoughts.

But Iven stood right in between unable to believe his ears.

He stood in her way, without letting her pass,"Repeat....what did you just say?", his voice nothing like before. It was eerily broken. Seb had to change her words.

"I said..", she gulped in,"...let's take a break. It isn't appropriate for us to be together for now".

"Who said who can decide it all by yourself?", Iven said with an faint audible growl.

"I said for myself...", Seb looked away annoyed,"....you can decide for yourself!!!".

Saying she was about to pass through him, when suddenly a strong grab on her wrist stopped her.

Seb immediately turned with anger and pulled on her hand with a jolt. It proved nothing against Iven's inhumane grip.

"Let go!!!", Seb spoke angrily.

"Everytime, each time I give into you", Iven talked without turning back at her with a roaring voice,"Who allowed you to decide for us? After everything I did for you, you dare treat me like trash?

I won't let you off so easily!!!"

Saying Iven pulled hard at her hand to Seb's amazement and dragged her along with him.

No matter how much Seb protested and tried, he didn't even look back at her as he dragged her mercilessly. He has never been this heartless before.

He has had enough of making up to her each time!!!

He didn't care even if she was injured, her words made him lose the best of him.

This time, he had totally metamorphosed into Lucifer!

Seb stood no chance against him at all!!!

Erica still stood motionless, engulfed by a sudden wave.

Her surroundings was black, with no idea what just happened.

She needed time to recollect her thoughts from such a blow.

She slit through the wall, trying to clear all the thought accumulated in her head.

Only a layer of tears spread over her eyes as she hid her head between her knees.

she was left completely alone and hollow in a moment.

...........

Iven crashed through the green room door. It was empty since everyone had left.

He pulled Seb through the door and almost threw her to face him.

Seb had started to lose sense over her leg since Iven's pace made her wound open up again.

It was bleeding through the bandages.

But Iven had no notice over it.

Seb stepped towards him and pushed on Iven's chest pretty rough due to anger,"What the hell you think you're doing?".

"You treat me such because of her", Iven was still trying to maintain his peace. No way he could vent it out on her,"How ungrateful can you get?".

"Eric didn't deserve that treatment from you too! How could you say all those to her?", she punched the table.

"Me? From what I see, you've keeping her in the dark", Iven has never been so harsh to Seb,"She didn't even know about us. It was bound to come up one day Belle, be it me this time!"

"No!!!", Seb denied,"It should have been me! Even if it was you, the way you talked to her...she's not me who can take all abuses coming from you!".

"Now you're bringing that up?", Iven said.

"You brought it up!", Seb replied.

"If I haven't said it to her...", Iven went on,"...you think she won't be hurt more if she had discovered it herself?".

"You have no rights to say", Seb threw a disgusted look.

"Nobody knows it better than me, you taught me well", words slipped from Iven's mouth.

Seb lost her trail of voice.

she stared blank at him.

So that was what he really felt.

All this while I was just making him suffer, and nothing else.

Iven had no change of expression

Seb claimed back her mind and nodded at his words once,"That's it then, you don't have to force yourself to be with me anymore", and saying she started making her way through the door.

But Iven wasn't ready yet.

He stood right in the way.

As soon as Seb approached, he clasped on her shoulders and pushed her back hard enough to make her stumble upon her feet.

Fortunately Seb regained her balance over her weak leg, when she heard a loud noise before her.

Iven had kicked off a chair before him and was rushing at her with no bounds rage.

His temper gave up on him totally as something unstable possessed him.

He had turned invulnerable!!!

Seb gasped and tumbles 2 steps backward.

But before she could escape, Iven had already cornered her and was right in front of her face.

He punched the wall behind her which shook the whole room!

"What makes you think that I'll allow you to?", he said close to her ears with a deep voice.

Seb was breathing heavily with fast heartbeats.

Iven had never been like this before, not even when they first met.

"I've had enough now", saying Iven totally launched himself on Seb.

He clutched her chin forcefully and turned her to face him.

Then he pressed his lips against hers, leaving every inch of decency behind.

He wasn't kissing her, he bit against her lips with his sharp canines.

Seb tried to scream out in pain, but her voice was muffled with Iven's mouth on it.

She had lost all her wits to fight back without any clear head.

she continuously punched Iven to back off on his shoulders, but he grabbed on her wrists with one hand and placed it above her head.

She was completely helpless against him.

This brought back every single memory which she had a hard time forgetting, she failed. She failed in changing him. Rather, she brought him back more unstable.

This isn't Iven,....this was Lucifer!!!

"Don't.....Iven please....", but Iven ignored her pleas as he turned around her face and attacked on her neck.

Her lips were bleeding already as he bit on her neck ferociously.

Seb clenched on her teeth.

She couldn't do it.

It was all her fault again.

He wouldn't be like this if she had not entered his life.

Then she didn't have to undergo it.

This time, she didn't care any thing of her, the horrible way she was being ravished, her open pains....nothing.

The only regret, she couldn't make Iven hers.

He's been the same this whole time.

It was just a delusion.

As soon as she realized it, she stopped resisting him anymore.

Only she uttered one single word which put an end to such torture,"...sorry...".

And history repeated itself.

Even last time, this wasn't the reaction Iven expected.

This girl, under every rash situation, will say such things which will eventually stop him.

This makes him feel guilty all over again.

Even though the victim is the one who apologizes.

Seb, never does what she's supposed to. And Iven gives in after being portrait-ed like the perpetrator each time.

This time too, he immediately stopped after that one whisper!

He released every contact from her body and looked straight in to her shiny eyes, then all the wounds he just implemented on her.

"Why?", came his faint voice full of guilt.

Seb wiped off the blood from her lips and spoke,"Because I had no idea that that me being with you will only stimulate you to be like this".

"Like what?", Iven swallowed,"...a beast?...a monster?.....Lucifer?".

Seb just looked away with a slight sob.

"The get out from my life so that I can be what I was once", Iven spoke in fits on the moment, suddenly realizing the meaning which he didn't even mean at all.

Just hours ago they longed for each other's company, and what are they saying now?

Was it out of emotion or diverted by anger?

who was to blame?

Circumstances represented it all wrong!

Both of them recalled the moments a while ago and tried to prove it false with everything in their power, to believe it has never happened, to take back their words, but were forbidden.

What once said can't be taken back.

Iven stared at Seb and backed off from her, clutching at his hair. He saw how pitiful he had left her, yet again.

Seb had folded and covered herself with her hand as she slowly reached for the exit.

Before she passed Iven, who was lost in the words he just spoke, she said without eye contact,"I've only failed you miserably Iven, I'm sorry. You can do better without me in your life". and the

slamming of the door was heard.

Iven quickly turned back,"Belle....", he called.

But even if he wanted to make amends from his side first like other times, it was too late.

Seb was already gone!!!