Hello, Do not be upset!)) For inspiration: Julia Cameron "The Artist's Way" and Clarissa Pinkola Estes "Women Who Run with the Wolves" and/or books Barbara Sher "Wishcraft: How To Get What You Really Want", "I Could Do Anything If I Only Knew What It Was. How to Discover What You Really Want and How to Get" et al. and/or web-novel, who inspire, or just do nothing - be lazy, this is very useful! (Andrew Smart "Autopilot. The Art and Science of Doing Nothing") as the parable says - “this too shall pass” )))