One Last Question

It turned out I was right, the moment Hiroshi and I met. I instantly felt a strange, but deep connection towards him. He offered me all sorts of things, including a place to stay and a job. That's when I started to think about the possibilities, and I assumed the 'job' he was talking about wasn't normal.

But it wasn't exactly what I'd thought it would be. From the moment he said 'The Forsaken' I knew it wasn't usual. Unfortunately, I was right, it indeed wasn't something you would call 'normal'. If you're going to compare it to the other, you would be surprised.

Well, I kind of was expecting something similar to this, but not everything was completely predictable.

From what I've heard 'The Forsaken' in simple terms is an organization—or just a research group that works together.

The word "Forsaken" basically stands for abandonment, but that doesn't explain why it's named after that.

The real reason is uncovering the abandoned—or hidden truth behind reality.

Why? There wasn't a proper explanation from Hiroshi or Lucy. However, I don't think just curiosity lead to a grand organization like this.

A group that researches the abandoned, simple right?

No it wasn't. Everything wasn't a piece of cake, otherwise they—the organization wouldn't even be together.

And knowledge wasn't everything, sometimes strength was the only option.

Yes. The Forsaken isn't just a bunch of useless idiots who just do whatever they want to do.

Research involves missions, including spying on the government.

"The secrets of the truth shouldn't be pried into." Those were the words of Lucy after Hitoshi explained a part of the organization.

And missions weren't everything as well. As Hiroshi said before, he has powers, a supernatural ability.

In fact, everyone can get those 'powers', but almost none of them have.

And why? It's because almost none even knows the term of those supernaturals.

It was a discovery of the organization, that's also why this isn't just a casual organization.

The discovery of it motivated more of the members to continue researching the truth.

But the truth wasn't completely hidden by the government, it was hidden by the world—the universe itself.

A brief explanation that Hiroshi gave was that some things weren't meant to be for this world.

I don't know why Hiroshi wanted to know the truth behind it when he said that some things weren't meant to be for this world.

This leaves a bunch of questions unanswered, for example, if the truth indeed wasn't meant for this world, what about the supernatural powers Hiroshi got? That would mean that he, the one who wants to find everything out, himself, isn't meant to be for this world.

Besides, pretty much everyone except in the organization has at least one of those abilities. At least, that's what I've heard.

But as a new member, no one, including Hiroshi and Lucy, told me anything about it. I know absolutely nothing about the supernatural powers besides the legend Hiroshi informed me about.

All Hiroshi did was briefly explain the concept of the organization and that was roughly 10% of everything.

There could be a chance that he didn't want to explain everything, considering the fact that I was a guy that he had known for roughly a day.

However, I don't intend to disturb or distract him in whatever he's doing, since I haven't seen him in days.

..

In the blink of an eye, a month has passed since I started to live here. Everything went by quickly, and somewhat slowly at the same. Some experiences went by quickly and some slowly, reading books in my free time was rather fast, while new experiences often felt slower.

Hiroshi gave me the time I needed to settle in, and I needed it. It didn't come as a shock, since I don't have any memories, so just about everything was new for me, and I needed to learn as well.

- - -

Scritch, Scritch—

The sound was coming from a pen that was carefully placed between my fingers, moving across the paper.

Every word that was written was from the black ink of the pen. I didn't have any writing experience, so the letters almost came out as cursive, while that wasn't even my intention to do so.

It was written in a small notebook, a diary. About a week after my arrival, I started to note my daily activities. Although it wasn't like every day was a roller coaster going down. Even the small—or boring parts were carefully noted in the diary. But even though I call it the 'boring' part, I still find some of them interesting.

I didn't particularly want to write a diary, but I wanted to note my improvements, and writing is also a good way of learning, so it's a win-win. However, learning from my unreadable diary seems a bit daunting. Well, maybe if I improve my handwriting, I can slowly see the progress of it improving.

After all, you must be able to read your own words. Writing pages when you can't even read it…

That's why I'll work hard to make sure that everything is readable. It wasn't like my handwriting was completely unreadable, but I don't think any other people besides me could read it.

Honestly, though, why would someone else even bother with reading it? It was just a usual diary, nothing special. That's right, I shouldn't think of others, if I'm able to read my work then it's fine.

Well, either way, I wouldn't mind having someone else read it. They can at least provide me with feedback, and with that, I could improve even more.

However, I'm not thinking of having Lucy provide me with feedback. I mean, she's stupid—no, she's silly, yeah Lucy is a little Naive.

Bringing up Lucy, it feels like she's trying to ignore me. Normally she would visit regularly during the day, but for the last couple of days I barely even saw her.

Wait… Why am I even thinking about her, it wasn't like I wanted her to come anyway. Most of the time she would just randomly barge in, which I found annoying at first, but quickly became used to it.

There are only a few words that I can use to describe Lucy: gorgeous, but weird, and lastly caring. Oh yeah, I almost forgot, she's also kind most of the time. Sometimes she's a witch though, she would treat me coldly. In other words, the complete opposite of her usual self.

Embarrassing as it was, I indeed felt a little bit lonely without anyone around.

There wasn't even much to write about my daily life.

It wasn't like I was expecting much out of my life either way, but I didn't expect it to be like this.

But I still felt guilty.

Reluctantly I stood up from my seat. Quickly after I began tearing the half-written pages.

"…dammit, another one going to there," I said while throwing the half-torn paper towards the garbage bin.

Realizing that last week, everything, but literally everything was the same. Almost every word that I wrote in the diary was similar, I was tired of repeating myself to do the same things over and over.

Repeat and repeat.

Well, I needed to settle in, but after a month I'm starting to get bored.

I rarely went outside for fresh air, though it wasn't extremely necessary. The house had tons of accommodations, but I mostly avoided them since I didn't want to get lost.

It's truly a shame that even after a whole month, I still get lost, and that happens almost all the time when I leave my room.

Sometimes Lucy would randomly find me and guide me back, but most of the time I just wandered around, trying to figure out where my room was.

It was simply stupid of me.

For some reason, remembering things wasn't easy. And that isn't good of course, memory plays a big part in everything. It seems like my brain isn't functioning properly.

Or was it just my stupidness?

Well, either way, both weren't good at all. But I'd prefer stupidity over a brain that isn't functioning properly.

Or was it the stupidity that caused the lack of brain?

After all, I really think there's something wrong with me, why was I even thinking about that again?

If I'm going to give this any more thought, then my head is seriously going to explode.

The next day.

A Sunday. For 'normal' people, Sunday is just another day, just a usual one, or a free day for some people. But for the forsaken it's different, I mean I think so.

Every Sunday, I would see Hiroshi at least once. Sunday is also his busiest day. Though I'm not sure what he's doing, it's probably important.

And normally Lucy would be here in my room, right at this time. But I guess she isn't coming, well, it was expected anyway.

Though I wonder what she's up to since I haven't seen her for a long while. I don't think that she's on a mission, since she didn't say anything about it beforehand, but it was possible.

Well, she's caring after all, she might've thought that it would break me if I heard that she was going on a mission.

I don't think she's on an extreme mission though, since she's probably not on that level. But either way, I can't judge, she's more experienced in everything.

Speaking of missions, it might be possible that Hiroshi is on one himself. I haven't seen him around for quite a while, but again I'm clueless.

But he's damn old, I don't think he's going anywhere, but then why haven't I seen him?

Then I realized I was just being foolish.

He has his own life after all, he could be outside as well, after all, I did meet him on the bench a while ago.

It already felt like ages since that happened, but only a month has passed, a month where nothing happened besides the introduction of the forsaken.

I was given time to prepare to become a member of it. But all I did was rotting in my room, and writing unnecessary things.

But I was left with one last question.

Can I do it?

Becoming a member of the forsaken.