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From my childhood, I was living a mixed life. Was I blessed or was I cursed? I had a contrary view over my life. But I was never alone despite everyone around me abandoning me. Another voice was echoing through me, telling me to not be afraid. At one point, I almost succumbed into a life under the shadow, but someone eventually pulled me out of it and placed me under the spotlight. I thought I was freed forever, but the Echo told me that I was wrong. And it was all proven true on the day I discovered the true face of my beloved, who cheated on me without any shame. That day, I felt my world breaking apart. We were always together, I thought we would be together forever. Like some sort of beautiful fantasy. Silly, yet warm. Somewhere I could escape to. A home. It wasn't too much. But somehow, it all started that day. Or did it start before it? I don't remember. My memories are failing me. He told me I shouldn't stay. He told me I'll only get hurt no matter how I try to please him. He did not lie… Then, why did it hurt so much? Maybe because I truly loved him, seeing him with another had me broken to pieces. It wasn't fun, but… It wasn't the worst. That day, I finally decided. ‘Leave.’ It was as if a trigger had been pulled, and my life moved again in a hectic direction. I've met people I thought I won't be meeting again, and was stranded between so many fights of interests. I could only fight for myself there. This time, not only the Echo was with me. Another person was there, supporting me unconditionally. Giving me the confidence to move. Still, I will forever wonder… What choice is the right one? I guess I'll never know until I reach my destination.
'Everything was so cold.'
I wanted to say that, but my lips didn't move. My whole body felt like it was paralyzed.
'Since when was I here?'
Lying there just for the sake of existing, that idea felt so heavy and exhausting at this moment. The white void that tried to engulf me in its embrace seemed to be successful, as I grew numb by the second.
My surroundings were completely blank, empty, without anything to see or feel.
'Why am I here?'
These kinds of thoughts echoed in the calmness of my mind. The emptiness of the place only increased the biting coldness in my heart. Everything was so painful.
'How can I get out of here?'
I didn't know. But I wanted to. Something was so painful here, I wanted to go back to my reality. I'm fed up with being caged within my insanity.
But the most important question was always, 'Do I really want to?'
Being here means something terrible has happened. I wouldn't know the full details, though. Because I was now stranded.
Wanting to leave this place was normal, but can I afford it? Do I know how? So many questions were left unanswered.
With every passing moment, my consciousness was fading.
'What was I supposed to do? I'm so powerless…'
Just as I was about to leave myself completely into my mind, I heard a voice whispering,
"What if I take your place?"
Hmm…?
"If you were afraid, if the doubts surrounded you, you need someone by your side to help."
Those words were sweet. But I have no one. I'm completely alone.
"You have."
They whispered again. And, shaking my head, I objected, 'But I have no one. Who would I possibly have?'
"Yourself. Me."
"Huh…?"
A confused noise escaped past my lips, making me realize I was able to move again. I blinked and slowly sat up.
The voice seemed to be smiling.
"I'll help you. Instead of one, let's become two."
The white void, which had been pulling me down since earlier, was retreating.
"Take my hand, and I'll lead you to the right path."
I didn't hate that idea.
In fact, I felt drowned in it. Why did I need to fight alone?
Someone else was offering to help me…
A voice inside me.
'What could go wrong if I agreed to this?'
The answer was unknown, just like many of my questions. However, I paid no attention to it.
This time, I willingly jumped into the unknown.
