My Departing Letter (Not a chapter but read)

Hello everyone, long time no see. As you know I haven't written anything for a long time, I'm almost sure there are some people that really liked the silly and wish fulfillment stories I wrote just for fun, so it is always a pain to need to drop one of the works I did in the past.

Well a lot of time has passed ever since I first ever began writing, little more than 1 year and it always has been a hobby that I enjoyed doing quite a lot, and I do not intend on stopping it. Out of all my stories I think that this one of one of my favorite ones to write and I enjoyed every second of it, reading the comments you guys posted always made me happy, maybe it was just for the fact that people were liking the stuff I wrote, heck maybe I just liked having some attention and interacting with other people even though it is online. Fantasizing the kind of stories I would make has been a big part of my time for a extended period of time, thinking about what people would think when reading was also quite enjoyable to do, I can still remember how my mind worked in those times and sometimes I miss it, there is a very good reason for it.

I can't say that I have suffered in this pandemic in comparison to people who have actually lost people dear to them, I simply can not come even close to imagining what people that went through that felt, but in this long months a lot of things from good to bad happened to me, and it made me reflect on an extremely big amount of things, it kinda changed me, I just couldn't find that same happiness I felt when writing fluffy and sweet stories, when tried to do it I just had this empty feeling, as if I could not enjoy that the same as before, maybe it was because I finally stopped being ignorant and pitiful, trying not to see the things that were wrong with me and this messed up place we humans call our home.

After a lot of reflection, I came to the conclusion that those perfect lives I gave characters simply wouldn't excite me the way they did months ago, I realized that what I would truly enjoy was creating realistic stories that were more deep and sad that would give the readers a cathartic feeling, with a well built and balanced elements with plot twists, a highly bewitching plot with interesting elements which would somewhat "lock" the reading and keep them waiting for more, not like my previous works that I barely gave any thought and just went writing whatever I wanted, nowadays, some friends and I are planning a new story that might even take months to be ready so I can write it, an original story with a involving plot, complicated characters with their own personal dilemmas and problems, a slow and well developed romance which will also be way more realistic. If you are wondering how will I make such a good story compared to my old works, I will just do something I never did, actually try and do my best, read books to improve my writing and philosophical visions which I intend on putting into work, a clash of ideologies and more social and political problem would sure be a interesting thing to read if well constructed wouldn't it?

Some people might be mad at me like I have seen before, since you know, I said I wouldn't drop it but unfortunately I couldn't keep my word at all. Maybe something good might come out of this, an very likely excelent story will come out of it, maybe this is just a stop in this enormous and seemingly endless path that I chose to spend my life walking through and in the end this all needed to happen, well, guess only time will tell what Wil happen.

I remember saying once that I wouldn't drop this story unless I was dead or something, well I clearly am not, but in a way haven't we all died before? We must first loose a piece of ourselves, so that a new one shall blossom, every big change that happens in our lives takes and replaces a small piece of us, this will happens forever no matter how much you try to stop it, so, sooner or later, in the end of it all our old selves will be gone and we probably won't even notice.

Well, before I end this TED talk I just did I will end this saying that I will be creating a new account, the name will be Namielle. This is all I had to say, goodbye everyone and thank you for reading. See you in a while.

The End.