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The Creature Inside Me

He felt like his body was on fire. It wasn’t something he wasn’t familiar with but every time it got more and more painful to bear. He held his stomach, curled in under his duvet and held his eyes shut tight. He was crying and biting his pillow to hold in the painful sobs. He was called weak for whining about the pain so he didn’t bother to tell the sister. They had been taking care of him for a very long time. He was a baby when he lost his parents and after that, they had taken care of him. They had taken him to the doctor and concerned with every doctor they could to ask about his condition and the pain he faced every month but nobody knew what was going on with him. His health started declining just when he hit 18. The doctors said he had maximum of 4 years to live which was a very vague estimation but he has already lived 2 years of his 4 years life. He had accepted his fate. He knew he wouldn’t survive long enough to even complete these four years. There was no medicine for his pain because his health sure was deteriorating but not knowing the cause of it made doctors confused as to what medicine to give him for his pain. All he wanted was to know who he was and why was he different from others before sleeping under the layer of mud forever! “Hey, you alright?” He heard a voice. He didn’t know who it was because he was under the duvet. But before he could open his mouth to answer or get the time to remove his duvet, he heard another voice. “Yeah… I’m just going to use the loo.” The other boy answered the previous boy’s question which made him realize that the question wasn’t directed to him but to the boy who was out of his bed for the bathroom. “Just wanna die soon.” He mumbled under his breath, answering the question even though it wasn’t directed to him.

Laiba · LGBT+
Peringkat tidak cukup
99 Chs

Heat

Zadkiel was staring at the spot where Irvin had first parked his car, through the window and kept replaying the first meeting he had with Irvin. He smiled thinking how confused he was. It’s not that he wasn’t confused anymore but just at that point he did a terrible job at hiding it.

He was still going through that pain daily. It had been 4 days since he saw Irvin. He needed him every day, all the time. He was craving his touch, his smell and his warmth. He just wanted to be in his arms. Every time, the pain exceeded the tolerance level and something in his mind whimpered for Irvin, he’d just cuddle a pillow tightly, thinking it was Irvin. Sometimes it worked. Sometimes it didn’t.

“Still trying to make his car magically reappear on that spot?” He heard Abel and smiled at his comment. He turned around and leaned his back against the wall beside the window, tilting his head a little to face his friend.

“Any news on him?” He questioned him, hoping that Irvin had at least asked about him.

“Nope.” Abel pressed his lips together.

“Why don’t you tell me what happened between you two that night, that in the morning you were ready to let his father adopt you and then what happened between you and Father the other day, that now you don’t wanna go with him?” Abel asked him for five thousandth time.

A smile surfaced Zadkiel’s face when he went back down his memory lane to the night they spent together at the riverbank, just chattering stuff that he still laughed on about.

“I don’t want to be away from you,” Zadkiel murmured as he was dragging his feet and slowly pacing towards the car. Irvin was still persistent in taking him back.

“You’re blabbering shit you don’t mean just because you’re in heat.” Irvin chuckled at Zadkiel and kept their hands entwined.

“Heat? Is this what it’s called? I mean it’s the right name. I do feel hot.” Zadkiel huffed a breath as he felt like he had walked miles.

“It’s the time of the year when you definitely get pregnant if you have sex.” Irvin winked at him. Zadkiel laughed but soon his laugh died down when he understood what Irvin meant.

“What the fuck?! You think I can get pregnant?” Zadkiel laughed but it wasn’t that laugh when you find a joke funny, it was a laugh of the mixture of realization and shock.

“I’m sure you can. We can test that if you want.” Irvin gave him a flirty look.

“Smooth,” Zadkiel commented, pushing him away in embarrassment.

The walk back to the car, seemed to have elongated because it wasn’t ending but none of them was complaining. They were living the happiest moment of their lives as they were taking a stroll in the middle of the woods, at 4 am, hand in hand.

“Wait a damn minute!” Zadkiel froze in his position as his eyes were shocked and his jaw was touching the floor.

“What?” Irvin instantly got worried seeing Zadkiel like that.

“That’s why I’m being clingy towards you, right? Because I crave sex? I read that about wolves in a book. They go into heat and they become flirty. They crave sex and attention.” Zadkiel spoke, staring at Irvin’s face for confirmation.

“There you go. You’ve got it, finally.” Irvin slow clapped for Zadkiel.

“That’s fucking embarrassing. Don’t put yourself too high on a cloud because I craved nothing like that.” Zadkiel muttered with flushed cheeks as he tried to walk faster than Irvin to avoid embarrassment.

“There is a difference between humans and wolves. So, I was clingy. I accept it but I did not have any kind of desire like that.” Zadkiel stopped and turned around only to explain that to Irvin who gave a nod, trying not to laugh and keeping his expression still.

“Don’t look at me like that!” Zadkiel snapped at him for no reason. He was just too embarrassed for his own good.

“Like what?” Irvin put on an innocent expression and frowned. Zadkiel pouted and looked away from Irvin.

“I’m starting to think that maybe your magical story is true in some aspects. Especially in the mate department.” Zadkiel gave him a look. Irvin smirked at him but said nothing.

“Though I still refuse to believe that I can get pregnant. There’s no scientific proof for male pregnancy.” Zadkiel stated as he held Irvin’s hand and started walking again.

“There is no scientific explanation for you craving sex from a total stranger as well,” Irvin murmured but Zadkiel chose to ignore it.

“I think it’s not that much of a bad thing to get adopted by a family in your 20s, is it?” Zadkiel looked at Irvin through the corner of his eyes as a smile was plastered on his face. Irvin was stunned and looked at Zadkiel, totally startled.

“Are you serious?” Irvin questioned, voice filled with shock and underlying joy that was ready to come out after confirmation.

Zadkiel let go of Irvin’s hand and ran towards the cottage that was now in their sight.

“Zadkiel?!” Irvin called him but Zadkiel just kept running towards the cottage with a teasing smile on his face. When he reached the double doors of the cottage, he saw the rusty lock on it. He headed towards the car to retrieve the key. As he was about to turn around and make his way to unlock his friend, he was pressed against the car and then was turned around. He came face to face with Irvin who was looking at him dominantly.

“Did you mean it?” He questioned Zadkiel who still had a teasing smile on his face.

“Why don’t you come up with a great plan tomorrow and present it to Father in a way that he can’t refuse you taking me away with you?” Zadkiel spoke in a teasing tone and pushed Irvin back to free himself but as he was passing past him, he stopped and leaned closer to Irvin’s ear to whisper before he dashed off to unlock the door.

“I’ll be waiting, alpha.”

“Nothing important,” Zadkiel murmured, answering Abel’s question. Abel knew he wouldn’t get any further lead on this case so he just sighed and left Zadkiel with his window.

When Abel left, Zadkiel turned around to look out of the window again. This time eyeing the area behind the bleachers where he talked to Irvin.

“You don’t feel anything towards me?”

That was the first question Irvin asked when they were alone behind the bleachers. A smile appeared on Zadkiel’s face at his dumbness. Like who even asks that question to a total stranger.

Maybe, just Irvin Ford.