chap 1:The robbery

How could I forget the night that changed my life. It was too real and unforgettable. It was a rainy and gloomy night when my parents and sister were murdered. I knew something was off about that night, it was too perfect. I felt safe and looked forward to life. you're probably wondering what actually happened so let me skip to that night. We had dinner late like around 8 so we were up for quite awhile when we finished dinner. I remember my mother making popcorn after dinner so that we could watch a movie afterwards. " Shadow hun where did u put the butter?" asked my mother. Knowing damn well she hid the butter from me Everytime I get stressed from school. " mom are you seriously asking me that right now?" " hunny I don't remember where I put it and for all I know you probably knew where I put it and ate the whole jar. oh wait never mind found it hehe, it was behind the cereal box." My mother was such a dork. She's also very forgetful, and she was very beautiful. That night, my sister Neesha fell asleep on my lap, and I remember looking at her dark clear skin and thick hair, we looked so much alike it scared me. I remember the day when she was born so clearly, I was about 10 years old. Shes only 9 but she hit puberty early. I carried her to her room and came back to wake my parents up, who were cuddled up on the couch so peacefully that I just let them be and went to my room. I laid on the bed thinking about college and where I should go. I want to be an actress and a singer. I was taking vocal lessons before everything went down to the drain that night. As I was laying in my bed, I heard someone in the front door struggling with the lock. So im laying there thinking maybe it's just dad making sure the doors are locked. But then I hear the door open, and Neesha's in front of my door staring at something. "daddy? momma there's a man standing behind you!!" Neesha screams. The next thing I hear is a big bang and Neesha's shot on the chest. " Hunny noooo!! Noooo!" momma crying holding on to Neesha. Daddy struggling with the robber and then I hear two bangs. The house go quiet and momma standing there lifeless. Daddy got shot. Im on my bed can't move an inch. momma looks at me, and points to the closet, telling me to hide. I rush to the closet and as soon as I close the closet door, I hear four big bangs. The man enters my room, I can see him through the blinds on my closet. Every step he took, made my heart beat faster and faster. I wanted to die quick, I didn't want to suffer with shock.The man stopped when he came in front of the closet. " Come out right now, I know you're in there. Ya moms don't know how to quietly send signals, I saw her looking at you. Come out sweety, before I make yo ass suffer. You see, if lil baby didn't scream, I woulda simply just came in and take y'all money and be on my way but that wasn't the case you feel me. Now come out before I shoot you ass!!" screamed the man. I slowly opened the closet door with one arm in the air. Tears were flowing down like water, I never cried that much in my life. " put yo hands all the way up and face the wall. How old is you!?" the robber demanded to know my age. " I..I..(sniff).. I'm 19, please don't hurt me" I pleaded. He grabbed my arm slammed me to the wall. His face was all up in my ear and his breath smelled like shit and crack mixed together real nice. " you pretty baby, I see you were ready for me, got on some lil pink panies and some tiny ass crop top." he grabbed my neck and turned me around to face him. His eyes met mines, looking at me up and down. He glared at my chest, went down to my naked belly, and shifted down to my bikini lines. He put his hands in my panies and squeezed my lady land.His eyes came back up to my chest, and stared at my chest for about a good min. I was scared, scared to death especially scared he would do something terrible to me. I'm not a virgin I had a boyfriend and we did it a couple times, but this was different I didn't want him to hurt me. My body frame was different from my mother's. I have wide hips and very tiny waist and wear D 38 in braws, so you can imagine why this man is staring at my chest for this long. My tears are flowing down wishing that he would have mercy on me. " damn baby, turn around" My stupid ass resisted and didn't listen to him. So he grabbed my neck and forced me to turn my ass around. He pushed me on to the wall and stripped my clothes off, leaving me naked in front if him. He started to take off his belt, sees me crying even more and starts smiling. He gets completely naked. I try to run out if the room, but he grabs my waist and pushes me on to the wall. " where you going baby, I'mma fuck yo ass real good tonight, cry for daddy." he whispered into my ear " No stop, please let me go!" I pleaded. He turns me around to face him, and he lifts me up, my legs facing his shoulders, my back on the wall. He starts licking my nipples, making me scream for help.Then he starts to push his junk in me going in and out. He puts me down and Throws me on the bed and bends me over.