I Can't Help But Have You

Since Melina fainted in the basement, Massimo had to carry her upstairs. He took her in bridal style and began walking. He entered his room and gently placed her small frame on his bed and covered her with his sheets. He was about to leave the room when he felt something pulling him back.

He turned around to notice his sleeve caught up in her bracelet. He gently removed his sleeve from her bracelet and placed her delicate arm on top of the sheets. He then bent down to have a closer look. Her face was covered by her brown curls. He gently lifted them and placed them behind her ear. He noticed her face puffed from crying and her eyes swollen.

Guilt. Regret.

That was all he felt at that moment. A lifetime of getting what he wanted, made him a ruthless monster who didn't feel; who didn't care. He wanted to have her in the way of love, but when he learned that the woman he wanted, had some other man in her heart, he just couldn't accept it. He did what he knew, taking what he wants. He knew what he was doing was so wrong. He knew she was too fragile for him. He knew she didn't deserve this, but he can't help it.

He gets what he wants.. either by force or love. He was a monster and he knew it. For a moment his eyes became wet and then returned to their usual stoic composure. He gently ran his fingers along her brown waves and looked at her longingly.

Knowing she would not hear him he whispered, ' I'm a monster, Melina. A ruthless one. I lost my innocence when life showed it's true colors when I was a kid. I don't even remember what it is to be like you..an innocent, kind-hearted soul who only knows to love unlike me, filled with hate for this cruel world. I want you to bring out the good in me Melina, that's hidden within the depths of my heart. You don't remember me, but I do. You made me believe in good when I lost all hope. I know you don't remember it but it doesn't matter Melina. My light in the darkness, glow for me, sweetheart'.

He then smiled at her, switched off the lights, and left the room.

The moment he left, Melina opened her eyes tearing up, from his confession he thought she didn't hear. The feelings he thought she'll never feel.