His Name is Ajay

I'm a dusky girl. I experienced lot of discrimination in my teen I was little over weight too!. Everybody around me was experienced little sweet love moment but me, I'm always background artist in a drama,

Still I expected some one to love me or just to see me as a person.

But no one did!

Then,on 2014 I opened a facebook account,

There I met Mr.Ajay kumar.

He was doing his first year in bachelor degree,

He gave me request and I accepted it,

At first I thought to move with him as a friend so I treated him just as a friend,

Over 2 years I carried away with a fantasy of Facebook so I'm not in much contact with Ajay I almost forgot him,

But fate tried to show me what true love is...

Then after 2 years when I was in 12th std I contacted him again and this time we really become very close, I will blush uncontrollable when I hear his Name,

I always text him, called him,I kinda become an addict to him finally my board exams approched,I always studied with him in mobile,I don't know I would love him this much during those days, I'm not a girl who would cry for a man,but I cried every single day after he left me,

I will regret every single minute of my Life to ignore his indirect proposal,

I made him to wait for me to text but now Im feeling sort of pain in my heart to call him,

I know he won't accept the call but I badly need his love,

After,the beautiful friend ship of one year there comes a dark day,

He was too busy to take my call,

I got pretty anger,

He convinced me by sorry,

Then again he hanged and rejected my calls so I loosed my temper and said him "you are using me for time pass"

That's the Last time I talked to him,

It's been three years,he blocked me in every social media accounts even in Google pay, and then finally I found he is in relationship with another girl named durga for 3 years, after our break-up I missed him a lot! I became lonely piece of shit,

Even my friend tried to convince him,

It's been 3 years I still feel the pain,

I even took same major for him,

I know him for 6 years, with in 6 year I loved him seriously for 1 year and weaping for him for 3 years...but I didn't saw him for even once...

lastly I still miss you Ajay.... love you,

But one day during the break up period he texted me and said he got a job,

I don't know why would he even care to tell, He hated me for 3 years, then my friend said don't start to expect more!

So now I learnt to control My feelings

My heart not accepting that he is in another relationship but I should move on. Maybe he don't have any feelings for me but he is my first love.

I miss you and still love you Ajay ❤️