Chapter One

"Whatever happens remember i love you. Okay? " i said to my sister who was about to undergo surgery for her lungs.

"Yes i'll always remember" she replied.

Then i was told by the doctors to leave in order for the surgery to take place.

I left the room smiling and i blew a kiss to my sister and left.

Well.... My name is Stacie my sisters call me Stace my dad used to call me that too before he passed away; since then my mom always drank alcohol and came home late with one night stands. Blah blah blah.....I have 2 friends which are makayla and Brandon .

Yeah what type of kid has only two friends right? Well i do.

I've had my friends since kindergarten when we all got bullied and i always stood up for them and sometimes they did the same to me.

Well did i forget to mention i 'HAD' two friends? Oh well maybe i did.

I lost my friends in a plane crash when they were on their way to a school trip back in Los Angeles which i couldn't go to because i had to take care of my mom along with my sisters bummer right? . I eventually moved to England where i practically don't fit in just because i don't have the 'accent'. Sucks right? Well i learnt to live with it and I'm now in my senior year at 17 years old. And my only friend right now is my next door neighbor.

I know what your thinking i must've probably had my first boyfriend, first kiss and all but no.

The only boy i ever liked was Brandon and unfortunately he died. Bummer. Well all i have are my sisters but I only talk to the 3rd born because she seems to know how to handle me.

I have five sisters i am the last so I'm practically hated by all....or I think they hate me I don't know anyway we never talk.

Your probably thinking because i have experienced so many deaths i'll be like those people who have nightmares and probably have to see tons of therapists well i have my own way of dealing with it.... Do you want to know what it is? Oh yeah you probably do

I just play basketball.

Weird huh? Yeah i am the full definition of basketball but I don't play much

I'm snapped out of my day thinking by the doctor who told me the surgery was done and i could go in and see her.

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I went in and my sister smiled at me

"i told you it was going to be fine" i said smiling back.

My sisters name is Abby she's always lived in the hospital because of her lung cancer but finally it has been cured by the transplant which will probably not last long but at least i had my sister beside me as we walked to her car which i drive.

We eventually got home as usual to a drunk mom and a man with shorts in out kitchen drinking milk directly from the carton. I hate this but apparently he has been here for three days hmmm maybe my mom was finally settling down. I'd hoped so though.

I went upstairs greeted my sisters and locked myself in my room brought out some ham from my personal (and yes i mean personal) mini-fridge. Grab two slices of bread and fix myself a ham sandwich. You're probably wondering why i have my personal fridge and it's because i don't leave my room unless it's to go out or to the attic to meet Abbey.

I finish up my sandwich lay in bed and view my instagram account

Yes i don't socialize so i prefer anonymously texting people from my school who don't know who I am and will probably never find out.

I have 50,000 followers and no posts.

I exit instagram and log on to my twitter account which is also anonymous and i start posting love quotes or tips on basketball.

I mentioned venting out on basketball right? Well now i haven't had any reason to vent out so i haven't played basketball in a while and i don't even bother trying for the school team.

I exit twitter and drop my phone rolled down from my bed to the floor and look up my ceiling to see my best friends and my dad. I stared at the pictures and i felt a hot tear fall down my cheek and wipe it away.

My friends and my dad were my only weak spot though i don't think about them often i still miss them badly.

I stand up from the floor and start getting ready for school then next day.

Checked all my assignments and projects and put them into my bag.

After that i brush my teeth take off my beanie and rub my head.

I'm not your typical girl because i don't have much hair mine is a whitish gray pixie cut which was not my decision by the way, it was kinda compulsory.

You're probably wondering why i don't have much hair. Well it's because I'm a survivor of cancer a really wack cancer i never knew what it was called. I considered growing it back but pushed the thought when i didn't feel like taking up on myself the responsibility of brushing it everyday. To myself I sincerely don't see what's wrong in having a side shave as a girl but no girl in my school has a side shaved so if I did let out my hair it'll give them another reason to make me a laughing stock.

I put back on my beanie which is the particular one i went to bed with. I practically had one for everyday and every occasion.

I jumped on my bed took my laptop and clicked on Netflix watching Infamous or tried to watch as i fell asleep.

I woke up to the hitting of my window and looked to see a guy who i recognized as Jake my Next door neighbor. I sighed getting up from my bed opening up the window and letting him in.

Yeah you're probably wondering who Jake is, well he is my next door neighbor and my only friend i don't socialize with in the open. He needs me to escape from his parents whenever he attends late night parties and just tells them he was at my house for a sleepover and i confirm.

"Johnson funny seeing you here" he says his eyes boring into mine looking challenging.

I roll my eyes "hmm.. I would be here because it's my room Jake" i say giving him a tight smile and walking back into bed him on the couch.

"Goodnight Johnson" Jake said in a tired tone

"Goodnight your JJ" i said turning. i've always called him that since we where five a long time because

We knew each other because of our moms and have been neighbors since like ever. But we don't talk that much but we're so close and never show it

Jake and I are even closer than how Brandon and I were. At the thought of him I remember all the good times we had together along with Makayla and

I end up falling into a deep sleep.

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