Hate L-love!!

Dusty winds got gusty...but still my shakening steps didn't stop proceeding...to unknown!

My teeth were shattering and my cheeks, eyes were cold and moist as ice with Visibility rate and freezing rate were below zero...still from inside I was put on kerosene by the person I thought I did love!

but now...

my once beautiful dream has come to a very-very tragic end!

"Ah...!!!"

And I fall to my face onto the middle of coke based road as my ankle twisted in those f*cking so called fashionable high heals that I worn for that bastrad who is enjoying this special night with that fame girl!

And here, I am being burning myself?!

This turned sobbing into crying!

I busted my fist to the road for standing on my feet but ....no I couldn't!

I am burnt out and hurt-from all heart, soul and body!

And I'm alone!

But am I?

"You always keep on falling, don't you?! "

And one warm hand in those chilling winds tried to pull me up from the road but I resisted in blinded sense and fragments of pain droping in a vein without showing any interest in who it might be- 'cause I already know who it was, cause it was that only person I knew would have run away from that sort of grand party for me-

"Yuki...leave me alone! " I cried with my shallow vocal between mewling like a baby, continously hammering my right fist to the ground just to lesser my heart ache...but it only end up hurting my hand even after it was all bloody.

"Stop this madness!" He crounched on the road and gripped my red blood hand pulling me with a greater potential that now even my resistance couldn't fight his strength.

And I was on my knee gazing my childhood friend facing up to with my reddened eyes which were rheumy but ulutate to look at who had an angerstriken face with his black hairs which usually used to cover his eyes were flying in the whirling storm today and his greyish eyes sparkling in the darkness of night transcending me to my soul,

But his appolozic look, doesn't give any sympathy but fill me with grave rage!

And I crackled like I was busted as if like a landmine-

"Oh please, don't make such a face! I know you , you wanted this to over! Don't you?! 'cause I am the worst decision maker ever! Didn't I?! Say it say it!!! ---"

Without a say, he pulled me in an unexpected hug intensely with a calming passion that I was frozen to my mind of the situation being so puzzled then It never happened that he wrapped me but instead of pushing away like I was tending to suddenly, the fountain tears started to fall in a symmetrical line without any rush and I started to melt in his comforting warmth Like never before.

"You are at fault....You are at fault....I am at fault... I-I am at fault!"

"I fall in love with him, even after all your warnings! I loved him!"

I buried my face in his chest crying one's both eyes and heart out, screeching and thumping my injured fist on to his back but he didn't even said a thing!

"I hate love! I hate love, Yuki! I hate.... love! "

He just hold me tighter in his arms, motionless...running his fingers calmingly over my head

for minutes to hours!

which I don't know precisely.

I remember...

Until'I started to feel dizzy and black out unknowningly...in the darkness that consumes everyone in it!

Only to find my consciousness when morning bright sun sparkled over my glooming prone eye and some familiar call outs-

"Tako-kaurou!! "

'Ah... Where-Where...am I? ' With a steady pain inside that binds my whole body as If fractured from my head to toe, I asked myself opening one eye to ensure if it's just a nightmare or worse-reality!

And it's worse!

I am in my own room in my own bed beside my sister sleeping peacefully in her bed?!

How is this possible?!

As far as I could go through my neurological cycle- dark windy night, Ren's... Nao and...S-Sai...!

And that resnitched the last night's painful wound! That my eyes were filled with tears in no time unexpected with those clips of that once sweet boy who was my crush then my boyfriend but all of sudden betrayal-kissing, F*cking run back to me!

But all the strength,

I closed my waterlogged eyes restrictioning all those unwanted memories rushing at once-happy, sad funny and at last breaking!

"It's school time! "One more warnings sirine from my mom down stairs yet my soul didn't seem to get any overwhelmed for stepping out of bed!

For what should I get out of my bed for?!

To see Sai proudly telling everyone about the last night with Nao?!

or to grab Nao's collar asking 'what was wrong with me that he didn't something like that to me'?!

I can't do anything!

I am such a waste!

More of my heart bleeds now, and I don't want to publicize my wound that was when I attempted to drag the blanket over my face as if it was that Harry Potter's invisible coat but when my right hand attempted to made a move it, I felt different around my hand but I ignored until just a muscle movement cause endless sparking pain traveling upside down that I moan silently in distress rolling on my back a little, looking for the cause... just my rise bending my head in right direction-

Right, offcouse me!

Now that road memories resurface, when I bleeded my hand while crying but rather being left in air as it should have been, my injury was well bandaged right now covering from my wrist to my palm just letting fingers projecting out of the clean white bandage.

"What the hell?!" I screamed the hell out that even my sister's sleep was cracked as she Vail in sleepy head-

" Holy hell!".

But, I was freaking hellish that the agony I was going through a little bit back was puffed away and my mind pulled it's strings to-

What happened in night after I passed out?!

I sat to my bed holding my head into my hands asking myself irritantly humming as if a bee-

"What happened?! God! What happened?!"

"Stop, weirdo!" Opening one eye and Still in sleepy yawning voice she exclaimed but I didn't though of doing any notice.

And then suddenly-

"A-ha offcouse!"

A satisfying feeling rose into my head,

Offcouse, there's one possible person who could give me answer to every question of mine-It's Yuki!

And I jumped off my bed on my feet-Which collapsed like they said London bridge is falling down! effortlessly...

Still the night memories are blur but my twisted ankle Still haven't recovered yet but here I am falling like a fallen angel just like last night on my face but before I was nearly fallen on my rooms tiled floor, I was caught with safety through an arm around my waist-

"Always falling...?!"

"Yuki?!"