Already too late. [1/2]

After the Simmons and the White Guard left. 

There was an awkwardness that remained between the eight of us present. 

We had basically already confessed to each other, but technically we hadn't. I wonder if Noelle and Earl created this situation on purpose. If left alone, I would have tried to be vague, still traumatized by my past.

Caroline really fucked me up badly. For years, my self-esteem was non-existent. I could have gotten a hooker for a quick fuck, but the mere thought of being with a woman became difficult. 

I already had trust issues with women because my mom left. When I got cheated on, I broke. My best friend cucked me and I was robbed of the woman I adored. 

I lost all faith in people as a result.