Panicking

Advika POV :

My head is in a mess right now. Not that it is the only time my head is in a mess. With me, my head is always full of tangled wires,always thinking over small things. Overthinking me.

But now, this mess is giving me a headache too. Uggh !! Why can't I have a normal life like normal people out there ? Can't I just be away from all the troubles and stay happy ?

Fate really love to play with me. Sorry. In my case, its not fate. Its bad luck.

After whatever happened few hours ago in the dreaded office with someone who shouldn't be named, I rushed home and locked myself in my room. I need some space to think over all these.

Should I just up and disappear ?

Just dig a hole and bury myself there ?

But underneath all the shocking things happened today, there a rage shimmering inside me. I really really don't want to think of past memories. I kept it buried inside my head all over the years and protected my heart from breaking everyday. I can't let that person to destroy me again just because he popped up in my life out of nowhere. Dang it. I should have checked about the company more or about their partnership with other companies or at least I should have asked Dad about the company I was going to interview for. How stupid of me.

Why God why ????!! In such a big city, Why I met him at all ?

Maa came to ask me for dinner but I declined. I can't find myself to have appetite right now. But as if I can hide it from my mother.

Who am I kidding ? She knows literally every emotions I feel. She might be here to check why her daughter is brooding suddenly. I was never a brat daughter who will simple brood just because she didn't got a toy. Everyone in family knows this. Isn't what parents teach this to their elder child from start about responsibilities and all. While my younger sister got pampered with everything and they let go every mistakes she made, I was the one who had to shoulder things like "Do this for your sister to look up to you" and all. Everyone knows if I am brooding it's not because of a small thing.

But I can't face her now. Maybe later. Yes, but not now.

But Later ? When ? After how many years ? A decade maybe. - my subconscious chirped.

Who let my subconscious out of the locked room. Can't she just shut up for once. I am trying to concentrates here. Focus Advika !

Sure. Let me plan how to get rid of him. I did it once in the past and I can do it again.

What ? Are you concentrating on someone ?

Shut up !! Geez this girl in me.

Okay ! Phew. Focus now !

While being in my room for hours,I decided to search on him on google.

So smart.

I find myself rolling my eyes on my inner voice. I will just ignore her.

But after surfing for half an hours, I found literally nothing about Singhanias. Shouldn't be his name in BOLD LETTER on front search of Google. At least for being a womaniser.

Why can't this google be helpful when needed ?!!!

I remember his dad was a great businessman. And this Satan himself was also planning to join his dad in his business. So why can't I find them in internet ? Its not like they were in small business. No. They owned half of the city.

Maybe Some people like thier privacy. Duh.

Does killing my inner voice equals to killing myself ? Yes ? Nevermind.

But the maint point is "What was HE doing there in that office?".

Maybe working there ? No !! He had enough money to feed the whole world, why would he work there ? Maybe they got bankrupt ? And He had to work under a company.

Geez Advika, you have such a stupid imagination.

Because when I bumped into him today, I noticed few things like custom made suit which fits him perfectly. I know that was custom made because my father use same too. And a normal employee working under someone can't afford that piece of suit. And He had a Rolex watch on him. And I don't know how to explain but he had this aura of authority around him which none can ignore. Like he is the one ruling the whole world or should I say company.

No. So he can't be an employee there.

So Maybe he came in the company for some business partnership. The way people in company were giving him space with respect and bowing a little, maybe he is an important client of them. Yes ! That must be it.

And If he is only a partner in projects or something no matter how important he is, I can try and avoid him for sure. Smart Advika.

Are you sure ? You can avoid him.

No. No

I am not going to risk facing him once again there . I can't face him and let my emotions all over him. He doesn't even deserve my anger, my hate, my lo....No !. He deserves nothing. Absolutely nothing from me. I can't through everything all over again even if I have to leave my first job.

The first thing I will do tomorrow is call the office to quit and will apologize them for declining their offer.

I can get any other job out there. But I have to stay from him now. But now that he knows I am here in the same state, I hope he won't create problems. Isn't that what he is ? Troublemaker.

But he shouldn't right ? Why would he ? Isn't this he wanted in the first place ? I was a troublesome for him. A burden. For a person who think me as a burden won't want to face to again in life. Right ? Right.

Than why I saw that determination and promise when he say, he will meet me soon ?!. What's left now for him to take from me ?

Leave it. I don't even want to think about it. I will call office tomorrow and quit. Yes. That's it.

Our chapter will close again. Yes we meet again but this time I won't stay to destroy myself.

What an irony when I said "Our" chapter, there was never an "us" in the chapter to begin with.

I just hope, after quitting everything will be fine.

With that thought in mind,I tucked myself in blanket and let sleep overcome. Don't worry. Not even a Tsunami can stop me to sleep once my head touch my pillow.

But what she didn't know that when she us planning to remove herself from Reyaansh life, there is someone else on the other part of the town is planning his devious plan to tier her with himself. To never let go,no matter what fate throws, he is now born again with a new determination.