3: Shower bj's

A few days have past and now I sitting in a chair, at a local graveyard, trying my hardest not to scream and cry.

After burying Jungkook's body I started to look around hoping I'd find his parents so I could give them my condolences.

I saw classmates, gang members, teachers and people I couldn't recognize, either too old or too young to be his parents. What kind of parents don't attend their own sons funeral? I hated Jungkook with all my guts and I'm here.

Suddenly I remembered the night he died, he had mixed up 'apologize' with 'condolence', I broke down. Here I was looking to give away condolences he had unknowingly given to me, or maybe he knew. Maybe he came to my house because he knew he was going to die and thought I wouldn't care too much.

Here I was caring the most out of everyone here, I couldn't stand to be around this many people pretending to be sad so I literally ran into the bathrooms and locked myself into a stall.

I fell to my knees sobbing, this day couldn't get any worse, except it did.

Suddenly I felt a strong grip on my throat, I looked up and saw no one, but it was definitely there because it managed to push me into the air; suffocating me.

I thought that this was it, this is how I'm going to die, but I felt lips on mine. I felt someone kissing me and pushing me against the wall, it's so cold I felt shivers go up my spine, it's Jungkook.

I can't see him but I know he's here, I felt that same bite I felt that day, and I felt blood starting to drop down my chin. I never knew i would be this happy being strangled and kissed by a ghost that doesn't even exist.

I allowed, whatever this is, to kiss and bite me however it wants, and I couldn't help but moan feeling it travel down my jaw and onto my neck. It bit me and sucked a love bite onto my skin, it feels so real. But I know it's not, it's just a hallucination or a figment of my imagination.

I groaned at his touch and felt him taking a hold on my butt, slowly it started stopping.

"N-no, no please stay with me!" I begged feeling my body being lowered back to the ground, I felt one last kiss reach my lips before nothing. Not even a bit of wind.

Suddenly my phone fell out of my pocket, I picked it up and saw it was already open, and I saw a picture of me. And Jungkook. Together. My lip is being bitten. And he's biting it. He's got ears. Bat ears? Idk.... It was from just now. There no way it was from any other time because that was the second time we've ever kissed and the first time I wasn't wearing a black suit I was wearing a blue t-shirt.

Jungkook is either a ghost or I'm royally fucked and am taking myself to a mental institution.

"Taehyungie? Taebae please come out." I suddenly heard Jimin hyung calling for me, there's no way I'm telling him about this. I quickly fixed my hair and tried hiding the hickey I probably gave myself without knowing it, I wiped my chin and exited the bathroom stall.

"Oh Tae, what happened? Why is your lip bleeding?" Jimin asked immediately coming to me and rapped his arms around my neck so he could embrace me, "I bit it...." I lied as Jimin carefully wiped away my tears and kissed my cheek and eyes repeatedly.

"Oh sweet baby, it'll get better. Just hang in there, alright?" Jimin gave me a sweet and reassuring smile, I nodded and made him embrace me again, he didn't put up a fight and immediately hugged tightly.

(That night)

Fuck, I keep thinking about what happened in the bathroom stalls today, and the more I think the more I get hard.

I've had enough of this lovers nut, I'm jacking off and I don't care if it's the day of his funeral or not. I went into my bathroom and turned on the shower, it turns out mum did throw Namjoon and Jimin out but since I'm her perfect baby I was forced to still live here.

I waited for the water to heat up to the temperature I want it and got in after removing all my clothes, I started pumping myself using the water as lubricant. I imagined what he'd look like if he was really there today, and lord, he's so pretty.

I moaned softly not wanting my mum to hear how unholy I am, when suddenly I felt hands around my waist, I looked back frightened but there was no one there.

"Jungkookie..." I mumbled continuing to thrust my dick into my hand, "I'm here baby, I'm here with you." I heard someone say, it's so quiet, yet so loud, and angelic. I love it so much, "Please keep talking...." I begged and started feeling it's hands going down my stomach, "I'll take care of it, I'll take care of you...."

The hand that I felt replaced my own, it started pumping me, the same shivers going up my spine.

I felt myself being pushed against the wall, the cold embrace disappeared but I felt it in front of me, I felt it's hands on me. I felt it pin my hands above my head, I felt it's lips on mine.

Then I felt the kisses lowering, I could still see nothing, but I felt it, and i just knew it was my Kookie. I grabbed my mouth trying to keep it shut when I felt a cold tongue flick against the head of my dick, I've never had a blowjob before and the feeling of it felt so good~

Oh wait, it's not real, I'm probably just imagining this, but god damn I hope this dream never stops.

"Ah-mm!" I moaned out and bit my lip to stop myself, it's really deep throating me right now.

I think it gagged too, I could feel it. And it felt incredible, I grabbed it's head and forced my whole dick down its throat, I heard it gag and felt it's hair entangle threw my fingers.

I grabbed a bunch of it's hair and kept it in place while I fucked it's mouth, I heard it gagging and moaning and grab onto my legs. Slowly I started to see it's raven black hair between my fingers, and even slower I started to see the rest of it slowly coming to reality.

My dick was in its mouth and it was crying, constantly gagging and choking, completely naked along with me.

I continued to fuck its mouth until I came down its throat, I pushed myself all the way in and watched the pained expression on its face. I pulled myself out and got on the floor with it, I rapped my arms around its neck and kissed it. Passionately.

I could still taste the cum I had just exploded into its mouth but it's okey, I don't care right now. I felt it rapping it's arms around my waist and kiss me back.

But soon after I started to see it, it disappeared, along with its voice and touch, but I could feel it in the room with me. I knew he was still here, and it scared me so much.

I crawled into the corner of the shower and cried my eyes out feeling it's eyes on me, I sobbed softly holding my knees close to my chest. And then nothing, it was gone just like that. I couldn't feel anything watching me, I got up closed the shower faucet and got out to dry my body.

I quickly put my clothing on and ran to my bedroom hoping to feel it again, but no, not even a shadow at the corner of my eye. Nothing. It left me. It's gone.

He's gone.