Five stages of hell

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I see galaxies in your eyes, but you won't ever find a single star in mine...

Not anymore...

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My head arched, as I could feel my heavy eyes slowly widening open, the ray of sunlight striking in it, immediately causing it to close back again, but I wished it never did, cause the nightmare came back, yet again.

His awful words kept on pounding to my skull over and over again, as every damn word he said kept on flushing back in.

"No it can be" My voice whispered out, but I knew it was so true and I have already lost the battle to him.

It whispered out, as I could feel my heavy eyes opening once again, as it kept on trying to adjust to the bright ray of sunlight, that shone bright on my scattered miserable room, as all I could do was let out a deep breath.

I tried lifting my legs up, but they were heavy too. They hurt, as well as my head and I immediately realize the damn problem I might have just fallen into, Again.

I tried again, lifting my legs up, only to see myself falling right on the tiled floor, as I let out a silent scream..

It hurts, You are miserable and you know it, but now, there was nothing you can do about this sad fact

My pathetic head whispers to me the useless fact, my head mocks me and still it was so true.

I laid helplessly on the floor, as my eyes slowly drifted to my dried hands, my bloody hands...

The blood was dried now, but the incident of last night was still so fresh, as it came hunting me once again, but now I refuse to act as miserable as I am, now I refuse to do so...

"No, I can't be weak anymore" I mumbled to myself as my eyes slowly drifted to my legs yet again. It was determined now and I knew I would make it.

I tried standing up again, with the last life I had in me and hopefully I eventually did.

My legs were still shaky, and my room was a complete mess. I was a complete mess, I stared at my pale reflection on the mirror, as it kept on telling me how miserable my life had just became...

My eyes were red and swollen, but all I could feel inside me was nothing less than boiling anger and pain...

"How could he" My head spin, as the damn tears kept on flowing down my cheeks, I was boiling, but my anger wasn't going to ever help me now.

Slowly I drifted away from my teary reflection, cause all it did was kept on crushing the last life in me more and more.

There was nothing left, my head spinned, as I dragged my lifeless legs into the shower, the cool water washing away all the blood, the cool water washing away all the tears.

"I need to be strong now, in order to let her live.

In order to save my aunt soul, I'd forget him, I'd forget everything. My head racked.

After all, nothing ever did happen, it was all infatuation, nothing else.

I whispered, as I kept on staring at my dull reflection through the mirror, I mumbled as the water flowed down my body.

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"CHARLIE'S P.O.V"

I opened my shaky eyes to see the next day, the next morning, as I tried looking at where I actually was, but still my vision were still blurry, as all I could think of was last night incident, as it came flushing through my head.

"I have to see her" I whispered to myself, as I could feel my hands slowly drifting up to my head, I touches it, it hurts.

I could see through the reflection it's been bandage, as what actually happened last night came pounding into my memory...

"Someone did this, They wanted to kill me" I mumbled as nothing less than anger came boiling through me, over and over again.

"How dare they" I uttered, but my anger remained to myself, I could do nothing about it, neither did I even know the goddamn fool

My blood kept on boiling, as I could feel my eyes drifting to its right, it widens, as it stares straight into his.

It was my dad and all he did was stood there, watching all my display of madness. His eyes flickered something...

It shows me his worry, I knew I should have expected something like this, but still my heart sank.

"HE" was worried.

Damn!, I don't want to ever see him in this state, ever. My head racked, as anger and pain came hitting me yet again.

I stared back into his eyes, he wanted an answer, he wanted an explanation, but I got nothing to say, why wouldn't I?....

What would I possibly say when I know nothing that happened...

"How did this happen" He creeped into my fears, as he finally voiced out, his green eyes staring deeply into mine, his green eyes that kept on reminding me of just one person, as my heart flushes regret for the hundredth time now...

"I need to see her" I mumbled yet again to myself, but he... he heard everything, as I watch the confusion on his face grow wider.

His eyes demanding for an answer, as I kept on wanting to lie, but no, what would I possibly lie about...

I thought, as I could feel my legs finally taking control by rising up, as my eyes slowly drifted to one of the domestic workers that just kept on standing there...

"What day is it" I asked, staring into her eyes, as I watch hers slowly tilting up with confusion all over her face, but still I needed my answer right now.

I stared madly into her eyes, as I watches it slowly drift away with fear, she would answer me now, this was what I wanted...

"It's a Tues...Tuesday sir" She stammered, as her eyes kept on staring in confusion, but I didn't darn care, not one bit, not at all...

Let her think of me as anything, let her think am mad, crazy, Anything!.I don't even fucking care at all.

I could feel my head racking as she said those words..."Tuesday", it was a Tuesday, a school day and obviously she was bound to be in school after all.

This was it, my chance to clear things up with her, and I swear I wouldn't miss this chance.

I thought, my legs hurried up to the door, as all my head did was keep on spinning over and over again.

I could feel my stressed fingers pulling the door handle, as I took a step forward, to just finally get out

"What's going on here" His voice called out again, as it kept on drawing me back.I don't want to stop, but my legs won't listen, as it slowly turned around, my eyes meeting his yet again.

My heart was spinning, but still I just had to do this...

"I have to go" I mumbled those four phrases out, as I tried opening the door once again, but still he just couldn't let me be...

"Where are you running off to now, am I the only one that can see you're hurt" His stressed voice echoed round the room, as I could feel my fist clenching with pain.

Damn!...

I don't want to leave him, neither do I want to lose her too, Never!.I got no other choice left and he just had to accept this.

I whispered to myself, as my head never did helped out, as it kept on arching, but still that wasn't going to ever stop me.

I let out a deep breath, as I slowly turned around, with my eyes drifting up to his yet again...

"If I don't go now, I'll regret this till I die" I whispered as my voice cracked at the end, only the thought of losing her made my head spin, it made me mad.

I looked into his eyes, as he tried covering it up, but I already knew he just couldn't understand anything I've been saying, still I had no time to explain, my time was running out...

"Am fine" I said, as I forced out a little smile, as my eyes glued to his.

It'll be a lie, if I said I didn't know that he wanted to say something, but now I really had to leave...

"Trust me on this one, when I say am fine" I uttered those lines out, as I stared into his eyes one last time, before immediately vanishing into thin air...

My head kept on doing it's own drama, it's kept on arching, but still I cared less, cause all I wanted was her, that was all I could ever think about..