70.1 Thoughts

How many times do I have to fvck up like this?

Sure, I've once said something in the terms of 'failure being just being more experience,' but if I'm not going to use those experiences to at least better myself, then was I even doing with my life? I mean, I acknowledge that me changing would require such a Herculean effort to the point that it would probably be better to just move on and ignore it, but I still couldn't believe that I was this monumentally stupid in terms of emotional control and illogical insanity.

"You okay, Brother?"

Waking up after almost succumbing to hyperthermia was an experience I thought I'd never go through again. But while the first one was caused entirely by accident, this was.... kind of deliberate now that I was thinking more clearly.

Some things never change....

"Y-yeah..."