The front door slamming woke me from my slumber. I glanced at the battery-powered clock on the bedside table, it was barely four in the morning. Izzy lay tucked into my chest, I'd spent a rough night getting her to sleep, barely having an hour for myself.
Pulling a dagger out of my space I crept out of the bed to see Lex pacing in the living room.
For three months, I'd managed without hearing a word from him, only the occasional visit from Noah to check in on us. However, he and Will were out on a mission right now, checking a factory up North.
His eyes met mine, then drifted down the dagger in my shaking hand.
"Explain this," he shoved a piece of paper in my face. I grasped it with my left hand, keeping the dagger firmly in my right.
It was a piece of paper with DNA results, showing a 99.99% match.
"What?" I asked in hushed a voice, scared to wake Izzy, who I'd left lying in the middle of the bed with a pillow on either side. The little shit had mastered crawling rather quickly and liked to roll around in her sleep. Especially turning upside down whilst asleep and attached to the breast. I really needed to get myself some bed guards.
"Did you do it?" He asked pulling the paper back to look at it again before tossing it onto the kitchen counter.
"No, why would I?" I walked toward the counter to take another look. "What even is it?"
"DNA test between Izzy and Noah," he grumbled, then began to pace again. "First he stops me from coming here, threatening me, then I find this with a letter on my bed."
I almost dropped the blade.
"W-who… why?" I frowned, my lip sore from my nervously biting it too hard.
"That's what I'd like to know."
I just wished he would stop pacing, it made me nervous.
"But you said you altered it?" I almost ripped the paper as I snatched it up to take a closer look, "where's the letter?"
He paused, "don't ask."
"Why did you come here Lex, the sun isn't even up," I grumbled, placing it back down, trying to think straight despite the air being sucked from my lungs.
"Why shouldn't I? What happened Luna? What did I do wrong?" Tears were in his eyes as he approached me.
I unconsciously stepped back, the dagger twitching in my hand, reminding me of how easily I'd murdered him once before. Could I do it again? He'll just be born in another body, far, far away from me anyway so long he wasn't as powerful as Lixin.
"W-why are you so scared of me Luna?" His tone and facial expressions were both twisted, almost pathetic. Pity and guilt came despite my trying my best to remain firm, and strong, what Izzy needed.
This was all an act, he was putting on an act to get his own way. I couldn't let him sway me.
I had no words to tell him other than the truth, but could he handle that? Could I?
Regardless, it would at least hopefully make him stop this pathetic act.
"Katsuki," the name spilled out in a meek, quiet tone.
"Excuse me?" He paused, his eyes never leaving the dagger. I guess he had every right to be wary. But then, he had done something unforgivable.
"I remember being Katsuki," as I finished speaking my legs almost caved as a heavy sigh escaped my lips.
"No," Lex trembled, weakly leaning against the counter, "no."
No indeed. I didn't blame him for his reaction in the slightest.
"So please leave Lex," I pleaded, not wanting things to escalate.
"No." He pushed himself up to stand firm, "Luna, you need to underst-"
"Just get out," my voice raised by accident with my frustrations. I bit my lip, listening in the awkward silence for the sound of Izzy waking.
"Is it because you love him because he gave you this child?" Lex's tone, "I'm losing you all over again."
"Who?" The wall hit my back, making me realise I'd been creating distance unconsciously.
"Who else," he bitterly spat, then uncaring for the dagger in my hand he made up the distance between us, grabbing the blade with his bare palm.
"I love Izzy, I just love Izzy," I wept, scared one of us would do something irreversible if this continued.
"No, you love me," he pulled the dagger from my hand and threw it aside, then cupped my face with a bloodied hand, "you love me, you're my Luna."
"Do you even know what love is?" I felt like an agitated prey, cornered, ready to finally bite back.
"I knew it the moment my father brought you home."
Before I could process his words his lips enveloped mine in a possessive kiss, and his hands grabbed at my wrists, pinning them against the wall with a strength I hadn't realised he possessed.
"Stop, Lex, this, you're not in the right state of mind right now," I gasped when he finally pulled away.
Instead of replying he just bitterly laughed in my face.
"I'm not in the right state of mind?" he eventually asked.
"You'll regret this if you continue," I spoke through a clenched jaw.
"Regret…" there was a glint in his eye, one I'd seen before in Noah's eyes when I'd first talked about Izzy. One filled with pain, longing, anger, fear, and most of all regret.
It was too late for regret now. Nothing he could do would bring my child back. Nothing.
"Just go... Sleep on it," I suggested, hoping he'd just disappear.
"Sleep on it," his tone didn't sound any better than before, in fact, he seemed crazed.
"What did he say?" His question came out in an almost growl.
"Who?" Why was he so angry? What had I done? He was the one who had betrayed me and Master. So I killed him? A life for a life, at least he was immortal.
"Noah, what did that fucker say to you to make you hate me like this? Why do you still blame me? Why don't you believe me? I didn't do it…"
I blinked up at him, trying to make sense of his crazed rant.
"But you did Lex, I saw-"
He pushed away from the wall, clenched fist, practically vibrating with rage.
"I think that's enough," Nyx's cold voice came from the bedroom doorway. I would never get used to the way she would appear out of the shadows whenever I was at my wit's end caring for Izzy alone in the dead of night.
Lex threw a throwing knife in her direction, which she caught between two fingers.
"Of course, he left one of his lackeys," he scoffed.
"He has a right to protect the young miss as her father," Nyx glowered, her eyes glowing a faint inhuman red.
"Sure, sure," Lex turned back to me, "you better now regret this," then walked out the front door with a bang. Afterward, Izzy's cry came out of the bedroom.
"I'll see to her," Nyx replied, turning back into the room, leaving me to slump down to the floor, my heart thumping painfully in my chest.