Blame and Regret

A few seconds after and during the conflict, Allan's thoughts traveled to an extreme place, laden with guilt, fear, and disappointment. Deep in his thoughts, he lost control of many bodily functions, his anxiety soaring to a panic attack, eating away at his clarity.

The fight before him made the world feel like it was pressing on his chest, making breathing impossible. 

That incapability led to spiraling thoughts.

Luckily, the worst outcome had not happened. 

Kieran and his entourage remained relatively fine without suffering extensive, intensive, or career-damaging injuries.

"It's going to be okay. It's going to be okay. It's my fault… but it'll be okay. This is just a minor hiccup."

Allan repeated this himself in a distraught state. He blamed himself for his lack of confirmation. He should have investigated the interview in thorough detail, ensuring that the content and guests were to his liking and without conflict.