Realisation 61

Lucien went missing as usual. I knew this fight has brought further division between us. We were the worst pair in the world. We would have been happy by being enemies. Why did we become friends and fall in love? It was impossible to be together, we were poles apart not to mention the bad blood between us. I didn't sleep well last night. I saw my mom and Igor again in the dream. He was hurting my mom and I was doing nothing. It kills me every time I have this dream. My head goes crazy and all I could think of was to rush into his room and end his life.