Chapter 36

“Jim, I couldn’t sleep in the same bed with anyone. If someone woke me in the night…Hell, I almost killed Jack in college. Because I was drunk out of my mind, I told him. He just shrugged it off, made like it never happened. That was the reaction I wanted…I wanted it to disappear as if it had never happened. Whenever I was in danger of getting too close to someone, I would find an excuse to call Jack. I didn’t want anyone else to share my shame. Jack knew and didn’t care. If I told Bear, he’d have half of Trenton in jail and the other half on trial. If I told someone I cared about, I was afraid I’d lose them. So in the end, I told no one and pushed everyone further and further away.”