Han Sofia POV,
"Sofia ssi let's have dinner", said Haewon
"Ye, oenni. Where are Juyoung oppa and Youra oenni? Aren't they coming to eat with us?", I asked while looking around the waiting room
"They already eat. Kajja", she said again, giving me a lunch box
"Kamsahamnida", I replied receiving the lunch box
We are at the Golden Disk Awards Day 2 in the city of Ilsan. And now the event is on going, so the staff and stylists who helping the artists can rest.
Haewon and I sat in an open space outside the Korea International Exhibition Center, where the awards ceremony was being held tonight. The atmosphere here is very crowded, many visitors and staff are passing by or sitting around resting like us.
"Eat slowly, BTS will perform at the end of the show so we still have time", said Haewon smiling at me
"Ye, oenni", I replied with a smile and opened my lunch box
"Will your husband come to pick you up later, Sofia ssi?", Asked Haewon while chewing her food
"Huh? Ani. I'll go home alone later", I replied, shaking my head
"Jinjja? We will definitely come home past midnight like last New Year's event. Are you okay?", She asked again, frowning
"Ye, gwaenchana. I drove myself ", I assured her
"Is your husband so busy?", She asked curiously
"Umm yes. He's very busy, besides I don't want to bother him. He's tired enough of working all day at the office", I replied, staring at my lunchbox, feeling bad because I had to lie
"Arasso .... uh, you know Sofia? Juyoung's wife is pregnant ?!", Haewon said excitedly
"Wow, jinjja?", I replied excitedly, feeling relieved that Haewon finally changed the subject
We continued eating while exchanging stories about various things for 10 minutes, until finally we returned to the building and waited for BTS to prepare to perform.
Actually, BTS has pre-recorded the song Fake Love for tonight's show. And they will only perform Idol song live at the end of the event.
However, before today's event started, all staff and stylists were shocked by Suga, because he said his right leg hurt because he didn't warm up during the rehearsal this afternoon. We asked him not to perform today, but he said that he would be fine.
Due to his leg injury, V had to carry him when he entered the opening stage of the show. Even though they looked like they were joking and made ARMY and the audience who were present laugh at their behavior, the staff and stylists backstage were very worried about his situation.
He was seen several times grimacing while massaging his right leg. I'm worried, of course. I had ask, is he sure to continue the show? Because he and the members will perform Idol, which has a pretty difficult choreography and jumps a lot. We don't want him to have a more serious injury. But he still assured us that he was all right.
"Sofia ssi, do you have a passport? I want you to bring it tomorrow", said Kim Raim suddenly
"Huh? What for, oenni?", I asked leaning my body towards her
"We will go to Japan on 10th January. BTS will continue the 'Love Yourself' concert in several countries. Earlier, Gyejang-nim said that you will help the fashion team during the concert", she said while looking at me seriously
"Jinjja?", I asked, surprised
"Ye", she replied smiling to see me surprised
"Wow! Daebak!", I said, widened my eyes
"So tomorrow I need your passport to book tickets and take care of other trips," she said again
"Ye, oenni. I'll bring it tomorrow", I said excitedly
"Yeay, I'm so glad you will join the core team!", Youra said smiling at me when Kim Raim left me
"This job is going to be tiring, Sofia. But we will have time to take a walk in each country they visit later", added Juyoung
"Ye, it would be fun. We will visit Nagoya, then Singapore, and America to attend the Grammy! Waah it will be very exciting !! Then come back to Japan and Korea," Youra said while counting the countries we will visit with her fingers
"America? Jinjja ??", I asked, raising my eyebrows, amazed
"Ye", replied Haewon smiling at me
"Woaaahh daebak ya !!", I said could not hide my happy feelings
We laughed and they told me about the countries they had visited while being BTS's fashion stylists. They told me funny stories while visiting these countries.
I really like my team, they are very kind, funny, friendly, and want to help me when I have a hard time. I feel really lucky to be working with them.
"Yorobun, get ready! They will change clothes!", Shouted Kang Yeri when entering the waiting room
"Ye, Gyejang-nim", answered all the stylists in the room in unison
Then we stand up and prepare the items needed. I removed the plastic covers from the clothes they were going to wear. Tonight they will wear Christian Dior designs. Very famous and expensive brand of course.
"Are the dancers' clothes ready?", Raim asked us
"They've changed clothes since the middle of the event," I replied
"That's great, we only need to focus on the members, then", said Raim
Shortly after Raim said this, one by one the members entered the waiting room. They immediately sat in front of the mirror before then the make-up artists and hair-stylists surrounded them.
I was helping Jin put on his suit when the members started chatting and made sure that Suga was okay.
"Hyung, are you sure you're okay?", Asked Jungkook, who had just changed his shirt
"Ye. I'm fine. I can do this. ARMY has been waiting for our performances", replied Yoongi while looking at himself in the mirror
"Don't overdo your dancing hyung, just relax ..", said RM who was beside me
"Ye. I will try my hardest, I don't want to disappoint you. I know that I can, so please support me," said Yoongi, smiling at the members
For whatever reason, I couldn't breathe, like a balloon covering my whole face. Then a vague memory appeared in my head.
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"Ahjussi (uncle), have you seen the latest Epik High music video?", Asked the little boy with pale skin who sat beside me
"Fly ??", asked a handsome man in his early 40s who I know as my father
"Ye. What do you think, ahjussi? I really want to be a rapper like them, they are so cool", replied the pale skinned boy excitedly
"Of course they are amazing. No matter what kind of music you did, if you did it seriously you will succeed", my father replied smiling kindly at little Yoongi
"Jinjja? To be honest I really like playing the piano, but it seems like being a rapper is really cool, right, Sobi?", Asked Yoongi looking at me
"Ye. I will support you whatever your dreams, oppa", I replied
"And you, what is your dream, Sofia?", My father asked, giving me a warm look
"I only have one dream, I want to be Yoongi oppa's bride," I answered firmly
"Woah jinjja?", Said my father chuckled
"Ye!", I replied loudly
"Sobi, you must have another dream, so that I can support you too", replied Yoongi with a flushed face
"Why can't you support me if my dream is to be your bride, oppa?", I asked, confused
"Ani. It's not like that, it's just that it's too umm too ...", he replied nervously
"Gwaenchana ... Yoongi~aah, Sofia~aah, whatever your dreams are, you can definitely make it happen if you are sincere and work hard. Nothing is impossible in this world ...", said my father wisely
"Ye, ahjussi. I will try my best, I don't want to disappoint you. I know that I can, so please support me," Yoongi said excitedly looking at us
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"Sofia? Sofia ssi are you okay ??", asked Jin anxiously
I closed my eyes while trying to breathe. It hurts so much, why is this happening again ?, I thought. I took a few unsteady steps until I almost fell. I saw the members and stylist staff looking at me in shock.
I was holding on to a table and accidentally knocked a coffee cup down to the floor.
"Andwe!", Yelled Youra, widened her eyes staring at the floor
I forced myself to breathe and straightened myself up. I grit my teeth feeling the pain in my head.
"Sofia ssi, are you sick?", Asked Jimin, came over to me
I can not answer it, I just shook my head at him while panting. I saw Yoongi standing still, widened his eyes at me.
"Sit down, Sofia, come sit down", Juyoung came over to me and carried me to a chair in front of one of the mirrors
"Omo! How about this, his shoes are wet ...", I heard Haewon's worried voice
I saw the reflection of Haewon's face in the mirror, she looked panicked as she lifted a pair of shoes that the members would wear. Jeez! Looks like I've messed up, I thought.
"Drink this", said Juyoung giving a bottle of mineral water to me
I muttered 'thanks' to him.
"Whose shoes are wet?", Asked Raim to Haewon
"Suga, Suga's shoes are wet with coffee", Haewon replied in horror
I drank the water given by Juyoung and tried to control my breath. Then I stood up and hobbled over to those who were huddled by the spilled coffee.
"Mianhae, jinjja mianhae, I accidentally spilled it", I said breathlessly as I grabbed my hair, trying to get rid of the pain in my head
"Sofia, what's wrong? Are you sick ??", Raim asked, looking at me
"I, uumm suddenly my head hurts, oenni. Please forgive me", I said trying to bow down but almost fell again
"Never mind! I'll wear other shoes. You should stay at home if you feel sick. You just bothered us!", Said Yoongi rudely
"Hyung, there's no need to say that," said RM to Yoongi
"Maybe Sofia is tired, you should rest for a while," said V, looking at me worriedly
"We are all tired right now, not only her who needs rest," said Yoongi sharply
"Yoongi~aah ...", Jin scolded Yoongi as he put his hands on his hip
"I'm sorry, please forgive me. I'll prepare another shoe for Suga ssi", I said still to the members
"Are you sure you're okay?", Asked V
"Ye. I .. I'm fine now. I'm sorry. I'll bring the shoes right away", I said, then walked out of the waiting room and headed for the car park where our staff car was located
"Shit!", I cursed
I walked quickly while gripping my hair, the pain in my head still didn't go away, even though my breath had returned to normal. I ran into a toilet on my way to the car park. I can't stand it, it hurts so much.
I rushed into an empty bathroom cubicle and vomited my dinner down the toilet. After I empty my stomach, I feel much better. I immediately washed my mouth and continued walking back towards the parking lot.
Luckily we always carry spare shoes with us at every event. I asked a staff in the car to open the car trunk for me, then I was busy looking for a shoe with Yoongi's size.
"Damn!", I said frustratedly
We don't carry formal shoes (leather shoes) at this time, only sneakers with lots of laces in the car.
"Sofia ssi, do you need help?", Came Youra's voice behind me
"Oenni, ottoke? No formal shoes here", I said almost crying
"Jinjja?", Youra said, checking the shoe boxes piled up behind the car
"Gwaencahana, they can wear these, it's okay. Take two, we can ask the other members to wear them too, so it doesn't look too different", Youra replied while taking out a black and white Off-White sneakers
"Is that okay?", I asked doubtfully
"Ye. Palli, take one more pair. Hurry up, we don't have time", Youra said hastily
I grabbed a shoe box and muttered 'kamsahamnida' to the staff. Then run after Bae Youra into the waiting room.
During the run I always cursed myself. I'm so stupid that I could be careless like this. When we entered the waiting room, Youra and I were both gasping for breath.
"Here. Just wear this. We brought two pairs, so I think another member can wear this too so that Suga doesn't look too different," Youra said showing the shoes she had brought
"Let me wear it, noona. Gomawo", said Jhope walking over to us and taking a pair of shoes from Youra's hand
I walked quickly over to Suga in the corner and bowed to him.
"Come on, hurry up, it will start soon", Yeri's voice shouted at us
The stylists immediately did a final check on the members, making sure their clothes, accessories, make-up, and hair were perfect.
"These are your shoes, Suga ssi," I said on my knees in front of him, trying to help him wear the shoes
"Ani. I can wear it myself. Stand up! People will think something weird happen if they see your pose now", he said, grabbing the shoe from my hand
"I'm sorry," I said, a feeling of tightness in my chest as he was this cold and rude to me
I got up and walked over to Jhope who was already wearing his shoes.
"I'm sorry Jhope ssi, you have to wear different shoes because of me", I said in trembling voice
"Gwaenchana. It's not a big deal. Are you feeling better?", He asked kindly
"Ye. I'm better. Gomawo", I said
"Thank goodness", replied Jhope smiling at me
"Yorobun, 3 minutes left. Let's hurry", a production staff voice called out to the members to get ready
"Ye, let's get together", said RM
After all the members gathered and formed a circle, they put their hands together and he shouted, "Bangtan Bangtan!".
"Bang Bangtan!", Answered all the members in unison
Then they came out of the waiting room to go on stage. I stood in the corner of the room staring at the shoes soaked with coffee. If I had been more careful, this would not have happened. But why does my memory always appear suddenly and always hurts, I thought.
"Sofia ssi, I want to talk to you", Kang Yeri came over to me
"Ye, Gyejang-nim," I answered hoarsely
I'll be scolded for sure, I thought resignedly. And it's true that for 15 minutes, Kang Yeri lectured me to be more careful, to make sure that if I feel unwell, I shouldn't push myself, and so on. As long as she scolded me, I just lowered my head and only answered as needed.
"I like you, Sofia, me and your team are very satisfied with your work. But did you know? Earlier Suga was very angry with you. He even asked me to get you out of the team, he objected if you had to join the core team at the concert later", said Yeri sighing heavily
"Jinjja?", I asked, startled by what I just heard
"Ye. But I said that I was the one who decided everything related to my team, I don't like it when other people intervene", said Yeri again
"So, will I get fired, Gyejang-nim?", I asked nervously
She looked at me for a long time, considering what to say.
"No. Not for now. I can still tolerate what you did earlier, because you look like you did it accidentally. But! ... but if you make another mistake and the members or my team members feel unhappy about it, I have no choice other than stopping your apprenticeship program. Arasso? ", she said seriously
"Ye, Gyejang-nim. I understand, thank you for your kindness", I replied while bowing to her
"Are you sure you're okay, Sofia ssi? You looked so sick earlier ... I thought you had asthma or a heart attack ...", she said, her face become worried
"Ani. Gwanchana. My head hurt a lot earlier, but I'm fine now. Thank you for worrying about me, Gyejang-nim. I promise it won't happen again," I replied with a smile at her
When I returned to my seat among the other fashion-stylists, I felt very relieved. My team members immediately cheered me on and said that they were ready to help me if I felt unwell. I felt very grateful, to have a team that really cares.
But then my mind diverted to other things, why did my memory return at a time like this? And this time I can remember my father's face, I really miss him. We are really close, I never thought that Yoongi could casually discussing about something with my father. And his dream since childhood wanted to be a rapper ... I smiled at those memories again.
But wait! Why is my dream so shallow? How could being Yoongi's bride be a dream? I shook my head while grimacing. I was a kid back then, I didn't understand about such ridiculous things.
Then I walked to the coffee spills that were still inundated on the floor and cleaned them with a tissue. Then I took Dior's leather shoes soaked in coffee, I smelled them ... oh my God, these expensive shoes now smell like starbucks.
I put the wet shoes in a shoebox, then wrote a 'must be washed' on a piece of sticky note and attached it to the box. It's amazing, the night is not over yet but my work for tomorrow is waiting, I thought.
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Stay safe and stay gold yorobun,
Borahae 💜💜💜