Chapter 8

STARING AT THE SUN

CHAPTER 8

BELLA P.O.V

Graduation was upon us. It felt weird having both of my parents standing in my house taking pictures. Billy and Jacob were also here. My mom loved seeing Jacob again and was glad to hear that we were still together.

"Are we ready?" Dad asked. I nodded as I grabbed my cap and gown and we headed to the school. Mom and Phil rode in a rental car behind Charlie's cruiser. I held Jacob's warm hand as we walked into the school. Our course the weather didn't hold out so we could have it outside. Not that I minded.

"I'll see you after." He leaned down to kiss my cheek before meeting back up with our parents. I walked to where the students were lining up and got in my spot. Graduation felt like any other day. What it really felt like, was one day closer to college. One day closer to leaving Forks. One day closer to leaving Jacob behind.

Walking across the stage felt like a relief. Of course I could hear Charlie and Jacob screaming over everyone else as my name was called. And when everyone was finally back in their seats, we stood, moved our tassel, and threw our caps up.

I hugged Jessica and Angela before Jacob came up and lifted me into his arms. I giggled wrapping mine around him and kissed him.

"Congratulations, Honey." He held me tight. I could hear my parents talking behind us but all I could see was his face smiling at me.

Eventually he put me down and we all took tons of pictures. Me and dad. Me and mom. Me, mom and Phil. Me, Jacob, and Billy. Me and Jake. Then eventually my friends made their way over so we could all take pictures with our parents snapping pictures.

We would be heading to the diner after this but then there was going to be a party down on the beach that I invited my friends to.

"We'll see you later right?" Angela asked from Ben's arms.

"Yes." I smiled at her. "I'm going out to dinner and then I'll be there." I answered as Jacob came over and slid his arm around my waist, pulling me against his chest and kissing my head.

"Okay, we'll see you." She smiled waving as they walked away. Dad was admiring my diploma when we walked over to them.

"I'm starving." I commented to him. Phil and my mom were standing behind him, Billy was beside dad waiting for the word on when we were going to eat. "To the diner?" I asked.

"Of course." He answered. "Proud of you, Bells." He smiled giving me a hug.

"Thanks, Dad." I smiled, heading to the cars. We decided to ride to the diner with my mom and Phil since they didn't know where they were going. Charlie followed behind us with Billy. Jacob held the door of the diner open for all of us. We had made reservations last week so our table was all ready for us with another table pushed up against it so we could all fit.

I sat in the corner like I always did with Jacob beside me. Dad sat next to me on my right, then it was Billy across from me. Mom sat across from Jacob and Phil sat on the end across from dad.

"Don't be upset, but I have a surprise for you." Dad said grinning at me. I internally groaned. We agreed on no surprises. Of course I kinda knew that none of them would listen to what I said. "But it's not until after dinner."

"Oh great." So I got to worry all through dinner. We all ordered our food before mom spoke up.

"Do you have plans for anything tonight?" She asked.

"We're going to down to La Push beach to have a bon fire with the pa- Jake's friends." Jacob's hand landed on my thigh under the table. I looked over at him and gave him an 'I'm sorry' face. He just smiled.

"That'll be fun." She commented. "When will you be home?"

"Probably not until tomorrow." I answered playing with my straw looking over at dad. We had no plans to be home tonight at all. "So don't wait up for me." I said to him.

"I won't." He chuckled. Our food was brought over and thankfully the conversation shifted to when my parents used to come here with Billy and Jake's mom, Sarah.

"I'm sorry." I whispered leaning into Jake.

"Not a big deal." He smiled kissing the side of my forehead. "I would have just said that's what we call our friend group." He shrugged.

"Our?"

"They have taken a liking to you. So yes, our." I smiled. It had always been difficult for me to make friends, moving here I was nervous that I would always be the 'new girl' but they accepted me and it was actually really easy to make friends. I was glad I had made as many friends as I have.

Cora came and took away our plates but no one moved. Then she walked over with a two tier cake. It was decorated with purple flowers and said 'Congrats Bella!' on the top. I smiled as she set it in front of me.

"Happy graduation." She smiled.

"Thank you." I smiled. Before we ate it, mom wanted pictures.

"Get in closer, Jake." She said motioning him with her hand. He set it arm around the back of my chair and leaned into me. I rested my hand on his chest and smiled for the picture. "Cute." Mom smiled. Before I could into the cake, Jake handed me a small blue box wrapped in a red bow.

"For you." He smiled.

"I said no gifts." I looked at him.

"I didn't buy it. Just say thank you." He rolled his eyes. I quickly tore off the bow and opened the box. Inside sat a delicate silver bracelet with a carved brown wolf pendent.

"Oh. It's so pretty." I smiled handing it to him to put around my wrist. "I love it." I admired it between my fingers as he put it on. "You made this?"

"Hand carved the wood myself." I smiled leaning into him.

"I love it. Thank you." I quickly kissed him before turning back to the table holding his hand. I couldn't imagine loving him anymore than I did at this moment. Then of course, I felt awkward just staring at him. "Can we eat it now?" I asked.

"Go ahead." Dad answered handing me a knife trying to act like his daughter didn't just kiss her boyfriend at the table. I cut everyone a piece giving Jake the biggest.

"I'm starting to think you're her favorite, Jacob." Phil commented looking at his piece compared to Jake. I blushed looking down while Jake laughed his loud laugh and threw his head back.

"Can only imagine why." Mom added to his comment.

"Oh my god. Please be quiet." I groaned hiding my face in Jake's arm. I could tell that Charlie was just as embarrassed as me about the comments. Of course that wasn't something he ever wanted to think his daughter was doing. My mother was always open about it.

The laughter around the table didn't make my red cheeks go away. Instead, Jacob wrapped his arms around me to hide my face from everyone.

"It's natural!" Mom defended making me grip Jacob's shirt tighter.

"Renee. We are in public." Charlie said trying to get the group to calm down. He got just as embarrassed as I did about these things. Of course they knew that we weren't going to wait until marriage, but we didn't need to discuss it in public, in front of my father.

"We're just teasing, Charlie." She shook her head. Thankfully Cora set down the check and dad quickly scooped it up and jokingly handed it to me. I shook my head before he slipped his card into it and handed it back to Cora. I was able to sneak out of my seat and head outside with Jacob behind me while Renee, Charlie, Phil and Billy were all talking to some of the other parents of graduates.

"You okay?" Jake asked keeping his distance behind me.

"I'm fine." I smiled over my shoulder at him. "Are you okay?" I asked moving closer to him. He nodded opening his arms for me and I gladly went into them wrapping my arms around his back and resting my chin on his chest looking up at him.

"How come you get so embarrassed about it?"

"My dad was sitting right there." I whined. "It's different when it's you and me." I added.

"It's not a big deal." He answered holding me tighter. We were outside for what felt like an hour before our parents came out. The sun was just setting behind the clouds so we stood and watched before dad clapped his hands and helped Billy into the car.

"You be safe tonight. We're heading back to the hotel. Billy kindly invited us to dinner at his place tomorrow so we'll see you there." Mom commented, hugging me. "I'm proud of you, Honey." She smiled. "You'll do great things." She held me tight before letting me go.

"Thank you." I smiled, hugging Phil and then getting into the car. When we got back to our house, I quickly changed into jeans, a t-shirt, and put a sweatshirt on over that. I then met with Jacob and Billy in his car and we drove Billy home. We went into the house to make sure that Billy was okay, I also started a load of laundry for Jacob. He always hated when I did it because he claims he can do it himself yet he never does.

"Ready?" He asked once Billy was all set in front of the t.v.

"Yeah." I smiled grabbing his hand. We didn't bother taking the car. If there as an emergency he would just phase and run us back. No matter how much I hated the speed. When we walked around the corner, I could already see the fire blazing above everyone's head. Sam of course was standing as close as he could to it to make sure that no one got too close. As we got closer I saw Mike's car and was able to easily point them out among the group of people. Of course the whole pack was here. A few other kids from school must have heard about the party and also made their way over.

"Hey, Bella!" Jessica waved. I smiled going over to the group.

"Hey guys." I smiled. Jacob stuck close behind me but was talking with Embry and Quil.

"Are you staying at Jacob's tonight?" Jessica asked. Since I told her that we often slept at each other's houses she's been obsessed with knowing what was going on at every second that we were together.

"I am." I answered.

"Is tonight the night?" She asked. She had been very open about sex. I wasn't as much. As much as I wanted it, I wanted to try to keep it between just Jacob and myself.

"I'm not sure." I answered. Thankfully she got distracted and I was able to find my way over to Jake and his friend group. I wrapped my arms around his waist as he wrapped his around my shoulder.

"Hi." He smiled looking down at me. The fire was lighting up his face and he looked so beautiful.

"Hi." I smiled yawning. It had been a very long day. I knew that this party was most likely going to last all night but there was no way I was going to be able to stay all night.

"We can get going soon." He smiled. He was enjoying his time just being a teenager. Not having to worry about the pack or a vampire coming to kill me. Speaking of, I still had no idea how they caught and killed Victoria. I wasn't sure I wanted to know. I was just glad that they all made it out alive.

For the rest of our time at the party, I stuck by his side. Around midnight we finally said our byes to our friends and headed to his house. He held me close to him as we walked home.

"So, what does the future hold Miss. Swan?" He asked making me giggle.

"At this very minute, college." I answered.

"And what about me?" He asked. "Do you see me in your future?" He stop walking waiting for my answer. I could tell in his eyes that he was terrified of what the future held. Of course I was scared to go off to college. I wanted nothing more than to stay here in his arms but that wasn't possible. I wanted this more than anything and as much as I wanted to stay with him, I knew he would never let me. He wanted me to go and do it just as much.

"Honey, you are it." At this moment in time I didn't see myself with anyone but him. And if I had any type of future being a wife, I hope it was his. He was standing a few steps away from me but he took two steps and lifted me into his arms. He kissed me as he walked. I wrapped my arms and my legs around him holding him to me as we kissed. I could hear him open the front door. He closed it with his foot before walking through the house. The floorboards creaked under us as he closed his bedroom door and set me on the bed.

He kicked his shoes off before pulling his shirt over his head and locking the door. I had no time to panic about this. Of course I'm sure we both had the same intention but any other time I'm sure I would be panicking but this was happening right now.

He laid in bed pulling me into him and kissing me. When I pulled back to breathe, he moved his lips to my neck sucking a mark into the skin making me moan. I was able to pull my shirt up and expose my bra but he was far too worried about leaving his mark on my neck. When he finally pulled back. I was able to pull my shirt off over my head and throw it into the pile of growing clothes on the floor.

"You're so beautiful." He whispered kissing me once more. I laid down letting my hair lay on the pillow while he hovered over me. "Are you sure you're ready for this?" He asked looking down at my chest.

"I'm positive." I smiled playing with the hair at his neck. "Please." I whispered undoing the button on my jeans. His hands grabbed mine stopping me.

"I wanna do that part." I giggled as he kissed my chest, kneading my boobs in his hands. The warmth of his hands calmed me as he unclipped the back and threw it to the side with our shirts. His thumb and pointer finger on his each hand rolled my nipple sending a wave of pleasure to my core. I whimpered which spurred him on. He got up the courage to suck on one as his hand played with the other. I arch my back into him trying to get some type of friction where I wanted it most.

"Jake." I half moaned half hissed at him. "Please do something." I whined. My body was tingling but I knew he was going to draw out this process, not wanting it to be done so quickly. He ground his lower body into mine making me feel all of him. I moaned pulling his face up to mine to kiss him before fumbling with the button on his jeans. I got them down just enough that I could see how hard he was through his boxers. When I became silent he tilted my chin up to look at me. He pecked me once.

"If at any point you're uncomfortable, we'll stop." I nodded not trusting my voice at this minute. He looped his finger's into my jeans and pulled them down. My panties matched the bra that I was wearing. He admired them for half a second before kissing down my body. He laid between my legs, kissing my hips and massaging my thighs. With his face so close to the area i wanted him most, I got insecure. My body was flushed and I was having a hard time evening out my breathing. "Relax. It's okay. It's just me." His voice was calming but on the inside, I was freaking out. He massaged my hips as he kissed my thighs. I kept my eyes closed not trusting to look at him. I felt him press his face into my core making my breathing pick up.

I gripped my sheets in my hands before one of his hands reached up to hold mine.

"Are you okay?" He asked moving slightly away from me so he could see my face. I nodded smiling at him. I knew I wanted him. Now that we were actually here, there was no way I was going to stop him. From where I was laying, I could see the moon. It looked beautiful and distracted me just enough for him to pull my panties down my legs and lay between my legs again holding them apart. He had his shoulder's pressed to my thighs, keeping them open and his hands wrapped under them, holding my hips rubbing slow, loving circles into my hips. It helped keep me calm when his tongue licked up my slit and circled around my clit.

I gripped his hair and pulling making him moans.

"Sorry." I whispered, completely flushed. I gently played with his hair as he sucked hard on my clit. I covered my mouth with my other hand not trusting that I would be able to stay quiet. "Jake." I whispered moaned. He then started fingering me with at first one finger and once I was slick enough he added another finger. The pleasure he was giving me helped me calm down. Enough that I didn't realize how loud I was actually being and he had to stop and tell me to stay quiet.

"Love, as much as I love the noises you're making, my dad will be knocking at the door." I giggled as he grinned at me.

"It just feels really nice." Which then got me wondering where he learned that from. I thought most teenager's were pretty awkward when it came to sex. He stood looking at me still half dressed. I sat up a little and closed my legs to not give him a full frontal. He chuckled as he took his jeans the rest of the way off and took his boxer's off. I crawled over to him as he watched. He reached for my hand once I was on my knees. I grabbed him in my hand and slowly pumped watching his face.

He kept his eyes closed and his hands by his side as I got closer to him. I had no idea what I was doing but anytime he moaned my name or gasped, I did it again. He grabbed my hand and stopped me. He pushed me gently back against the mattress, and leaning to grab a condom from a box that he had hidden next to the bed. I was laying, leg's spread on either side of his hips, waiting for him. I watched him rip open the condom and put it on. He moved the blanket to cover him from behind. He slowly thrust into me. I winced which made him stop.

"It's okay." I reassured him, kissing him. "It's going to hurt. It's okay." I whispered. It didn't so much as hurt as it felt uncomfortable. Once he was all the way in, there was no pain at all. From what I had heard and read about wasn't it suppose to hurt? Still, he stayed still until I felt adjusted. I adjusted my hips making him groan. "You can move." I whispered nearly out of breath. He pulled out nearly all the way before slowly thrusting back into me. His body was covering my body nearly completely. I felt him all around me.

As he got more comfortable, he found a rhythm. Each time he thrust into me, I moaned out. He was holding my hips down with one hand and the other was rubbing my clit. I would never be able to get enough of him. I had never been so in love with him.

"I love you." I whispered watching his face. His eyes were closed but he slowly opened them looking at me.

"I love you." He kept his pace as he kissed me. I kept my hands wrapped around his neck and pulling on his hair every so often. His eyes seemed to roll into the back of his head every time I did it. "You feel so amazing." He whispered into my neck.

"Jacob." I moaned loud. I couldn't get any other words out as I orgasmed. I clenched around him, lifting my hips and arching my back into him. He groaned and held me down as he thrusted into me a few more times before he moaned just as loud as I did. His thrusts became sloppy before he pulled out. It took him a few seconds to move. He quickly took off the condom, tied it, and threw it in the trash. I was nearly asleep when he got into bed beside me and pulled me into him. "I love you." I mumbled closing my eyes.

"I love you." He whispered before I slipped off into sleep.

I didn't wake up until I felt Jacob shift. I slowly opened my eyes and came face to face with his face. I giggled before kissing his lips.

"Good morning." He mumbled in his morning voice. I had heard it plenty of times but this time was different.

"Good morning." The sun was already high in the sky. We had no plans for today but I'm sure Billy was going to be checking in on us pretty soon to make sure we were still alive. He rolled on top of me and kissed me. I giggled as he ground into me, pressing his morning wood into me. I moaned out before there was a knock on the door. We both stopped and waited. I was then thankful that Jacob had locked the door.

"Jacob?" Billy called from the other side. He didn't move as I covered my mouth to keep from laughing.

"Yeah?" He asked not moving a muscle.

"Charlie is on his way over." I quickly shoved him off of me and grabbed my clothes. He laid in bed watching me quickly get dressed. He laid, naked, with his hands behind his head watching me.

"Get dressed." I hissed throwing a pair of shorts at him. He laughed and slipped them on before I swung the door opened. I quickly put my hair up trying to make it seem like we didn't just have sex a few hours ago. He got out of bed and grabbed me before I could get out of the room.

"I enjoyed last night." He kissed me as he pulled me into his chest. I could tell his confidence skyrocketed over night. I smiled leaning into him.

"I love you." I smiled standing on my tippy toes to kiss him before the front door swung open and my stepped in. I pulled away turning to greet him. "Hey dad." I smiled.

"Hey, Bells." He smiled. "How was your night?"

"Good." I answered moving to the table. He sat beside me. I watched Jacob who was leaning against the doorway, his shorts riding low and no shirt on. He was standing behind Charlie so thankfully Charlie didn't see when he bent down and picked up my bra off the floor before flinging it around his finger. My eyes widened before he chuckled and threw it behind him onto the bed before stepping out and closing the door.

Jacob stood behind me and kissed my head before turning to the fridge.

"How about burgers?" He asked. I watched him move around the kitchen grabbing everything he would need.

"How about a shirt, son?" Billy asked taking in his appearance. It was like he was trying to flaunt the fact that we had sex. He stressed me out.

"No. I'm okay. It's nice out." He answered heading out the back door. I followed behind him.

"Can you try to not flaunt it?" I asked standing on the porch looking at him.

"I would but I don't want to." I shook my head at his cockiness.

"We won't do it again if you don't chill." I answered crossing my arms. He shook his head chuckling.

"I don't believe you." He answered putting the burger's on and a few hotdogs. "Not with the way you were moaning last night."

"Shh!" I hissed at him. "I'm going to murder you." I added. I went down to stand beside him. "Please? I don't want my dad to find out."

"Fine. But only because I love you." He kissed me.

"I love you too." I smiled watching as he made our lunch. When we joined our dads, they both seemed suspicious of us.

"So, what did you two do last night?" Charlie asked taking a bite out of his burger.

"We hung out at the beach until like what? Midnight?" Jake said. I nodded as I ate. "Then we came back here, watched a movie and went to bed." He answered eating. I was going to try to avoid the topic. Of course we were safe and I'm sure they were both hoping we were. "We should go the food store after we eat and get something for dinner." He added.

"Okay!" I said. Anything to get out of this house and away from our dads looks. Once we ate, I cleaned up and rushed into Jake's room to get my bra. He came in as I was taking my shirt off. "I guess we only have a few more hours of our secret." I looked over my shoulder at him as I clipped my bra.

"What do you mean?"

"Oh, my mom will know the second she sees me. I'm sure she'll blurt it out at dinner." And I wasn't wrong. She blurted it as soon as she walked in the door. I would never be able to look my father in the face again.