The Price of Happiness

[NIKITA]

Alone in my office, I think about all the things that happened and for the hundredth time, I watch the video that explains my family's condemnation. It kinda hurts that all of this happened and I couldn't do shit.

I know I have blamed myself enough times for it, but one more time doesn't sound so bad. It's simply a reminder of my helplessness that has greatly magnified.

I look at myself in the camera on my phone and wonder if I deserve all this pain and the answer is still the same as yesterday, I don't know. I try to work on packing while the video plays in the background and everything sounds okay until it doesn't.

I finally got something to work with. Without hesitation, I play the video from the beginning because I really need to know if I'm going crazy or if it's true, which would suck, but not more than my life at this moment.

Oh, God.

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