FORTY FIVE

Recap

When do I get to pick? Today is the day that the truth finally hits me square in the face. C or D. Truth is attempting to get through to me and realisation is gnawing at me. They always told me I was alone. It pleaded with me to stop putting my hope in other people. However, when my dad was still in my life, I felt much more secure. It would have been a shame to give up on such a lovely fantasy.

I used a lot of different adhesives, including cement, glue, and a few more. Ignoring and suppressing this intrusive thought. I convinced myself it was much safer inside, but then I noticed something. It was too late; I had already filtered it all out. I forgot to let people out, so the place was bright inside, but I couldn't go. For my own company, this environment was created. And yet, here I am, alone in this stunning fantasy. The sky was clear and the grass was green, but there was no one around to see my embarrassment.