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Hindi ako mapakali habang nakaupo ako at nanunuod. Iniisip ko kasi kung si Logan, at kung nasaan ba siya ngayon. Hindi ako makapag-hintay na bumalik siya.

Bumuntong-hininga ako. Hihintayin ko pa rin siya.

Sandaling napa-baba ang tingin ko sa aking kamay. Pinag-masdan ko ang singsing na naka-suot sa'king daliri, at sandali'y napa-ngiti ako habang tinitingnan ko iyon.

Hindi na ako makapag-hintay na maikasal ako kay Logan. Pero kailan pa kaya kami ikakasal? Ano kayang bagay na wedding gown sa'kin yung isusuot ko? Parang timang na tanong ko sa sarili.

Sandaling naalala ko naman yung araw na paano kami nag-kakilala ni Logan. Ugh! Hindi ko pa rin nakakalimutan yung ka-halimawan niya. Naka-kamiss. Pati yung kasungitan niya--matapos niya akong ibagsak sa sahig, Ugh! Ang guwapo pa rin niya. Naalala ko rin nung nag-date kami, saka pumunta kami ng cebu. At yung nakilala ko si Rix.

Speaking kay Rix, nasaan na kaya siya ngayon? Hindi ko na siya nakikita kasi simula nung nag-kakilala kami sa cebu. Hays. Baka nandon parin siya sa cebu kaya hindi ko na siya nakikita ngayon.

Lumipas naman ang ilang segundo at nakaramdam na rin ako ng antok, napa-hikab naman ako.

Sandali'y kinuha ko yung cellphone ko na naka-patong sa maliit na table sa aking harap. Kaagad ko naman iyon binuksan at tinignan ko kung nag-text ba o tumawag si Logan. Pero wala akong natanggap mula sa kanya.

Pilit nalang ngumiti kahit na medyo pumanglaw ang buo kong katawan, at pagdaka'y ibinalik ko na ulit yung cellphone sa pinag-kuhanan ko.

Naramdaman ko na bumibigay na ang takulap ng mga mata ko at napa-hikab ulit ako. At kailangan ko na rin sigurong matulog. Pagdaka'y pinatay ko muna ang tv pagkatapos ay humiga na lang muna dito sa sopa.

Ipinikit ko na ang mga mata ko hanggang sa maka-tulog ako.

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|| Logan Figueroa ||

I drunk my wine while I'm on my own chopper, which was I used therefore I can immediately be there at my house. I got a news from Roxie that my mom and dad was already there at house--together with Stella's family.

Yeah. I know what's fucking going on. Roxie said to me that Stella darn grumbled in my parents. After telling to them na binabalewala ko lang siya. And the fucking also I know is when Roxie told me that Stella is pregnant. And I know that's the damn reason why my parents got back there from States.

Speaking to my parents, they're always staying there in States because of their business matters. At nasanay na rin ako dahil hindi na bago 'yon sakin, when I was a young and then until now, they only cares for their business, and not for me nor to Roxie.

After some few minutes, I stood up when the assistant told me that I'm already in our location. Ibinaba ko ang wine glass then I immediately get outside the chopper.

Sinalubong naman ako ni Jak na ngayon ay nag-lalakad papunta sa akin.

"Oh, sir. Kamusta na po?" he said with a smile on his face.

"Not really good." aniya ko pagdaka'y pumasok na ako sa loob ng kotse. Kasunod ay sumakay na rin siya. Afterwards, he droved the car.

"Siya nga pala sir, bakit hindi niyo ata kasama si ma'am ganda?" I glance on him for a moment. I smirked.

"I don't. Besides I don't want here to be involve there. I'll just clean up something a mess." as I said that to him. He didn't let out some words.

I know he understand what I'm saying, because he knows what's going on.

After some minutes, I abruptly climbed out the car. I put my hands inside of my pockets, then I walked in a sluggish way inside the house.

"Oh, son Logan. You're now here. Have a seat." bungad sa akin ni dad--oh I could call him Harold. Tsk. I can't feel that he's my father.

I just look on him and all of them. He was seated there at the dining area with mom and Stella's parents. Then her, as I tilted my head on her.

Speaking to Stella, I noticed that she's like a hell kind of a one. Her head was down and it's seems that she acting like she's a good one in the eyes of my parents, and also to her side. The hell. She's actually a spoiled brat. And the hell that she's not my type.

Throwing my thoughts. It's not kinda new for me. I know they're wanting me and them to talk about Stella's condition. For pete's sake.

I just glared on dad while mom squinted on me for a seconds. And I notice on her face that she's not comfortable for this kind of situation.

"Logan, why don't you join us here so we can start to talk about you and Stella. Do you?" dad said with a smile plastered on his lips.

I just look on him in a blank expression while still standing here on their front. I tried to spoke.

"I should not. Besides, I see that it's suburban. It will just wasting my time." as I said this to him, I abruptly turn back to them then I make steps. But before I walk away from them, I heard Harold shouted on me.

"Logan!" i stopped for a moment. Still didn't turn my self on them. I feel now his presence is getting closer on me. I heaved a sighed.

"You bastard son, you still didn't change! you still showing up your being rudeness on us. Is it that the way you treat family, and them? Huh?!" he said irritably. I tried to turn my body on him. Sabay tinapunan ko siya ng masamang tingin.

"Tsk. You know me Harold. And I don't, then you should not damn try to force me." I said in emphasis. Nahalata ko sa kanyang mukha na nang-gagalaiti na siya sa galit. His clenching his fist. Pagdaka'y, itinaas niya ang kamay niya, look like he wants me to punch my face. Tsk. He's still didn't change too.

"Harold! Stop that!" I heard Jane, my mom restraining Harold, halos mapa-tayo siya sa kina-uupuan niya.

Ibinaling ko naman ang tingin ko kay Harold na ngayon ay nag-titimpi sa galit. Sandali'y ibinaba niya ang kanyang kamay. Napabuntong-hininga siya ng malalim.

"Mr. Logan Figueroa.." I took a glance on Saunder which was Stella's father. I saw he stood up. I didn't uttered any words for a moment while waiting him to speak.

"I don't know why you're like that and why are you doing that asshole things. But remember, you have a responsibility for my daughter. You make her pregnant and that's why you also needed to marry her." my teeth suddenly gritted for a while as I heard that from Stella's father.

Oh. I can't really believe that Stella is pregnant. How come is it happened? Damn that whore girl.

I turn at my back to look on them straightforwardly.

"I don't care about your daughter. And I don't even remember that I make her pregnant, this is a fucking useless plan so she can do whatever she wants. Tsk. Yeah. Fucking marry her.." I paused for a while. I looked at Stella for a few seconds and I noticed that her face are turning into red. I smirked.

Her parents must know her foolishness and frovolity. Para magising sila sa kahangalan ng babaeng 'yan. Tsk.

"I don't like a whore. And I do not fucking taste her goddamn trash vagina." I said in straightforwardly. I foolishly smirked.

I tilted my face to Harold and I noticed his face turns into rage. Then I squinted to Warren which is Stella's father, and he can't burst out something to say. Dumbfounded.

I grinned then I turn back on them, at ini-hakbang ko ulit ang mga paa ko paalis. But again, I still didn't reach my car to get away here in this house when Stella blocked my way. Making me to stopped again. Walang gana ko siyang hinarap.

"H-how dare you to say that words in front of my parents! You didn't respect me! Y-you..you!" dinuro-duro pa niya ako. Hindi ko na siya pinag-hintay na magsalita ulit nang nilagpasan ko na siya.

"Logan!" I still walk outside of this house.

I don't care if she'll damn shout there to call me for a whole time. She's nonsense and she's making me waste my time.

"Is it why you're doing this because of that girl?! that Marsha, huh?!" tumigil ako sandali ng mag-pantig ang mga tenga ko matapos niyang banggitin ang pangalan ni Marsha.

I made steps towards her and I not let my self to be cruel. I calmed my self.

"Why? Oh, I see. I just mentioned it. Is there something wrong on it?" She chuckles like a stupid. Then she look on me firmly. "Logan. She's not for you. Look, she ruined us. If she just let us ourselves to be on each other, it will not turn into this." she made a chuckled again.

"Hindi ko na pata-tagalin 'to Logan. You should immediately choose for it. Me or Marsha?" she ask me in desperate.

I don't know what's was popping in her head but the hell cares. Tsk. Is she really a numb?

"Stop this Stella. Don't assume that I'll choose you over her. You're making all things hard. You're messing yourself.." napansin kong nag-gagalaiti ang ekspresyon ng kanyang mukha. Kalmado pa rin akong naka-tingin sa kanya.

"No, Logan! If I'm just on Marsha's place, it'll not turns into this." ngumisi pa siya ng nakaka-loko. "Now, I will ask you again. Tell me Logan. Me or that girl from your past?"

Yeah. Speaking to Marsha and me, she knew actually about us--our past. After that day when she saw me with Marsha, she really insist to know wholly about her. And that damn I said to her so it will slapped her, and she may know that she's not the girl I want to have in my life. And I will never damn love her.

"So you chose her than me?" she paused. I noticed on her eyes that it was raging.

"As you said." after I said it to her, tumalikod na ako sa kanya. Naka-halukipkip akong nag-lakad palabas ng bahay.

"Oh really, huh!? You really chose her and not me. Why are you doing this to me? I should be that girl, Logan.." she paused for a seconds. Looks like in her tone that in turns into pain. The hell she deserves it. "No. I'm actually not. You didn't chose me. Then fine! You can't have me then I will ruin you and that hooker girl until she'll disappear in your eyes!" binalewala ko nalang ang sinabi niya. Patuloy pa rin ako sa pag-lalakad. She's really a brat. She's darn out of her mind.

But for a seconds, I kept in my mind about what was the last words she said. And if she'll do anything bad to Marsha, I'll make her life more miserable. She don't know what can I do, at kapag nalaman kong ginawa niya talaga 'yon kay Marsha. She should be ready, I won't let her fucking alive until dawn in just a snap.

"So, did you see how desperate that girl is?"

I saw Roxie leaning her back on my car. Her arms was crossed against her chest and she's smiling like a hell. I stopped for a while as I'm standing on her front.

"She's insane." walang gana kong sabi. I heard she chuckled.

"Nah. I see.." she fixed her self ng humarap siya sa akin ng maayos. Suddenly her face turns into a serious.

"If you'll let me, I can shut her mouth for you. She's not a girl for you Logan. Oh, why? She's losing her self out of control.."

I know why she said that. Dahil alam kong hindi rin niya gusto ang ugali ni Stella. And aside on it, she knew everything about me and Marsha, even our past. That's why she suddenly hired Marsha before in my company. Yeah, and that's the thing that I like also on her.

Well, she's a kind of a sibling for me. Even we don't bear sometimes on each other, we still have care for each other--she always think for me if what's the best for me, and she's the one who's always also at my side to help me. Yeah. she's a good sister for me. Even sometimes she's too brat than Stella, and she's acting like a boss instead of me. Making me just to obey her goddamn wants. For pete's sake.

I felt that she tapped me at my shoulder. She smiled plastered on her lips. "Make yourself happy with her. Because I know how you really love she is. Just call me if you need help. Especially for her." she shrugged. "You know, girls life. Because I really like Marsha for you. And I know that she'll be safe and happy with you also." as she said that to me, she made a sign on me using her head, telling me to get inside of that car now.

Hindi ko na siya tinapunan nang tingin ng sumakay na ako sa loob ng kotse. Afterwards, I let Jak drove for me.

After thirty minutes, he finally reach my destination. Afterwards, I get inside the chopper so I can be there immediately to bicol, where I know Marsha was there and waiting for me.

Speaking to her. I really damn missed her. I can't wait to see her again--to fuck her lips, tights, her puss while making up with her. Suddenly, my finger was arousing. I hide my smile. Darn wild thoughts, Logan.

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I stopped walking for a while when suddenly, I saw her lying on the couch. Sleeping. I carefully made steps towards her. As I'm too close to her, I seated on the floor.

And for a moment, I looked on her. I cares her face, at hinawi ko naman ang buhok niya na tumatakip sa kanyang mukha. And for a moment, I was tantalized on her as my eyes glued on her, scrutinizing her body.

And damn, I saw her revealing legs on me, as she's just wearing my own t-shirt. And except of it, she's not wearing a bra and her lingerie.

I gulped. I remember that she was naked while we're eating a while ago. And I love it actually. Darn. I felt my junior was wanting to get out in my pants. The hell.

I also noticed that her breast was darn revealing in my two eyes, as because of his wearing shirt was well-tightened on a shape of her body, while she's sleeping in an inclined position.

Darn. I want to wake her up so we can make up again. Ugh!

Throwing my thoughts, I decided to lift her up on a couch. Then, I brought her in our room. Afterwards, I lay her down carefully, and I put a bedding on her. I noticed that she's still sleeping deeply. I smiled.

I seated at her side then I kissed her on her cheeks. Still smiling while watching her sleeping.

Darn this feelings for you, love. I really love you Marsha. I want you be there always at my side. And I don't want to lose you, love. I mumbled to myself.

Then afterwards I atood up and I lay myself beside of her. I decided to put her head on my arm, suddenly she turn her body on my side and hugged me. Still she's sleeping. I also do that way to her. I kissed her again on her cheeks. Then afterwards, I closed my eyes until I fall asleep.