Growing Desires

|Eshan|

The human mind brilliantly plays the loop of 'what if's' when you're already playing down. I did not want to be stuck in that. When one had control over our brain? As I gazed more at the woman in the painting, I could not stop my brain from wandering into a vicious and painful cycle of imagining the different scenarios.

They circled from her father to how would have her life turned out if not for that monster. What if, we would have met earlier? Wouldn't it have been great if I had her by my side in those days?

My mind could not stop projecting those ideas, and as the thoughts grew larger my heart turned heavier. I exhaled loudly, holding my head in hands. I should have never let Rey in the office. My mood was ruined. My desire of staying and working in the office was ruined. All I wanted to do was to run back to my home, where I would not have to worry about anything.