My thoughts

I don't like to admit but these last two months have been the most unproductive months of my whole life.

I felt lazy doing anything; I stopped writing even though I wanted to write just because I was lazy; I started to procrastinate a lot. Telling myself I will do it tomorrow and then laze around the whole day to once again tell myself I will definitely do it tomorrow the next day.

I stopped going to the gym and gained a lot of fat; I ate a lot of unhealthy food. I completely fucked up my sleep cycle, sleeping at 10 am and waking up at 5 or 6 pm.

I wasted my time watching videos on YouTube just so that the day passes away. I played a lot of games, and even though I was getting bored playing games, I continued to do so, just because I felt lazy.

But it all hit me a few days ago when I looked at myself in the mirror. I am becoming fat, but the worst part was realizing that I was losing a lot of hair because of my unhealthy lifestyle.

Losing my hair was the biggest blow. I realized that I need to stop doing whatever I was doing and go back to the days when I had discipline.

So, from now on expect regular chapters. I promise I won't go missing for weeks like the last two months. Sorry for that. I also started going to the gym again from today as I need to beat back the discipline in me.

I am talking about this to you guys because you are strangers to me, yet some of you have been with me for the past three years reading my work. I can tell you things I can't tell others because of the unfamiliarity and a screen between us, keeping both parties anonymous.

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I realized that becoming lazy is the worst thing that can happen to someone. It kills your drive, your discipline, your focus, and many other things.

If some of you are going through the same thing I have, I think you should pick yourself up. Some of you will have it hard while some of you will get back up within days. At the end of the day, it's just your will against your body.

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So ya, expect me to get back to regular updates, five days a week.

And I would also like to hear if you guys have gone through what I have. People might think overcoming laziness is easy, but it's one of the hardest things to overcome in my life right now.

I need to be strong and stop procrastinating.

Well, anyway, thank you for listening to my rant.

You guys have a great day and I hope you guys give some little more effort in whatever you are doing to make your lives a little better.