A Coded Letter (II)

Chang felt her lungs aching and her hands trembled as she sat in front of the small writing desk. Liang Ju-Long instructed her to write a letter to Jian, or he would do to her mother and Jin Ying what he had just had done to her.

The men had submerged her head in a few times each time being a little longer. The torturous feeling of not being able to breath and thinking she would drown every time had been terrifying.

As weak as her mother was, she probably wouldn't be able to handle it. Chang couldn't bear to see them do that to her as well.

'I'm so sorry Jian, I'm sorry I'm so weak.' A few tears leaked from her eyes as she gripped the pen. The letter she had to write had to convince Jian to not come for her again after she left. 'I really don't want to do this.'

"Start writing."

Chang cursed the man in her mind not daring to voice aloud her hatred at this point. With a trembling hand, absent mind and heavy heart she began to write.

Liang Ju-Long hovered over her shoulder looking down at the words that she wrote, even though she hunched over the paper trying to keep it hidden.

"That is not what I have instructed you to do." Liang Ju-Long snatched the paper she was writing on tearing it into shreds. "Start over, if you go against my orders, I will carry out my promise on your mother, and then give you to these men behind me. Do not test my patience again Miss Dumont."

Chang looked at the men whose demeanor all changed after the man's words. Shuddering she turned, avoiding the gazes, and leaned over the paper trying to think of what to write.

An idea came to her after thinking of an exercise she used to do with her dad for fun.

'I hope you'll understand me..'

When she read it through the code it read

"We try, we lost. Please forgive me didn't want to. Liang Ju-Long came forced me. I love you. It lie"

To others when read it stated this.

"Our first and last words are the most important. We started out only on a whim, it would make sense that it end on one, no matter how we try. We are something that was no meant to last, from the beginning we had lost. Please don't come an find me, for that I do not think I could forgive. Me and my mother will be returning home to the comforts you couldn't provide and didn't.

Want after me all you want, but do not seek me out even if you want to. Liang Ju-Long never liked me and I was never suitable, that's just the way I came. Forced, is how I feel when I try to put myself in this role by you, it's a life not meant for me. I will not say back you to you 'I love you.' It would be a lie.

Signed, Chang Xie Dumont.

Your ex-wife.

"Good, a little sloppy, but I did not expect too much from you. Give it to me." Liang Ju-Long sealed her words into an envelope before handing her some more papers. "Fill these out and we will be on our way. Be quick about it, this has taken up too much of my valuable time already."

On the pages were the words 'Contract for Divorce.' Her hands shook but she diligently filled out the paper her tears staining the page here and there.

'I really hope you understand, I wish I had told you I loved you in person, please find me so I have the chance, I'm sorry I missed it before. I should have told you so many times, I want to tell you it everyday, I don't want to do this.

'I don't even know if you're safe, but I hope you are.

'Come back safely and find me again.'