2 Chapter 1: Fears

It's 3:15 am when I woke up and I know that I won't be able to get any sleep for the rest of the night. So I decide to prepare myself for this day. It's shool first day, after a lifetime of homeschooling I don't really know what I will encounter. I am totally scared, all the movies and all the books I read about high school life really freaked me out. It would be better if I had any friend but unfortunately I don't. To make thing worse I would surely be at least two years younger than any other student in my grade, to summarize a total nerd .

After spending so much time at home with my inanimate friends aka books I don't know anymore how to interact with

real people. Mom used to say that I was a charming baby, always smiling, bringing joy to everyone, and I loved everyone when people carried me even stranger. But that little girl is gone, the girl I am now is just a shadow who like shadowy places, a bookworm and my favorite an antisocial, on my therapist opinion.

I should probably wear some makeup to make look more older but I don't have any even if I had I wouldn't know how to use them. My mom died when I was six so it was just me and dad until a few months ago when a got a girlfriend no better " a fiancee " as she announced it last Christmas with that creepy french accent that freaks me out.

I know it been years since mom's death but I can bring myself to accept that she would be sharing my dad's life, like all children I like the idea of dad and mom together, and now someone else will occupy her place. It hard to accept it so I repeat to myself that dad deserve to love again, mom is gone forever and will never come back, that would have worked better if she wasn't a total hypocrite, a monster-in-law after Jennifer Lopez movie, on my father's sight she is perfect loving and caring, trying her best to make me feel comfortable but when he is not It would be better to live in a viper den at least it well known that they are venomous.

So Madeleine, my soon-to-be mother-in-law had convince my father to send me to school that it would be good if I face my fear of social interaction. She didn't know anything, I am not fear to interact with people, the problem is that they don't like me. Nobody will a person who can read your most darkest secrets or your death, your are just a freak and they fear you. My attempt to assist to school on nineth grade I couldn't make it till the end of the week, and now I ask myself of I will this time.