Chapter Twenty Nine

Zach's POV

Violet moves over to sit down on Tyler, rocking her hips as he holds her breasts in his palms. And I barely stop myself from crawling behind her to throw her forward to fuck her with him too.

Fuck, I shouldn't feel this out of control.

Maybe it's because I'm not controlling the scene, she is. I know that, I can feel it. But shit I don't feel in control. I just want to slam my body into her in every position I can until I can't help but fall asleep.

Instead, I pull Callum's sweaty body to mine, kissing down the side of his neck whilst we watch her fuck Tyler. Her hips move back and forth rapidly as she takes his length over and over again.

Callum surprises me, not throwing me off and letting me nibble my way down his skin. I test my new boundaries skating my hand down his chest. His chest isn't normally the problem though. He's fine until I get to the skin above his pubic bone. But not tonight. I skate my hand through the hair on his happy trail loving the feel of his muscular body beneath my fingers. So different from Tyler's less muscular athletic build, so full of muscle and hard lines.

I want to dip lower, to grab his cock. To fist it but I hesitate to get used to being allowed to touch his pubic area at all.

"Fuck Zach just touch it already," he tells me shoving my hand down on his cock until I fist it rather forcefully, rubbing my thumb over the wet bulbous head.

He's still rock hard, probably suffering like I am. Watching them fuck that is. Tyler's all but spearing her on his length now controlling her hips, picking her up only to slam her down again.

"Fuck, don't they look good together" I whisper into Callum's ear as I lean behind him, pulling his back to my chest as I toss him off rather vigorously. He doesn't push me off and I know why, he's just as fucked as I am, inside that is.

I sense the sadistic bastard inside him that likes a rough fuck, just like me. And he's more than happy that I've taken him in such a way because he wouldn't ask for it, he tries to control the urge to fuck, to lose control.

"They do look good together."

Damn, right they look good together. Just like I'm sure Callum looks good with Tyler, though I haven't seen that yet. I will though.

"Do you trust me, Callum?"

"Yes."

"Good" reaching back to the bedside drawer I reach under my lounge pants for the bottle of lube that I keep here. I might be going way too far here. But I won't know until I try so I show him the bottle of lube before coating my fingers watching his reaction. Happy when he doesn't immediately tell me no.

His body instantly tenses, I knew he would. But what I don't expect is his quietness, the fact he doesn't outright refuse whatever I'm thinking. I expected for him to refuse, to rebuke even the thought of me touching him where I intended.

He's changed, it's about fucking time.

He jumps as I place my hand back on his cock, fisting him to distract him from the fact I'm going to push his limits whilst Violet still fucks Tyler. They're not far from done, their breathing heavy, her moans close to her release. So I don't have long.

"I won't hurt you," I tell him as I coat his asshole with the excess lube on my fingers. I don't plan to fuck him, not yet. But this is the first step to getting him ready to take one of us. I push against his resistance only for him to clench right up making it impossible to tease my fingertip inside him. Shit, we'll get nowhere if he's this tense.

"Relax Callum I promise it will be good" I trail my tongue down the side of his neck when I notice Violet and Tyler both looking at us slowing their own movements to watch what I'm doing "I'll blow your mind" I promise him using Violet's words.

I'm not sure who I'm telling that to, him or them. Maybe all of them.

He relaxes enough that I get my finger into the first knuckle. Moving in and out slowly circling to trick his muscles to relax just a little even though I want to do anything but. I crave to bend him over and shove my cock to the hilt, to fuck him like I would Tyler but I know I have to ease him into this. He's not like Tyler and me... I can't afford to scare him off. So finger fucking him will have to be enough right now. I look over to Violet and Tyler receiving two fucking grins.

That's when I add another finger pushing in as I watch Tyler suck at Violet's breasts. Pulling at her nipples letting them stretch out between them before he lets it go to give the other the same treatment. She mewls at the attention. Her breast is more sensitive now it seems.

I turn my attention back to Callum, his body relaxing against mine now, letting me slip both my fingers in far enough to reach his prostate. His cock jumps as I stroke his sensitive spot a few times. I can't help smiling into his neck. I remember the first time Tyler showed me what it felt like. He had me hooked with just that once. Fucking blew my mind and I had fucked a lot before him so that's saying something. And that's why I crave Tyler dominating me, just him fucking me has me coming like no other orgasm.

"Zach" I can hear the fear laced in his tone, he's never even tried this. Most men don't. But even straight men can experiment for a better orgasm. Prostate stimulation is fucking amazing. And I'm glad I'm the first person to show him what anal sex can be like for him. Even if I want to dive into the deep end and shove my cock up his virginal fucking tunnel.

We'll get there.

"It's alright Callum, trust me" He shouldn't. He wouldn't if he knew what I was imagining. What I wanted to do to him. But fuck. If only I could bend him over right now and shove myself in till my balls hit his own, to pound into him over and over until I'm spent.

I hook my fingers as I thrust in and out massaging that ball of fucking nerves as his cock literally jerks and dews with cum. He can't help it I know. Normally I would fucking punish Tyler for doing such a thing but Callum's never experimented like this, never played with his equivalent of a fucking g spot. So he has zero control as I press against it.

"Does it feel good Callum, hmm?"

"Like you wouldn't believe."

"Oh I believe Callum, Tyler hits that spot with every fucking thrust. Deliciously so. Something to look forward to, yeah."

"I'm close," Tyler tells me knowing what I'm doing and I quicken my pace jerking his cock roughly whilst curling my fingers on that little bundle of nerves.

"Callum I want you to come."

"I can't just do that."

"Yes, you can. Listen to me. Come" I pinch his prostate swirling it between my fingers and he does as I say streams of his sticky cum coating my hand. He comes violently but silently into my hand and I catch it all.

Tyler and Violet find their own releases. Both stare at us as they come down from their own pleasure.

I know when Callum comes down from his, his whole body tensing. Especially around my fingers that still reside in him when he sees them staring at him.

"That was hot," Violet tells him.

"Uh, yeah. I guess it was."

"No guessing Callum. I found it hot."

"Me too" I whisper into his ear.

"Maybe next time we can tease my cock in there" Tyler laughs. Now I want to be there when that happens.

I pull my fingers from Callum's ass as slowly as I can bare before getting up and washing my hands in the bathroom. I catch sight of myself in the mirror and can't help but stare at the asshole in front of me.

I still haven't told Tyler or Callum about Henry.

Yet here I am having a fucking foursome with them. I know I shouldn't have. Yet I fucking did it, I couldn't control myself. Shit. And we're supposed to be proposing any minute.

Will they even want to propose knowing I let that man fuck me just to play a game?

You're a fucking moron.

The evidence of his abuse is all over my body. Bruises around my neck, over my ribs. The tiny plaster over the cut on my ribs. I'm sure there are bruises on my back still too.

"Shower?" They're all standing in the bathroom looking at me look at myself in the mirror. My gaze reaches every one of theirs before I shake off the feeling that I'm entering a fucking proposal on a lie.

A huge fucking lie.

"Sure," I tell them as I walk away from the man in the mirror turning both shower heads on.

They love you, just tell them and be done with it.

Love or not infidelity is a breaker. Look at how crushed I was when Tyler fucked around with Sophie.

Why am I even hesitating? I've never kept secrets, never hidden things. So why now, why is now a time that I chose to keep something back?

"What's wrong" Tyler's voice is soft and quiet in my ear. Like he's trying to keep his words quiet. Maybe so the others don't hear. I'm kind of thankful for his discretion, I hate what I am right now.

"Nothing."

"Don't lie to me, is it about him?"

"What?"

"Just tell me Zach so you can stop being this version of yourself. You did nothing wrong, I know that. You know that. Keeping it locked away is obviously fucking with you" more than he fucking knows. But now is not the right time. Not after we just fucked.

When is the right time?

Never if it were up to me but I know that's not acceptable. Relationships don't last on lies.

"Don't make me fuck it out of you Zach."

"Maybe that would be easier."

"Fine tomorrow Zachary. Then you can get back to being Zach."

"Why do you miss me, love."

"Yes, pet" I grit my teeth walking into the stream of water where Callum and Violet are already washing.

Stupid fucking name.

I know exactly why he used it so that this would happen. So I couldn't bear to be fucked by Tyler when I heard it.

So if you know that why not fucking defy it?.

Ignore the fact he used your pet name, don't let him win.

Stupid mother fucking cunt.

If I could strangle Tyler I would. Just to make myself feel better, to distract the fact that I'm letting him worm his damn way into my head.

It's not his fault!

No, but it is Henry's!