Chapter 2

June 16

Happy birthday to me. I just hope they will be like the rest of them. Stay in and hope that none of the remembered, especially Thomas he'd be pissed. He'll probably remember mother fucker has been drinking but drinking is probably the most stupid thing he could have done cause he's gonna have a terrible hangover for at least a day or so. Yea I have an idiot brother I got soo lucky.

Mom on the other hand will probably act like she doesn't care but I know deep down she does, even if I threw up on her yesterday.

Uncle Mat will probably remember but will act like he doesn't know a thing just to make mom better .uncle Mat isn't my real uncle he's my mother's boyfriend but she says I should call him uncle, not dad cause I don't deserve to have a father like him.

(Like I would want a father like him anyways no thank you he on the other hand doesn't deserve a beautiful daughter such as myself I mean I am gorgeous, I love myself and no-one can tell me different.)

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So I woke up remembered it's my birthday and wrote in my journal. Yea I'm living the life, aren't I?

My grandfather always said "be who you want to be not who they want you to be.

I want to say that I don't listen to the line anymore but I do I still have hope that we're going to be a family again cause why not, sometimes people change for the better or the worst.

After taking a bath I decided that I didn't want to say couped up in my room all day like a nobody so I hastily put on my brand new clothes. ( It's kinda like a tradition to wear new clothes on your birthday in my house it's just how we roll.) And I went downstairs to the kitchen.

Once I entered the kitchen I came face to face with a well-dressed mom with makeup on and she had a smile on her face.

Why was she so Happy did Uncle Mat propose or something?

"Happy birthday honey. Did you sleep well ?"

Honey since when. What the fuck is she drunk? or high even.

"Yea thanks .umm ....what is going on?"

"We're celebrating your birthday of course, what else can we do on this joyous occasion. It's when my baby girl came into this wonderful world.".

Was this woman serious did we have guests?

" mother are you high? Have you been taking weed again? Ma I thought you quit no come on you've been clean for a year please don't tell me you gave in to the craving." I said touching her forehead with the back of my hand.

"What no!! I quit that you know I did it was meant to be a surprise," she said.

She looked serious. I am so confused, maybe throwing up on her was a good thing, she repented hallelujah! should have thought of that sooner.

" OK, so what are we doing today?"

I asked as I entered the kitchen.

"Well I was thinking we could start with breakfast .what do you think?" She said pointing to the kitchen table.

Did she have to ask this was amazing even though it was just a stack of pancakes with chocolate syrup I couldn't care less it was soon thoughtful, of her I almost cried?

She was happy she seemed like the old her again, I missed her so much. Ever since dad left us nine years ago for another family mom had been mean and blamed me for everything but I knew it was because dad always preferred boys. Mom needed a way to release her pain and anger so I let her release it on me.

After my grandfather saw me lying on the floor with broken glass all over me and blood he quickly took me to the hospital. My first thought was that I'll probably die, unfortunately, I woke up three days later, I'm a die-hard.

From then till his death three months ago he has always been my rock .but now he's gone.

Well, life goes on that's what mom told me. I have no one .and never will have anyone.

Thomas hates me and says I was a burden to my grandfather that's why he died. What a brother I have.

"Omg mother thank you so much," I answered back after a couple of minutes, hugging her.

"Well dig in we've got a long day ahead of us"

After she said that I ate everything on my plate and it was delicious. Thomas was just staring me down like a mad man. And Mat was starting the car I wonder where we're going.

" come on let's go."

We all entered the car and after what felt like hours we came to a small field. That's when the car came to a stop and Thomas insisted that I put on a blindfold because he didn't want me to see where we were going cause it was a surprise I couldn't object because I was too happy to think. Then I fell asleep

Twenty hours later

" Are we there yet? "I asked them.

" almost there baby"

"What time is it Mommy?"I asked once more

" it's a little over five am darling thirty more minutes. Just be patient OK."

"OK"

Thirty minutes later

"Are we almost there "

"No were already here "

"Yay can I take the blindfold off now .cause it's getting itchy," I asked

"Just wait till we get out of the car then you can take it off OK,"

I had no other choice but to agree

" Thomas helps her out of the car, would you She can't see"

"Yes, mother " just as he said that I felt his hands under my thighs and he threw me out .like literally throwing me out.

The worst thing was my back landed first and it was felt like my skin came off I instantly regretted wearing my crop top.

I didn't have the time to process anything cause as soon as I hit the ground Thomas quickly closed the car door and Mat sped off to wherever they were going.

To be honest I was still shocked .my shock didn't last that long though cause I started seeing black dots in my vision and a car or a truck pulled up To me and the last thing I heard was a voice saying " mi amor (my love ) you are safe with me "

My last thought was what the fuck is an amor?