Loving his bite

[ON-GOING] -expect grammatical errors- I love Vampire and I want to be a vampire. Actually since I was 14 yearsold I already searching on how to be a vampire, but sadly i never succeeded being a vampire. I know I look stupid dreaming of becoming a vampire, but what can I do? I really do want to be a vampire. I took the notebook next to me and read what was written on it. "A person may become a vampire in a variety of ways, the most common of which is to be bitten by a vampire" Who's gonna bite me? I don't even know if vampire do exist psh. This is so frustrating! I was about to go to my bed of course to sleep, when suddenly I heard a bang near my bedroom's window. "Hello is someone's there?" - I ask but no one answer me when I realized something, "OMGG GHOST MOM!" - I shouted too hard that's why my throath hurts a bit. I was about to run out of my room to my parents' room because I'am scared of ghost, but I stop when I remembered something, which brought tears to my eyes. I burst out crying when I remembered that my parents are no longer breathing that they are dead. Five days from now since my parents died, I miss them so much I want to hug them, kiss them, and say how much I love them but, I can't do that to them anymore because they are gone. I still remember that night I was sleeping peacefully, when I felt something cold touching my neck. So I immediately open my eyes and saw nothing but a bat near my window looking at me. I don't know if it's just my illusion because i just awake then that night, but i surely saw the bat's eyes became red. but I just chose to forget the bat's eyes as well as the cold thing on my neck. my heart skipped a bit when I heard my phone rang. Unknown Calling... I quickly answered the call and then that night I found out what happened to my parents. They died because of a car accident. For the second time there was another bang on the window of my room. "Who is there? Come out show me your self, I ain't scared of you! Are you a ghost or a thief?" - I ask but as usual there is no response. "Are you a vampire? If yes come here and bite me, i want to be a vampire just like you" - I said and my tears started falling again. "Or just kill me instead, besides my life is meaningless now, no one will be hurt when I disappear no one will cry because no one loves me. the two people who love me, have left me already, so just kill me" - i said and cried again "I have no siblings, I have no parents, I have no friends, and I do not know where my relatives are, my life is useless please kill me" - I pleaded Maybe because of tiredness of crying I felt sleepy, but before my drowsiness swallowed me up, I felt a cold body hug me. I saw a pale guy hugging me I didn't see him that clear but i know his a boy. "everything will be ok soon, sleep for now my love" - he said and because of that my drowsiness ate me up.